Category:  Teen Poems
Subcategory: STOP Cutting Poems

Votes: 59
Rating: 4.64

I'm 13 and I wrote This Feeling Really Horrible. I have a boyfriend And we've been together for a year and he loves me a lot but for some reason I feel alone and depressed. My mom loves me but just doesn't know how to show it. I don't mention How I feel To Her because I know I would hurt her ! & if I tell others how I feel mostly they don't know how to help and So I wrote my feelings on here just to let someone know how I feel.

This Battle With Myself

©Karla Leiva

Every one tells me I'm beautiful
everyone sais I'm perfect!
But as soon as I see in the mirror I see the reflection of a monster!
A horrible unperfected monster!
& then I feel all this pain!
I can't take it no more!
I feel mental & insane
I have someone who loves me!
He’s the one who keeps me standing in all this pain!
But when I tell him how I feel he doesn’t know what to say!
& I understand it's not easy to help someone like me out?
But I wish he could see what I go through every day!
My life is pretty good most people wouldn’t complain!
But it not my life it’s myself!
The battle is with my self!
& all of this pain takes over me again!
& that cold stupid blade
calls my name!?
And I don’t know what to say
& then my love come to my mind again!
I promised I wouldn’t hurt no more!
But this is just to hard!
I don’t mention nothing to my mom
I don’t want to be so mean
it would hurt her like hell to see all my pain!?
So I just sit down in a corner
& cry out my pain? :/

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