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9/5/2012
Poem of the DayStruggling With Depression And Suicide
by Debbie Leads
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Category:  Sad Poems
Subcategory: Depression Poems


Votes: 425
Rating: 4.57


For all those who are suffering with depression


Struggling With Depression And Suicide

©Debbie Leads

Struggling with Depression & Suicide Ė A Personal Perspective
By Debbie Leads 8/10/03

Days of endless struggle
More hopeful pills today
Trying to appear Ďnormalí
In some sort of way.

It seems that the struggle
Is always here with me
And I wouldnít be here now
If guilt would leave me be

I know thereís been many
Whoíve had it worse than I
But that doesnít always mean
That I wouldnít say good-bye

People say I have a lot going for me
Iím sorry, but I just canít see
I canít see because my worst enemy
Is not my life, but inside of me.

Always on a roller coaster,
Not much consistency
Iím nothing if Iím not up or down
Iím nothing if just Ďme.í

Very little energy
Wanting to stay in bed
Wishing to be enthusiastic
Instead of feeling like Iím made of lead.

Wanting to be excited
Wanting to care for more
But when nothing makes sense
Itís hard to focus on the poor.

Cluttered mind, cluttered thinking
Itís hard to keep in touch
With what is happening around me
And not to worry too much.

I feel that everybody is better than me
And that I canít do anything right.
This is how Iíve felt my whole dang life
It didnít just start last night.

No confidence, no self-esteem
Everybody else is right
To speak my mind is to be a fool
So I just try to Ďsit tight.í

Any one of these problems
Would be a heavy vice
But when you have them ALL
Living seems like a roll of the dice.
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