You Will See Them Someday

Hello, I'm only 12 years and my nan died about 4years ago. I was really close to my nan, but I was to young to know what it would be like to have her gone forever, but now that I'm 12 I have felt the heart break of how a death can hurt someone so much.
This past year she has been in my head all the time I have been going over the times that we have had together and now I wish she lived for longer, a lot longer.
It shows how much I need her back, beacause I have been cutting myself and wishing I was dead, but my mates keep on telling me "dont cry, dont kill your self, your nan is up in the heavens watching you" but I just want to see her again, but now I know what die and death means I can't have her back.
I love you nan, please dont forget thaat (l) xxxx,

Hello, I'm 12 years old. About 5 months ago the 25th will be exactly 5 months but I lost a friend and I'm in 6th grade this girl was in 8th. Her name was Harly McNeely. At my school we have this thing called office helper and you sit in the office and do what the people need you to do. I was an office helper for one quarter of the school year and it was almost time to end that quarter but one guy came in my school to get his step daughter out of class early and it was 2:00, so I went and got the girl out of class which was Harly later that day (it was Friday) one of my friends ask me if I knew Harly so I was like yeah and they said she died and I thought they were kidding but they weren't and at first I didn't realize it but she was in a car wreck on hwy 29 but she passed away at 2:55 & for so long I kept thinking It was Friday at 2:55 how did she die when we weren't even out of school but then it hit me I got her out of class that day and I just felt like it was my fault she had been in that wreck, if I had been a minute later or earlier she might still be here today. I did and still do feel terrible. I cry almost every 25th but I also write poems and I wrote one for her but on my Facebook page I have a page set up for Harly.