Disappear

I had to get married when I was 16 years old or else I would regret it my parents said . They took me to court and had me marry my husband I been with him for 7 years and right when I feel like I should let go of the pain and love him he proves me right I can't love him. I hate him he is 7 years older than me it feels as if I know every detail of him but he doesn't know who I am. I try to be as normal as possible around friends, family and strangers. I've been judged before and told never to complain but sometimes its hard to put up a smile. The worst feeling in the world is not knowing if love really exist. I ask myself this question when I see couples ... I wonder why they're together? I don't believe in love.