I Didn't Want You To Die

I miss you man, won't you please come back
'Cause you were loved, didn't you know that
You saved my life I could talk to you.
I would have saved yours if only I knew.

Was it my fault that you ended your life,
Did I hand you the rope? Did I sharpen the knife?
I can't help but think that the night I O.D'd
Was the moment that Death came and planted the seed.

The reruns come often: you sitting so still
The sounds and the smell and the bone crushing chill
The note on the table, your hand on the ground
They haunt all my nightmares yet save me somehow

So this I am writing to lessen the pain
And maybe just somehow you'll hear me again
And if on occasion you notice I cry
You'll understand I didn't want you to die.