How Did I Let This Happen?

How did I let this happen?
What happened?
This can not be?
Not me?
How?
How I may be 13 but I am not stupid I know how!
I didn't know what was happening.
It was like 2 seconds long!
Then I was late!
I couldn't even face my parents.
When I told them their barely 13 year old daughter
was going to have one of her own?
They couldn't face me.
They are disgusted.
They tried to send me away.
Now I am living with my sister.
How could can I go on with my life?
Slut they call
I know I'm nothing at all
How could the priest daughter be pregnant at age 13?
My sister says I should get an abortion because I am to little to have a baby!
She says that a 13 year old 5 foot 1 90 pound girl can not have a baby!
BUT I AM A FIGHTER
The options are clear to me I am going to give her up
or I keep her.
Its going to be tough but I have to choose between a life I once knew
Its gone its so far away its hazy
How did I ever think I would be cool if I did that stuff
it made me cool for like 3 months
And now I am being called a SLUT
How can they say that they are doing the same thing I did?
I am the only person who is going to pay
Pay and even an innocent little girl that could've gone to anyone
anyone else
someone
someone else
please take her!
I love her I can't keep her when she's out
she's going to someone who can give her a good life
Because that's how strong my love is for her
She will always be mine
But I know that I can't keep
if I could I would
but I need her to get a good life
Life
that's all I can give her