The Edge

this poem really touched me.
I am 22 and my mom passed away it will be a year in July.
She was really ill and died at home on her hospice bed. I have 2 siblings but both were out of state and didn't make it in time. it was the hardest longest night of my life to sit with her as she was in a coma. I wanted to talk to her so bad. I have a hard time dealing with it all. I don't want to live at times and my brother and sister are the same, we don't talk about her we just simply can't and she is all we had..
So thank you for sharing your heart! I'm praying for you! <3

I lost my mother when I was but 23 to suicide...Now at 36 I'm fighting daily not to follow.....

I lost my beautiful mother to cancer 6 years ago. I miss her so much and my life has felt empty as the memories of such an amazing friendship we shared can never be replaced. I wrote a letter to her saying that I would be ok and how much I loved her and that I would search for her when I die, I put it under her pillow as I curled up to her in the hospital bed. she died that night. I didn't want her to feel that I gave up the fight for her and I didn't want her to die but I wanted her pain to go away. I have not felt secure in the life that I have led as I feel everyday this pain is deep inside my soul. I can't look at her picture without feeling ashamed and weak as I know she would want me to be happy but I feel so stuck and scared of life as I know it could never be the same. I have been running from this pain for years and I feel so changed I don't know who I am anymore. when will this feeling stop.

I lost my Mom two years ago to a stroke. It was so sudden that when it happened, I had no idea what hit me. My life came crashing down on me within a matter of seconds. She was in the hospital for 10 long, agonizing days. I couldn't stand to see her look so weak and helpless. When I was younger, I would tell my mom that if she ever died that I would die with her because I couldn't live without her. But when it actually happened, I didn't have time to stop and catch my breath. She died in the hospice center a few minutes after I walked into her room to say goodbye. I couldn't say anything. It was the worst day of my life. My mom was gone forever and I had no idea what was going to happen next. I know how you feel, but it will be okay. I made the decision to live on for my mom and you can too. I will be praying for you. Thank you for your wonderful poetry. You have a talent. I'm sure your mom was very proud.

My mom passed away 6 August 2012, on my 7th wedding anniversary and it felt and still feels like it is a nightmare that should just end when I wake up, but when I wake up I realize it is reality. I hurt so bad and I get your poem is a way that seems like I wrote it. I turned 27 this Saturday but it feels like I don't want to go on because she is not here to share this with me. I wanted to do a 10 year renewal of our wedding as she couldn't share our original wedding with us, and now she is gone - I lost my hard drive with all my photos a month before her death and have exactly 19 photos of her, but not even one with my son who is now 8 - it breaks my heart and I feel that nobody understands as they seem to think I must be over this by now, I feel sick with heart ache. I hope and pray that you have come thru it and are still here - that you didn't give into the misery because you have inspired me to keep fighting the demon of the dark to hold on just for her. :'(

I just came on this site to get some comfort. My mom passed 3/19/12 and the 1 year anniversary is almost here. I feel it was like yesterday I saw her, an then I'll feel like its been forever. Time kind of stopped for me when she passed. she was a single mom and my best friend. I miss her daily. I really don't have anyone around me that understands. so reading all your posts I truly feel for all of you. but I don't feel so alone. If you read this know that I'm struggling out in the world with my loss, so don't give up!