One Last Beat

I sit here all alone
afraid of what is going on around me,
I thought you were the one!
I thought you loved me,
My eyes are shut,
My ears are covered,
And yet my heart still bleeds for u,
And my brain still yearns for you.

You are my drug,
I’m an addict to you,
My drugs have turned against me,
My life is over!

People say theirs still hope for me,
People stop mentioning his name
just so I can start forgetting what happened,
But that’s the exact thing that is making me worst.

I’m sitting in the corner of a white room,
I have a marker,
I choose to write his name
over and over again,
And yet something is missing,
The whole room is lit up with his name...
from wall to wall,
As I open my veins up
they splatter the truth over and over again,
It is complete!
And yet I never will be.

I see one of his friends,
They wave,
I cry,
As reality hits me hard,
he comes over and gives his sorrows,
As I collapse from reality jumping out at me,
SURREAL, SERIAL is the only real word replaying like an obsession in my mind.

I sit here all alone
afraid of what is happening all around me,
I thought u loved me enough to live,
You took your life
and left me in this cruel world,
Alone, Scared and Afraid...

As my life collapses in front of me,
People smile as they say they know...
they know what I’m going through,
But they can never truly understand what I’m going through,
I never said good bye...
I never truly said good bye!

As the thought of death ruins through my body,
I reach for deaths tool,
As I slowly force it into my warm pale skin,

Blood comes pouring out,
A piecing scream is let out
into this harsh atmosphere,

People come running,
Yet its too late,
I whisper into their ears,
"Let me go"

As I grasp for air one last time,
My eyes begin chrysies,
I become weak,
And true happiness hits me hard
As I hear his name ...

My eyes are shut,
My ears are covered,
My blood has stop flowing,
My heart, stops, with One, Last, Beat!