Lost My Way

Oh Lord, oh Lord, with words sincere,
I ask your help - please will you hear?
This world has torn my integrity apart
and so to you I pour out my heart.

Whenever I ask, you give with no delay.
Yet it's not long... Till I throw it away.
This is not a wrong, sin or evil.
For even these words shun with retrieval.
Not even darkness can bare to see.
Oh what has happened to me?

I use to stand against this world so strong.
When it was you I lent upon.
I was so young with circumstances so bad.
With only your refuge I had.
My mother gone, stability and security too.
Leaving me not knowing what to do.
Yet in this time so dark... with light brighter than the sun
You gave it a spark.

Please help me again to keep us friends,
and not to follow this world's trends.
You've given me a gift so good!
And I've broken it like termite wood.
So I ask with shame in a six foot grave.
Can you help fix my life... in which you gave?