Molded By My Pain

A pain so deep inside of me that no one will ever see,
I take the pain and lock it up and throw away the key.
Because if I take this pain out of the bottle for you to see,
You would not know the one you know because I’m not even me.
The one I was months ago disappeared the night you left.
My sailing soul was caught ablaze and sunk into the depths.
I smile on the outside but within my hearts in rage
A beautiful vase filled with poison, my sadness turns to hate.
The hate that I have, I hold the closest to my soul.
It is the only thing I have left of you, it is hate that makes me Joel.