Remorse Is Forever

Definitely made me cry. I will pray for you. Don't know if you've been to the Pro-life Rally in Washington D.C. but I'm sure they'd love to have you and to hear your story.

yea...I had one too and I absolutely regret it, its been almost 8 months and I still haven't forgiven myself. I wanted to keep it, but my "boyfriend at the time" didn't want it. he had a 2 year old son, and me being me I let him get into my head with all the "I cant have another kid, my family will hate you, and you don't need a kid right now you need to enjoy life" that he said to me, 4 days after I did it, he started talking to his sons mom again. He left me lonely, lost and depressed..duno how I will get over it. I miss my baby everyday...I will never have an abortion again it was the first and last time, and if I could go back I would, I wouldn't care if I had to do everything myself I rather be a single mom then not a mom at all...to a baby I once had....

It's hard to believe that it's been 17 years since I made that selfish decision. Your 13 year old sister and 11 year old brother will never know how lucky they would have been to have you as an older sibling. I regret not having you despite the social fall-out that I would have endured. Your life was not meant for me to take. I hope you can forgive me and I can't wait until I can hug you.

My mother had an abortion before I was born. She told me when I was 18, which means my sibling would've been 3 years older than me. I am 26 now, and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of them. This poem was so touching, I am sorry you are going through what you are going through. There isn't a day that goes by my mother doesn't regret what she did, I do too! will be praying for you and your husband

Your story has touched my heart, as all abortion stories so often do. Please remember that God can see deep inside your heart. He knows you regret the decision to abort your baby. He knows you have to live with that decision each and every day! He also wants you to know that He loves you and forgives you! Through this life experience, you have an opportunity to help change the hearts and minds of a nation who is blind and deaf to the pain and suffering caused by abortion. You can make a difference in another young mother and her child's lives. This poem is a huge first step. God bless you.

I'm so sorry I know how you feel I made that same painful decision and to this day I cry and reading your poem I cry I've never hurt so bad in my life and would give anything to take it back I was selfish and I too have other children, but nothing can replace this child and I will truly never forgive myself I talk to her/or him every night when I go to sleep and just say I'm sorry I love you.

Although I have never had an abortion your story touched my heart. I wish that everyone who is considering abortion could read your poem as well as many of the others on this site. God bless you and your family.

Thank you for your lovely poem. God does offer forgiveness when we repent. He will never stop loving you! The Lord has recently moved my heart to start an anti-abortion blog. We need to help save the babies but we also need to love the ladies! We all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. Ebony, you are right where you need to be with the Lord. And I have counseled others to know that their aborted little ones will indeed be waiting in heaven with open arms to reunite with their mamas. Just like your little angel. Love, Pastor Melanie

I really like this poem, and it takes a lot for you to tell your story, GOD doesn't punish people for their mistake instead he takes you and shields you in his arms, continue to pray and you will be blessed..

I wish I could go back. I would be celebrating my babies 1st birthday this month. I think about you every day my little bean, I wish your dad didn't make me believe I had no other choice. I miss you and love you and cannot wait until I can hug and kiss you xo.

My husband and I have a 18 month old little girl, and I have recently been diagnosed with cervical cancer, so when I got pregnant we made the decision to abort. It was the hardest thing I've ever done, and the biggest regret of my life. Your poem is something I will always consider very personal and will always be my comfort. Thank you. It is amazing.

This poem touched me very much. 20 plus years ago I had an abortion. Today I am doing a post abortion bible study. There is forgiveness and hope. Really the hardest thing is to forgive myself. So sad how many lives are affected by abortion.

Thanks so much for sharing these wonderful words with all, I wish with all of my heart and energies that we could pass laws that protect out youngest future citizens, they are our blood and not just a "fetuses" like they say they are. we act only out of fear and emotional ignorance. we will carry this mourning in our hearts.

Hearing you story touch me in so many ways I'm 18 and was pregnant and had a miscarriage on 10-27-10 and before that I was really considering an abortion because the father said he couldn't handle a child. The pain of knowing that a part of you will never see or experience what we have or see this day is the worst pain that a woman/mother can experience. Not a day that I don't think or cry that my baby isn't here. I almost feel it's my fault that I had a miscarriage or that god is punishing me for considering the option of abortion. your poem is truly inspiring and you are in my prayers

I had a termination 20 years ago. I was just 17 and on a medication that caused developmental issues with the unborn. I also had no support from family. I felt I HAD to. I have regretted that decision everyday. I have 4 children now but I always think of my oldest baby. He will always have a special place in my heart and I hope that I have the forgiveness that I have asked for all these years. If I could turn back time I would in a heartbeat.

This is almost like reading my life, but instead of having a miscarriage, on medical grounds doctors said I had to have another abortion. So I did, only to be told 2 weeks later that they had made a mistake and I could have had the baby. I'll always feel like it was karma, that it was my punishment.
It never leaves you and I will always blame myself for it.
Thank you for sharing this poem. It's extremely sad and I'm sorry for your loses. xxxx

Hello all my name is Ebony Angel Bailey Bryant I am the author of this poem and it brings me great comfort and joy to know that my tragedy could have provided comfort to someone else. I have 3 other kids and a stepdaughter my husband and I are still together but unfortunately I have not been able to forgive either of us. Your comments have all been very comforting to my still aching heart and soul.

loved your poem. I have had 2 abortions. both very painful to me to this date. I am blessed to have been able to get pregnant again and I have decided to keep this child even if me and the dad don't get along in the end. I already have 2 boys from different relationships and the fear of another child being raised without their dad made me follow through with my decisions but not no more. I have put my fear aside and will raise 3 babies alone if I have to. God knows I didn't want to go through with it and all the tears I cried and the pain I went through. Thanks for a beautiful poem. expressed my feelings perfectly!

I don't know where to start with my story. I've had 2 abortions from my ex partner I also have 3 beautiful children and they are the only good that came out of that 13 year abusive relationship. I have recently had a baby boy from my new partner who means the world to me and is bringing up my other children as his own. I'm suffering from my actions all those years ago and not a day goes by when I don't regret it..but for some reason I'm dreaming about it. I wish I'd had the strength to save my babies lives and I'm sorry for taking them. I had no right but at the time I thought I was doing the best for them :( I'm in bits xx my heart goes out to all you ladies and our tiny baby angels xx

I am so so sorry, a wrong decision, a life of regret and stabbing pain when least expected - its been 20 years and never eases - so sorry my should have been baby, so sorry x

I just went through this not long ago. I still can't stop crying. It hurts so much. I wish I wasn't so stupid and chose to not be so selfish. Not a day goes by when I don't think of my unborn child. I have so much love for him/her even though he/she will never get to know :'(

A child is a gift from God, but with certain circumstances in a person's life, we do what we think is best at that moment with the pressure and depression. God sees the heart of a person. Life is always not about wants. God is a loving Father who understands you, accepts you and loves you just the way you are. You cannot change the past, sorrow no more! He has already forgiven you. Just commit the matter into God's hands, press forward and count your blessings :)

So sad to say this is my biggest regret in life I was young and I know that no excuse I always wonder what could have been. I had so much family support but I still made this terrible choice I hope and pray for forgiveness from god and my little angel.....

It's been 28 years for me and rarely a day goes by that I do not think about, and regret my decision to have an abortion. I never got pregnant again, although not much later in life, I desperately wanted to, even trying in-vitro fertilization, to no avail. I tried for 20 years to have a baby. Then I got cancer and had to have a hysterectomy. No baby for me. Ever again. Worst decision I ever made in my life. I'll go to my own grave begging my unborn child, and God, for forgiveness.
I'm forever sorry, baby.
Your poem is beautiful.
Thank you for sharing.

I went to college. Had sex with this boy whom I barely knew. Needless to say that one encounter was all it took for me to get pregnant. I tried talking that morning after pill several days later. Days dragged on like months and everyday I wondered am I pregnant while waiting for signs of my menstrual cycle. My breast began to feel tender like never before and of course I though it was because my period would soon start. Days go by and no sign of my period. Labor day I decided to go get a pregnancy test come back home and take it. Of course it read positive. Really scared I immediately told my mother hoping to get some comfort. She was more so disappointed than anything. She took me to get two test and they both read positive. To make an even longer story short. My baby's father was not cooperating he had somehow made his mind think that he wasn't my baby's father and I was only trying to set him up. I felt like me having my baby would bring shame to all my love ones. I felt like I had no one and one wanted me to have my baby. So made the decision to abort. I carried my child for 10 weeks before I had an abortion. And almost half of those ten weeks consisted of severe morning sickness. Which kind of made me want to abort. I went through with the abortion. And I at first felt really relieved. But that quickly wore off. I began to really regret my decision. I just want my baby back and I felt that I was selfish and unfair to a life that God had blessed me with. 8 months after the procedure I still haven't coped with it. I think that by now my baby would be at least two to three months old. One day I hope I finally forgive myself. Until then I will continue to pray that God and my precious little baby forgives me.

I am 6 weeks along and the father wants me to get an abortion that's all he really says. I have been thinking of keeping the baby after all these stories I know it will be hard either path I choose. I know it is not a good time and we don't have the money for it but I just don't know if I could live with myself if I do have the abortion. Me and the father aren't together anymore he says will get through it but I an very scared of what to do.

I had an abortion when I was 17. It was a one night stand and when I confronted the father he denied all knowledge. My mother took me to have it. Wasn't really any other option.
I have always been a partier since then and a little off the rails but when I was 26 I met a great guy and fell pregnant. We were over the moon. The pregnancy was ectopic and resulted in the loss off the baby and of one of my fallopian tubes. I was told that the chances of becoming pregnant were very slim and of carrying to full term was even less. Naturally I was upset and blamed myself. My relationship ended and I took off overseas. So this brings me here. I am 29 and 11 weeks pregnant but I am single and so scared. I want this baby but I am scared that I want it for the wrong reasons. My life has changed and I have made so many plans that don't include being a mother because I didn't think it was a possibility.
Look but if I don't have this baby I will hate myself.

Bonnie from Mesa, I am praying for you! I was told once, that if you make a decision from selfless love, that you've made the right choice. Never make a decision from fear, you are no doubt stronger than you think. I am praying for strength, wisdom, and peace for you. With love.

I know it wasn't something that I was suppose to do but I was scared and so confused. I didn't know who to talk to about it and the guy that got me pregnant was really mean to me when I told him I was pregnant. He told me things that really hurt me!!!! Idk why I did it! I don't know what was I thinking! I just hope my baby forgives me one day...
A few days after I had the abortion I had a dream that it was a beautifully baby girl. She was beautiful!! I wish I could go back and have my baby in my arms because it's really hard for me to know that I took her life away when I didn't have the right to do something like that!! I think of my baby every day and I every night that I look at the stars at night I know that one of those stars is my beautiful baby girl!! God please forgive me!!