Tell Him The Truth

I know I made a promise
that I couldn't keep.
I can't figure out a way to tell him.
THE TRUTH IS.... And I can't complete my sentence
soon as I find the words I know this would be the end.
I don't want to lose you but deep inside I feel like I already did.
Because if I tell you the truth it is only more and more damage.
Lying from the bottom of my feet to the crown of my head.
Paranoid. Losing Sleep. Over what I did.
Stalling. trying not to think about it. I try to tell myself
I have to tell him the truth over and over again.
To ease my nervous. Hands shaking Knees getting weak as if you were
to see what I did wrong. I woke up that night and the person I was kissing wasn't you. But now here you are coming through. I can't shut you out of my heart because you live deep within me. You know me from the bottom to the top. I can't believe I did this to you to me.
And the longer I take to tell you the harder and harder it gets to breathe I love you. Trying to cover it up but I feel like....
I feel like.....
Deep inside I have to tell him the truth.
I can't wake up lying next to you.
I know what I did was wrong.
Just wondering if I should tell
you at all. But I know that I have to TELL HIM THE
TRUTH.