The Baby I Lost

• by Marypacific
• 10 years ago

You put all my feelings in words. I lost 2 babies this year and it's heart breaking!

• by Somerset Pa
• 11 years ago

I found out me and my husband were going to have a baby May 2nd 2013. The only one between us. He has 2 boys to someone else and I have a boy but besides that I found out Sept 1 I was and I went to my first baby appt. Everything was good that night I started bleeding went up to the hospital and they did an ultrasound I got to see the baby it was doing good that night the bleeding stopped then I woke up to a bunch of blood and want back to the hospital and they gave me the worse news in the world I lost the baby. I was so broke and still am I lost it Sept 25th 2012 it's so hard.

• by Toni, Green Bay WI
• 11 years ago

I'm 21 years old and two months ago I lost my little angel. I was only 2 months pregnant, I had no idea how to tell my mom or dad that I was pregnant and I really didn't want to because they would be upset and I just didn't want to put them thru that. But then one night I started having really bad stomach pains that just kept getting worse so my mom brought me to the ER and they did some tests and they came back and told me that I was having a miscarriage and my mom kept telling the doctor that his tests were wrong that I wasn't even pregnant, so I finally had to tell her and she was happy but then sad at the same time. On the other hand I still hadn't told my ex that he is a father or was going to be a father but I couldn't tell him because he broke up with me right after I found out that I was pregnant.

• by Sarah, NZ
• 11 years ago

This made me cry so much , tomorrow is a month since I lost my little girl .. and it's been three years since I lost my little boy .. I still cry, it still hurts , and I still don't know how to cope .. Mummy loves you Angelee and Hunter

• by Kitchener
• 11 years ago

I am 22 years old and just lost my baby boy April 15th 2012. I was 23 weeks pregnant when I went into labor my cervix opened, my water broke & soon after the doctors told me my precious little baby wasn't going to survive, 12 hours in labor knowing my sweetpea wasn't going to stay for long was absolutely torture, I held my baby in my arms for just a short while, I miss you baby Nicholas

• by Eden
• 12 years ago

I had my baby last year. For me it was an awful experience. When the doctor told me I was pregnant I didn't know what to feel happy or scared. I was going to be a teen mom. When I went to get my ultrasound at 16 weeks. There was no heartbeat. I knew if I had the baby it would be difficult but my baby died before I could see my baby. The father's baby cried with me day and night. I know someday I will see my baby.

• by Joe, Uk
• 12 years ago

My heart goes out to all of you women because it goes out to myself. I lost mine at 7 weeks on 10 Sept 2011 it was the most horrible day of my life. I was so looking forwards to being a mother. I would sit and day dream about what it would be like when my little one was here. At the time my mum and dad were away and the hardest part was telling them they weren't going to be grandparents anymore because they wanted it just as bad as I did. I felt as though because I wasn't as far along to the point of where I was ready for an ultrasound scan or to feel him or her move that I didn't have a right to feel this way until reading all these poems. Thank you for putting all our feelings in to words each poem I have read I have saved so I can always look back and know I'm not alone god bless everyone and your lost babies !!!

• by Lyndsi, Indiana
• 12 years ago

I was 17 years old and pregnant. It was just this year. my boyfriend was 24. My first visit to the obgyn was to get blood drawn and I really didn't need to get an ultrasound done at the moment they said they were just testing me to make sure I was healthy. I said 'no I'd like an ultrasound' they ended up putting me down for May 18th to go for a follow up. That day I was so excited to hear my baby's heart beat. The ob found my little one and she finally turned on the sound after taking pictures. she didn't look too well after turning the sound on, she told me there was no heartbeat, I froze for 2 min didn't know what to think. They asked me 3 different ways I could pass my baby on. I chose to get a dnc done. That day I was suppose to be 10 weeks and 1 day but I lost my baby at 8 weeks 5 days. I had soo many plans for my little one. I was suppose to go to the hannah house in Bloomington, a group home where women go to better themselves. Instead May 19th I went into surgery and my life changed right then.

• by Siani, Australia
• 12 years ago

I too had a miscarriage, at 11 weeks. I was only 15 at the time, but it hurt me so deeply inside I can still feel the pains. My heart goes out to all those who have suffered.

• by Lisa, Texas
• 13 years ago

In march of 2002 I delivered a boy, he was very sick but survived and I had my tubes tied. in October of 2003 I found out I was pregnant. I lost that baby 3 days later via emergency medical abortion because it was a tubal/ectopic pregnancy. I was approx 8-9 weeks. every day I wonder why....and now my friends are all having babies and I am left unable...so I keep praying that God will answer my prayers and bless me with a miracle!

• by Lluvia
• 13 years ago

This poem really got to me. I got pregnant on March of 2010 and I lost my baby on august 2010. It was my first time getting pregnant I was really happy and excited I got to hear his/her heartbeat for the very first time. I was really devastated when I went to the hospital to get the first ultrasound to know the sex of the baby when the doctor told my baby was dead I felt like If I was having a nightmare but it was true. Something that hurt not only me but my bf too. So now I know baby is in a better place my lil angel.

• by Michelle, Spokane
• 13 years ago

This was my first child. I hadn't gotten AF and I never really thought much of it as I was under a lot of stress. well I had a dream that I was pregnant and I took a test and sure enough I was. I scheduled my first ultrasound and got to hear the heartbeat, which was totally unexpected. I was so excited even though I am young. I didn't tell anyone except my best friend. I was placed at 6 weeks 3 days. about 2 weeks later I started spotting. freaked out I called my OB and she said to come in if it gets any worse. well it got a whole lot worse so I went to the ER. they did an US and found my baby but couldn't find a heartbeat. I opted for a natural miscarriage. later that week I passed everything. It was so hard. My parents never knew, the dad never knew. Only a few close friends. I hid my grief well. Everyone thought I was okay, but behind closed doors I lost it. that was almost a year ago March 15, 2010.

• by Christen, Knoxville
• 13 years ago

I was only 17 when I had to go through telling my parents I was pregnant. At first, everyone was worried, then excited as we planned for the precious child. We had so many plans, and goals for my little one. Then I had the miscarriage, and lost my baby. I hid my feelings for a long time, acting like I forgot, no, I just cried when no one was around. I felt like it had to be my fault, maybe something was wrong with me. I had to face people not knowing and asking me about the baby, everytime it put a dagger in my heart. I miss my baby angel so much, but I know I'll hold my baby someday.

• by Jennifer, Houma
• 13 years ago

I read your heading and knew I had to read the poem. My name is Jennifer also & I was told I couldn't conceive. I had to be rushed to the ER because on the bleeding and found out I was pregnant. I was so shocked. I was told that I was probably losing my baby. I was hoping & praying that I would not lose the baby. Three days later and it was confirmed. I was in the process of a miscarriage. I continued for at least another 6 weeks, ER visits, bleeding, unbearable pain, and emptiness. That was 6 months ago and I still hurt. It's the holidays, and I can't help but think about the joy of being pregnant right now. Thank you so much for putting my feelings into words that I couldn't find.

• by Thussha, Malaysia
• 13 years ago

I was very excited when I found out I was pregnant. It was my first baby. I never know what and how it is carrying a child, till I felt it. A very new feeling, the dignity and pride of being a mother. We were newly married and were not financially stable yet. So, my husband decided not to have the baby for the moment. I was 2 months and I didn't take any efforts to abort the baby as I really wanted to deliver it, still. I lost him on 30th July 2010, Friday night. I was bleeding non stop at the washroom for more than 4 hours. I immediately called my husband and he rushed home from work. I was admitted at hospital under observation for a day. I always take things practically but, I can't be the same after what I've lost. I'm still crying and I can't get over it. Guilty conscious keeps hunting me for no reason. I just hope and pray that, God blesses my little one as I love him always.

• by Alicia, Groveport OH
• 13 years ago

I feel your pain. I was told that it would be hard for me to conceive. Then one month I didn't have a period, I took one, two, even three pregnancy test and they all came back positive. I couldn't believe it, I was so happy. I went to my first baby appt. and they said everything was fine. Later that month I started spotting. I went to the hospital and they said I was fine. Made an appt. with my OBGYN for ultrasound. By this time I was 13 weeks and when I had the ultrasound done they had told me my baby had died at 7 weeks. I was devastated. They had given me a pill to take and the next day I started to have pains and started to push. It lasted all night. And what was so painful was they told me I had to put my baby in a bag and put it in the fridge until my next appt. Lets just say I changed doctors. How could they make someone go through that. I still have my ultrasound picture, and cry. But one day God will bless me with another miracle. Stay Strong Ladies

• by Michelle, Illnois
• 13 years ago

This poem touched me deeply. I had a miscarriage February of 2009. It was the most painful thing I ever went through. It's been over a year and I'm still trying to cope! I miss my little angel so much. Stay strong and God bless any one whose gone through that

• by Leslie, Jamestown Louisiana
• 14 years ago

I was so happy when I got pregnant with my forth child, especially since I had my tubes tied two years earlier..I called my doctor to make an appointment. When I went I of course had to have several ultrasounds, they couldn't find the baby. My doctor wanted me to take a pill to end it, but I refused. On Dec 22 2009, I woke in a lot of pain. I went to the hospital, scared for my baby's life and mine. My husband was out of town so I was all alone. They did another ultrasound and found the baby on my right ovary. I was devastated! I was 14 weeks pregnant when I lost my child and it still hurts just as bad as a stillbirth. I keep telling myself that everything happens for a reason, but it is the most painful thing a mother can go through. This poem describes exactly how I feel. Thank you so much for writing it.

• by Lucy
• 14 years ago

Aww, that was beautiful.. I can relate to this so much, I lost my baby too, it can be so hard to deal with at times, stay strong.

• by Ashley
• 14 years ago

This poem touched me I lost my baby last June also. I know what your going through and its really hard to get through this its almost been a year :(