Thinking Of You...(Heroin)

Thinking of you, I become obsessed.
Because of you my life is in ruins, my life a big mess.
Most days I can't even get out of bed to get dressed.
Those crazy thoughts lingering, in my brain.
As I start thinking of ways, to take away my pain.
I really don't know, what I can do.
I cannot get through, one day without you.
I once had dreams, that I failed to chase.
So now to my family, I'm a big disgrace.
I know I was younger, when I had those dreams.
But life is a lot harder for me, than it seems.
Then I had no idea, of how it would be.
But now I'm in ruins, for everyone to see.
Your determined to stay, and ruin my life.
And I let you control me, I'm not strong enough to fight.
Sometimes I'm high, but usually I'm low.
Please have mercy, and let this addiction go.
I tried to stop, but it's too late.
I lost all control, over the decisions I make.
Your voice in my head, controlling my brain.
Slowly driving me, completely insane.
Sitting here thinking of ways, to let you go.
I realize your here for life, I know.
But there is one thing, and I know this is true.
I cannot go on living my life, without you...