Abuse Poem

Victim Of Sexual Abuse

I wrote this poem to the guy that molested me. I read it to him in court

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I was molested and raped by my very own brother from the ages of 5-11. It …

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© Chelsey Scott more by Chelsey Scott

Published: Nov 2007

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Bottled up inside are the words I've never said
The feelings that I hide
You can see it in my face
You can see it in my eyes
Trapped inside are the lies I can't replace
With memories that linger
Won't seem to go away
Seeing your face today the same one I blocked from my mind
Finally giving me closure so I can move on with my life
I was seven years old and at a friends birthday party
I didn't know what sex was but you forced it upon me.
I blame myself for what you did and I couldn't talk about it because I thought I would be in the same place you are today
I was seven and all I wanted to do was play
You took all of my innocence away
Do you know how bad it feels to be scared to stay in the same room as you papa!
When you were his little angel?
And not knowing what to say at work to a guy that reminds me of you.
Or having night terrors all my life because of what you did
I have been scared of guys
I've been scared of everything
I've always had to stay on the safe side so I wouldn't get hurt
I wasn't allowed to stay the night at my friends house because heaven forbid you might be there.
I wasn't allowed to trust anyone because everyone was like you
You can say sorry for what you did
And I will most likely forgive you
But you cannot say sorry to that seven year old girl at her friends birthday party
Because as of today that scared little girl no longer exists.

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  • by Savannah
  • Jul 2013

I was molested and raped by my very own brother from the ages of 5-11. It was an every day thing. When we got home and my parents were at work, I knew what to expect. I was terrified at first. Eventually, it was such a routine that I would make my mind go elsewhere as it was happening. He is seven years older than me. He was supposed to take care of me, his only sister, the youngest child out of the five. If this is what love meant, I never wanted to fall in love. My grandfather also molested me once. Because it only happened once in my mind I've convinced myself that it wasn't such a horrible thing to do. Till this day I suffer from flashbacks and nightmares. How to forgive my abuser, how?

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  • by Savannah
  • May 2013

I was abused when I was 6 yrs old and 11,12,13 by a family member. I want to tell someone, but he always told me that he would kill me it I told someone, but for so long I'm still in fear of him and he went to jail for what he did. I still think it's my fault for what he did to me the nightmares are what I have every night. No one believed me when I told someone, but I was taken away from my home. I cried I didn't know what was going to happen to me.

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  • by Brandi, Oklahoma
  • Feb 2013

I was raped by a friend of the family. I closed for 2 years then one night I cried badly didn't know how loud I was until my mom came in and wrapped me in her arms begging me to tell her what's wrong but I couldn't say it I had too much stress on me already. This happened a few months after my dad passed away. I stayed with friend happy then it happen I wanted to cry I couldn't wait to go home I finally told my mom she cried so hard and it was too late couldn't do anything about it. Till a few months later he did the same thing to his daughter.

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  • by Nicola, Manchester Uk
  • Oct 2011

I was abused by my father the truth still has never really came out about him. I have let 2 of my sisters down and don't know what to do or where to turn. He abused me at my aunties house where we had to go to visit him. The memories are blurred and no times or dates are remembered all I do remember is that it was so very wrong.

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  • by Abby
  • Sep 2011

I was sexually abused by my moms boyfriend when I was six it continued every night until I went into foster care at age 10. He said that's how daddy's love their little girls and I believed him. I felt dirty I feel ashamed I hate when guys touch me. I see him every time I close my eyes and at night I'm scared to go to sleep cuz I member it all. When I close my eyes everything replays in my head. I'm 13 now and he will never be able to see me but the worst part is my mom didn't believe me. I had no one to go to, no one to trust I was alone and in pain and now that is stuck with me the rest of my life.

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  • by Jenn, Chicopee, MA
  • Jul 2010

I was molested by my father for 4 years... from the time I 4 to about 8... I have recently been married, it is hard for me to come to terms with what has happened to me in my past.. my husband knows about it and supports me through everything I go through... I am 21 years old now almost 22... I am moving on with my life and I feel the only way to do that is to tell my father just how I feel... and this poem has helped me figure a way out on how to do that... I thank the author very much! For giving me courage and strength!

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  • by Caitlin
  • Mar 2009

I just recently this past year did a controlled phone call. Which is if you don't know a phone call done with the police where you call your abuser and try to get them to admit to something. I did pretty well and I hope to one day be able to go face to face with him again and tell him exactly how I feel

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  • by Fanny Mae Marin Martinez
  • Mar 2009

when I was 12, I was sexually abuse to by my dad's best friend a friend that he trusted ................I shut myself up for 4 years until I open up to my teacher in high school............. but my childhood is taken away, nothing I could do to get it back nothing, I'm scared of guys boys is really hard to trust people know.............I still have fear that my abuser is going to come back I cry myself to sleep........................I'm 18 now but I still live with shame, fear of what happen to me I didn't get to live the childhood that I wanted but what could I do nothing

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  • by Sam
  • Feb 2009

that had to take a lot. I couldn't have done it. That's horrible, but there's some messed up people in this world, and some of them turn their thoughts into actions. I'm sorry you had to go thru that, but I'm glad that your molester got what he deserved.

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  • by Allison
  • Nov 2008

I was abused too, and it made me stronger as soon as I found the strength to get over it all. it will be okay. I never used to think that it would, but look at me now. I'm off to college next year and I am as strong as I can ever be.

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