Where Were You?

My father hasn't been around for about 8 years now. I'm fifteen in a half, and I just recently found my father. It's hard for me to open up to him, especially since he has a new family. A wife, and a step daughter. I asked him to come up for my sixteenth birthday. I hope he comes. He's not the best of dads, but he is my other half.

This story really relates to me when I was born, my real father wasn't there, or anytime after that. He didn't pay any child support, or show himself whenever I had a birthday or when I graduated from elementary and high school. Even to this day, I still wonder where he is, and what he's doing now. My dream is to someday track him down, and have one long talk with him. I'm coming for you, Dad!!!!

Abandoned and left in the dark to find the love from a man that I never had in my life. Now I strive for that love that I never received from my dad oh how I wish I was a daddy's girl to tell him about boys or get his help on homework. I'm going to be 17 and not once has he spent more then $15 on me but I wish he would see what a woman I've became without his love and affection. Oh how I wish he would stop making promises that he can't keep or excuses of why he left when I make something of myself is that when you wanna play daddy? When your flesh and blood that you made has succeeded in life and a daughter that came back 10x stronger then what you ever were. I'm cool with my Stacy and step dad Will just know he will be a better man then what you ever were with no excuses and them sweet kisses and tight hugs someone who's going to pick me up when I fall and wipe my knees off, but one question for you deadbeat with a daughter that's about to graduate and have prom and homecoming where are you going to be hitting the bottle or the pipe? Just stay outta sight you missed out on this beautiful little life. That will make it in this cold world.

My father abandoned me four years ago. I never get to see him. Kids at school make fun of me for it, and it hurts. Father wasn't there when he said he would be, nor did he call when he said he will. Half the time I'm wondering why men were put on Earth if all they ever did was drink, knock up women and take off. My mother abused me, and now I'm living with my grandparents, thanks to the both of them. It tears a deep black hole in my heart, knowing that the reason why my parents didn't abort me was because they thought I was going to be a boy, that and they couldn't afford an abortion.