Much time I now spend, watching
Watching as others pass by, living
Living their lives
I watch not for care of wanting to know them
Or even so as to learn from what they do and say
I ..........

The hurt in my eyes is all that has to be said
Sometimes I know I'm better off dead
The pain is the only thing I can feel
Knowing it's the one thing that's real
Behind all the games and ..........

What do you see when you look in my eyes?
A freak? A nameless being?
Or maybe simply another face in the endless sea of people
What do I see when I look at myself in the mirror?
I see ..........

Here I sit with tortured thoughts; I've come to suspect that all is lost.
Alas I've seen depression’s wing landing on my shoulder.
I blankly stare into my life, a pessimist at heart, can't seem ..........

my pain runs so deep I feel like it is inside of me
running through my veins
carving me up as it goes
I don’t want to feel like this
but does anybody care?
I doubt it
I’m a ..........

Life is a bitter sweet pill
I am forced to take against my will
Everyone trying to pull me
Back into so called reality
Why I ask what does it hold?
Don’t they see I have nothing I am ..........

My Closest Friend

The emptiness now becomes my closest friend,
To live each day as it passes just as lonely as the last,
The inside is crying hidden suddenly by the smile,
To feel ..........

Tears fell from the sky, hate steamed down my cheek, anger, pain, kept inside.
No one to cry, but me.
Heaven above, hell below.
I looked in the mirror ugly showed.
Living in hell. ..........

Do you think I like feeling this?
Afraid to look in the mirror and see a complete and total stranger?
Do you think I like looking at shattered glass and wondering
if that’s what my heart ..........

The sickness is back,
I think I need some help.
It just won't go away,
I feel like I'm by myself.
It all started years ago,
the feeling just won't fade.
I feel it is all my ..........