STOP Cutting Poem

Addicted To Cutting

I had a full blown cutting ADDICTON for 3 years. Not that I liked it, I needed it. I'm terribly ashamed of my scars, but I want to use my former addiction to help others.

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I'm almost 15 and have been cutting for 3 years. Not many can tell because I keep all of my cuts in one spot (hip, upper thigh). I used to cut every day and would reopen cuts on purpose and...

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Published: December 2007

I take away beauty
I take away lives
I tear apart families
You'll live in my lies

You'll cover me up,
with sleeves
I'll isolate you-
or at least that's what it seems

you'll feel so deserted
you'll feel so alone
I'll drive you insane
I'll make you feel numb
yet my pain you just can't get enough of

the pleasure the pain
the release that you feel
maybe you'll need stitches
just so "it" will heal

the more you use me
the deeper you slide in
the more blood you see;
the deeper your drawing begins

I'll help you draw the lines
I'll help you paint stars
and the more you abuse me
the more I'll leave scars

but if I cause you death
you blame me
you took me in hand
this I know you can see

I'm caused by depression
Mr. Razor's my name
you can try to cover me up
but I'll still leave an emotional stain

so don't dare forget me
remember my name
you'll be thinking it later
as you cry out in pain

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  • Bella West by Bella West
  • 1 year ago

I'm almost 15 and have been cutting for 3 years. Not many can tell because I keep all of my cuts in one spot (hip, upper thigh). I used to cut every day and would reopen cuts on purpose and wasn't able to be in contact with a blade. Then I realized there wasn't a point. Cutting used to relieve me from anxiety and served as my home remedy for depression when the pills didn't work. I haven't cut in a month, but I will admit to a "cat scratch" suddenly appearing on my hand or leg when I get very very anxious in public. What helped was surrounding myself with friends or people I could be myself around. Yes, it is very hard to stop the urge another way, but it is possible. Find someone you can trust and won't judge you. It may be easy to confide in someone who is also depressed or a cutter, but two depressed people won't make matters better, no matter how hard you try. Try to make that fake smile a real one. :)

  • Kelly Winburn by Kelly Winburn
  • 4 years ago

I'm a cutter. I've tried everything to stop or try to stop but it's just like smoking. It kills!! I know that. It even tears lives apart. But it's just like my only friend so if anybody who is reading this knows me you can go up to me anywhere and give me a hug. Because I've been raped a lot and I lost my virginity at five years. And I have had all the family that I care about die. And I just don't know what to do anymore so there's my story what's yours?

  • Devin Edgin by Devin Edgin, Hot Springs
  • 4 years ago

I'm a cutter too and the first thing I have to say is you don't need it. And no I'm not a fake cutter or one that started for some stupid reason like getting phone taken away or something like that. I'm not comfortable sharing my story it's too personal. But I will say that I'm a loser and my only friend is blades and music.
I just want you to know you don't need to cut, nobody does. If we needed it we'd die without it, that goes for all cutters. I'm not saying it doesn't help, just saying we don't full out need it. What we need is love, friendship, and to feel important. Those are the things we need. Blades don't love us, they don't wipe our tears, they don't kiss us and tell us they love us. Real people do!
I stopped cutting for two years after I met the love of my life, she's gone for reasons that aren't my place to tell, and we've had no communication for half a year. I know pain and heartbreak, and the worst part is when they physically leave, and you don't know if they still love you.

  • Barbados by Barbados
  • 5 years ago

I'm 16 years old and for 3 LONG years I been lost and no matter how hard I try I can't seem to find myself....friends betrayed me, used me made me feel like trash. They made me feel like I'm just a waste in space and that no one will ever love me. Yes I have a very serious case of depression and I don't want to tell my mom because I'm afraid she'll get mad at me. There is soooo much going on in my life that I wish I can get some help with......sometimrd I wish I could die because I feel no one cares :( :(

  • Black Widdow by Black Widdow, manchester
  • 2 years ago

I care Barbados. I care so please, please, please don't cut yourself or attempt suicide, please. You will lose so much of your life if you do, and I am your friend and I won't stop. Lots of people love you. You just have to wait until you find that one special person who loves you for you.

  • Madi by Madi, New Zealand
  • 5 years ago

I am 14. I started in July (a week or so after my b-day, 3rd) then managed to stop at the beginning of September but started again half way through. Things like these really help me because I have never told anyone, so thanks.

  • Wendy by Wendy, Alabama
  • 7 years ago

This poem really related to me. I have been trying to stop for months. It really is hard. This poem helped me open my eyes. I really hope it will make it easier for me to stop.

  • Lily-Mae Mallinson England by Lily-Mae Mallinson England
  • 7 years ago

I am 17 and I've been cutting since I was 11 I hope I can stop soon but I think this poem is amazing and it really explains about how I feel when I cut like no one else can

  • Ashley by Ashley, California
  • 7 years ago

Hi. My name is Ashley. I'm 13 years old and have been cutting for a little over a year now.
And I know cutting is bad but I can't really bring myself to stop. I guess I like that its really the only thing I have control of in my life. I'm not ashamed of my scars because they are me. I guess I like the fact that it takes away my pain for a while.. or at least distracts me from it. I've been so alone for about 6 years.. this poem helps me see maybe I'm not so alone with the cutting.. :/

  • Genie by Genie
  • 7 years ago

I feel the same way I can't stop cutting. It make all my problems go away. I want to stop but it's hard and it's hard to tell someone because they might think you have gone nuts.

  • Alicia by Alicia, New Zealand
  • 8 years ago

Thank you <3 I'm 13 and I want to stop, I just started and its ruined everything.

  • Ariana Black by Ariana Black
  • 8 years ago

I love this. I remember feeling hopeless as I spiraled into depression. I cut for the first time maybe 5 months ago. It seems like just yesterday. But then I realized, "What am I doing?" I still couldn't stop, or maybe wouldn't. But then my friend found out. When I thought no one cared, she did. She stopped me, and after I begged her not to tell anyone, kept my secret. (I'm the type of person that does what you tell them not to if I feel like it). I don't know if I'll ever find that happiness and innocence I had before, but I'm on the right path, I think. But drama lives on. She was sucked into depression; luckily, she never got as bad as me. I have one not so pretty scar across my arm, which I hide by saying "I tripped and landed on something sharp..." If you don't cut, please don't start. You want to know the worst part of my story? I started thinking about cutting at 11; started at 12. I was too young for this.

  • Rebecca by Rebecca, Washington
  • 8 years ago

I am 17 and I am a cutter I love this it is a wonderful poem....I really love it. It's exactly what I needed and I know it's hard to stop when you first do it you feel so relieved you can...but then realize what you have done but you don't want to stop...

  • Conner by Conner, Ok
  • 8 years ago

I have a really close guy friend who cuts. It scares me. I'm going to show him this poem, and I hope he realizes he's not alone. Thank you.

  • Brittney by Brittney, United States
  • 8 years ago

Wow, Mr. Razor Ruined my life. I can't stand to shave now, I can't look at my wrist without breaking down and crying, At first I was relieved. Then I relieved It never really goes away. Hurt and Pain Don't get fixed with the blade, I Got help, I will be "cut" Free as of the first of march, for Three years.

Get help, Or else it gets out of control like it did for me. Good luck Ladies. I have FAITH in you.

  • Kirsten by Kirsten, Idaho
  • 8 years ago

Thank you so much for writing and posting this poem! I have been cutting for over a year now, so I can really relate to this poem. I've told a few of my close friends about my addiction, but they've never cut before. I feel like they can't help me and that no one else would understand my pain. Now I know I am not alone in this. Thank you! :)

  • Madison by Madison, Maine
  • 8 years ago

I love this poem. I cut for a while and I hate my scars, and I finally quit, but the blade always has that hook on you everytime something happens, but this poem has made it a lot easier for me! Thank you so much for opening my eyes (: Truly amazing work

  • Caitlyn by Caitlyn
  • 8 years ago

I'm 15 and I've been cutting for a little over a month. I already have so many scars. This poem really speaks to me; it's like describing my addiction to the blade. Thank you so much for posting this poem.

  • Kierra by Kierra, Alabama
  • 8 years ago

All i can say is FANTASTIC. I am a current cutter and it's just what i needed.

  • Wendy by Wendy
  • 9 years ago

Well cassidy-jane I agree with Alli, you telling someone about your problem will help!
The reason I stopped was because I told my friend about what I did, she was shocked and didn't know what to tell me. But she told me that I had to stop! And well I also told my other friend and she grabbed me by my hand and forced me to talk to a teacher we have known for 3 years, she made me talk to the counselor and since then I haven't cut at all. I am going to be two-years free in September. You will be able to stop this, it is just going to take some time, but be patient. Ok? Best of Luck I know You will be able to beat this!!

  • Alli by Alli
  • 9 years ago

I was a cutter to I know how you feel. I stopped like 2 weeks ago this poem helped me because I did not feel alone so thank you
and PS to cassidy-jane
it will get better but if you have not told anybody you should. Someone you trust like a parent or aunt, uncle, teacher etc. but it helps to have a supporter be hide you
I once cut to far and there was a lot of blood, I thought I had got a vein. I didn't, but it scared me, but what scared me more is after that I still cut, but now I have stop I wish you good luck I know it is hard but remember you're not alone!!!!!!

  • Cassidy-Jane by Cassidy-Jane
  • 9 years ago

...This is the first thing relating to cutting that actually described how I felt. My cuts keep getting deeper I'm so scared but also excited. I'm glad you could stop. I can only hope that soon I will too.

  • Black Widdow by Black Widdow, manchester
  • 2 years ago

Cassidy Jane everyone has stopped on here or has nearly stopped, and you can too if you give it a chance! WE ALL HAVE FAITH IN YOU!

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