The Man She Could Never Have

• by Kennecia Louis
• 4 years ago

I was searching for a way to help my best friend. She tried to take her own life. I thought it was just because of her parents' divorce, but I read this poem and the comments and I spoke to her more about why she would want to do something like that. Turns out 1 smile can hide 100 sorrows. I had no idea of the pain she endured, but it turns out a lot of kids endured worst. What you guys did, putting your stories online, can really help kids. Now my friend is getting professional help and I'm happier than before. Thanks so much for posting your life story. It saved a life.

• by Paige Leeann Shepherd
• 5 years ago

I have gone through some similar things myself. I was abused as an infant and put in foster care. I was adopted when I was four years old. I was raped and molested by my adopted father's father from the age four to the age fifteen every day. I started self-harming, plus I was also abused by my adopted father and mother physically. I still struggle with self-harm and have a very hard time overcoming my problems, but I am doing my best to try and have a better life, but it's hard. I hope people like me and you can overcome everything that's been thrown at us and become better people than our abusers.

• by Ashleigh Blake
• 6 years ago

This was an amazing poem. It touched me right away. I sent all my thoughts and prayers to her. I know how it feels to lose someone very close to you from suicide. I am a survivor. For so many years I thought life would be so much better without me here, but I knew deep down it wasn't the right way to go. I will always keep an open ear and heart for anyone who is or has been thinking life would be better without them here. It would just make it worse for family and true friends...

• by Cassandra, Iowa, United States
• 7 years ago

Beautiful! I am very sorry for your loss. I must tell you I had no plan of leaving a comment when I found this site tonight...having one of those random moments of grief that brought me here, a reminder that I am not the only girl who lost her dad to suicide. The reason I am writing on it is because of how close to my story yours is! What you wrote about walking down the aisle, I have such a sad heart for when that day comes. I won't leave a long boring sad message but have to share the piece that leaves me blown away....my dad also left me a ring. Thinking of you & wishing you a gorgeous life. Take care & thank you for sharing.

• by Ohio
• 8 years ago

I've lost a lot of people so far.. It's gotten so bad.. That I can't get close to someone, I never close my eyes for more then two hours at a time. I'm always waiting for something to happen, and, I was right... MY best friend ended her life 12-10-13 and, I couldn't stop her... Just wish I could catch a break... Reading these poems.... Has helped me through.... So happy I found this site!~

• by Peyton Manzi, MO
• 9 years ago

Hey, I haven't had anyone commit suicide in my family.
For a VERY long time now though, I have wanted to kill myself. I've wanted to die since my ex boyfriend broke my heart. I can't take the pain. Please help me if you can.

• by Tonya, GA
• 9 years ago

Reading these poems had broken my heart. I know it has been a while sinse you all wrote your stories but I too at age 12 to 16 tried to commit suicide and was depressed because of trauma of childhood. My parents were not the parents they should have been and still aren't but glory be to god at age 16 I visited a church and the holy spirit spoke to my heart and I never tried it again. I found peace and more to live for, no matter how hard life gets there is always a reason to live. I hope one day you will find peace and freedom of the hurt and rejection.

• by Sara
• 9 years ago

I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts for about 2 years now, and my dad is the most unsupportive person in my life.
He yells at me everytime I'm depressed and won't leave me alone.

• by Valerie, IN
• 9 years ago

When I was 12 my brother committed suicide, I am 18 now and it's still so hard for me to deal with it. I never tell anyone when it's him that it on my mind because I don't know how to deal with it. He is 21 now and I go to his grave all the time, it's so hard for me that he isn't here, he was my rock, my big brother, my hero. My everything. I love you bubby and always will! RIP Jacob Matthew..<3 Gone but forgotten. !

• by Alice, Uk
• 11 years ago

I myself, at age 10/11 found my dad close to death after attempted suicide. He is still living now, and much happier with life. But I am still left traumatized, and finding things hard. I am angry with him and the world, and this poem really hit home. thank you for writing it.

• by Amanda
• 11 years ago

I know exactly how you feel but I am 16 and my dad is the one that tells me he doesn't want me anymore. I used to be daddy's little girl until he got married to his wife. Know I am nothing to my dad its all about his wife.

• by Nicole, Indiana
• 12 years ago

I've been through so much pain in my life. not enough to end it yet. I was brought up to think crying was a sign of the weak. I cry, but only when I'm alone. I blame myself for everything because everyone else has for so long. I sit alone in my room listening to voice inside me telling me I'm never going to be good enough. That I'm not worth it. I'm not worth any of the pain I cause. When I said I blame myself for everything, I meant everything. I'm fifteen years old, these feelings started in the Sixth grade when I was going on ten. It got to the point in the seventh grade that I'd cut myself so much.. so deep, just to feel the pain go away. Of course I was judged. I had scares all up my wrist. In fact I still do. My mother is Bipolar so that doesn't help either. I have been told by my mother numberless of times that I'm either a mistake or that she doesn't love me. no matter what I do.. and lately I've been to the point that I'm to the point I might just Break. ):