It Started With A Razor

• by Jaydn L. Becker, Illinois
• 5 years ago

I was touched by this poem because I do hurt myself, and I know it is bad, but I have terrible anxiety and when I have nothing to do I get anxious, so I really just got worse and worse. I didn't know what to do, so I tried to commit suicide. I scared myself and my family. Now I do have help and adjustment to my life, but it is still really hard to help myself. I really do feel bad about making my family go through these terrible things with me. I do wish it never happened, but it did, and it's over now. I mean, I've told a few of my close friends and only a few of them actually understood me and knew what I was going through because they were going through it too. I do want to be an inspiration for people who are struggling with suicide, especially since I went through it at a really young age of 11. If you are suicidal, things really can get better like they did for me. Things get better no matter how long it takes, but it still is extremely hard to deal with.

• by Ratanang
• 5 years ago

I don't think some of you understand how hard life is, and you can't just tell someone to stop cutting because they have a life ahead of them. You really can't. You do not know how hard it is to stop cutting. It's easier said than done... Keep your negativity to yourself; it intoxicates.

• by Ava Perry
• 6 years ago

My birthday will be in 3 weeks now and I'll be 12. Sometimes I thought my life was so terrible because some girl ruined me for a year. But now I'm almost 12 and almost in 7th grade. No one deserves to be treated so poorly. What I do when people hate on me is, I make a mean face on them and almost always they leave me alone. So you people who are having trouble with stupid idiots who hurt you, just give them the meanest look you have ever gave anyone before and trust me, they will leave you alone. And also when I was 5, I was learning about suicide and this girl in 5th grade laughed at me and this other girl made fun at me. That day I came home crying and grabbed a butter knife right up to my throat. My family and friends helped me get though elementary which is crazy that was the hardest of my life. When ever I feel I don't matter, I think about committing suicide and then thinking how many people would be depressed about my death. You can make such a big cause in this world.

• by Demi Roberts, Rushville,IN
• 6 years ago

I am a cutter now. It is very hard to stop as it is now. People now and then will ask me what is wrong with me, but I just say it's nothing. When I read this, it made me see that I am not the only one in this broken world.

• by Arzaylea Watson, Los Angles
• 7 years ago

I know it is very addictive. I've been cutting for 5 years it hasn't helped me in anyway what so ever. Nobody knows about what I am going through. Not even my family. I don't want any of my family to find out that I'm trying to escape this world. If they find out I am going to hurt them. I'm just a blade, I leave marks on others as well as myself. I just want someone to care about me for once and to help me out. I just feel alone all the time and I need somebody to help me out with the decisions that I'm making because I know I'm choosing the wrong decision all the time.

• by April Smith, Birmingham Alabama
• 7 years ago

I was actually looking for a short poem for some bullying scenarios that I will be doing with my Girl Scouts, when I found this poem. To share your stories takes such courage! They also break my heart to hear how much pain you feel. I wish that I could show each and every one of you that you are loved and that your life is so precious! Please do not be ashamed of feeling hurt or depressed - talk to someone you trust. Let someone in so you don't have to go through things alone. God bless each and every one of you!

• by Amber, East Bernstadt Ky
• 7 years ago

I have been cutting for over three years now. It is very addictive, I never thought I could get to were I didn't cut everyday. I went to treatment and I got worse, I picked up on new ways to cut everyday. I started running and then one day it dawned on me that my life is worth much more than I thought it would ever be.

• by Jordan, Michigan.
• 9 years ago

Honestly?
I've cut for about 2 years now.
To much pain has built up and never left that it wasn't even a choice to not do it. My family doesn't know. They have almost found out a couple times, but remarkably I was able to keep it from them. It would have broken their hearts if they found out I was harming myself to get away from everything. It was a mistake even starting because every time I get cheated on or get broken up with I end up adding a couple to the canvas that's called my wrists.

• by Hailz.
• 10 years ago

I am 12 yrs old and I have been cutting myself for two days now and I'm already addicted to it because I do it so often. This poem made me cry and made me regret even beginning to cut myself. Thank you and keep writing poetry. You are really good.

• by Sara, Florida
• 10 years ago

I started cutting about a month ago. But 3 days ago I cut to deep and couldn't stop bleeding. I got it to stop after 2 min, If I didn't get it too stop I could have died. I have stopped cutting afraid that I would be alone and cut to deep and bleed to death. When I read this poem I threw away my razor and stopped. I really love your poem it saved my life.<3<3<3<3

• by Chantel
• 11 years ago

This is a great poem...... I started to cut myself when I was 12 and I still do till this day. when I get really upset that's when I start to cut myself. I tried to stop but every time I tried people talked about me and it started up again. I try to hide it but it never works and one time my little sister carved PERFECT in her arm, just like I did. That is what really brought me down!!!!! And that's when I started to cut on my wrist and almost killed myself. That is why I try so hard every day to stop but I don't think I can.... but reading this poem... I think I can I think I really can!!!!!!! You helped me see the real me and to under stand that my life can be taking away in a second. LUV this POEM....LoL!!! :)

• by Bri
• 11 years ago

I love this poem. It reminds me of a friend. I know a lot of people who cut. I still cut and trying to stop. But I have helped some of my friends stop.

• by Vida, Donna TX
• 11 years ago

I used to cut myself I stopped. Yeah its a bad addiction it's hard to quit but all I needed was support from my family. I haven't cut myself for 3 weeks I know it's a little bit but I'm doing it. I love this poem.

• by Zienup
• 11 years ago

I feel what you are saying because I used to cut myself and attempted suicide but when my lil sister told me like come on you gotta stop my eyes were opened and I stopped, it was hard at first but then got easier and now I have been clean for 6 months.

• by Gavin Day
• 11 years ago

I too was addicted to cutting...It was such a great escape until I went too far. All I remember is cutting to deep and waking up in the hospital. The best thing to do is try to give up. It's very hard too, even after that experience I'm still having trouble to stop.

• by Abby, Phoenix
• 11 years ago

Wow this is a very good poem
I am addicted to cutting. I've tried to stop for about a year or so but this 1 night I looked at myself and saw only scars an hatred and I soon realized that this isn't who I wanna be or who I am and I haven't cut in about 2 months
This poem really speaks to me!!!

• by Brittney, United States
• 11 years ago

Wow, Amazing Job! I stopped Cutting about A year ago, I Hurt way to many people, and Myself for to long. I'm ashamed of the scars on my wrist. I try to hide it from everyone at school. It hurts too much to be asked about it. I'm glad I let it go.

Thanks for the inspiration!

• by Savanah, Can.
• 11 years ago

I'm 13 and came to find that I was addicted to cutting around 3 or 4 months ago, I've hurt many people just by hurting myself and I'm wishing I could just go back in time and change it all. Its like the worst addiction ever, I tried to stop cutting with the help of my family I ended up getting into drugs around a month ago, I'm now trying to quit all my bad habits. without very good results but slowly I'm doing it.

• by Wendy
• 12 years ago

Wow! This poem is amazing! I know lots of people who have unfortunately used cutting as a way to escape their problems. And I am one of those people too. I was going under a lot! Fortunately for me I stopped in time and its not much but I will be cut free for two years in September! Cutting isn't worth it. True that it does make you feel stress free, but it's only for a while!! And Emo's aren't the only ones who cut, I am Not an emo but I used to cut.

• by Jessica Laing
• 12 years ago

That's a really good poem I like it and its so true most emo's don't realize they're addicted until it's to late and that's the same with me. You know you're addicted but you still can't force yourself to stop the cuts I love it (your poem lol )

• by Katie
• 12 years ago

This was amazing. It sounds exactly like my story. I had cut and cut then tried to kill myself. I actually died for what seemed like seconds to me but it was actually almost 5 minutes. After I knew I went too far I was wishing I could go back. They brought me back and I'm thankful I got a second chance. Some people aren't as lucky as I was. Just give it up, It's not worth it. Trust me. You get nothing out of it besides scars of shame.