no matter how well I do in school or how well I clean the house
still they aren't happy
from the time I walk in the door till the time I go to bed every night
the screaming never seems to stop
it used to be just from my mother
but now my father too
sometimes even my older brother
the one I considered my hero
they tell me I'm crazy, stupid, a mess up
I just want to be good enough for them
but it seems I never will be
they say they care and they say they love me
but I'm not blind, I can see the hate they have for me
I was a mistake, they didn't believe in abortion
so, here I am, the mistake child
in the dark I sit in my room and cry
day in and day out
their words and looks
slice into me deeper than any razor ever could
this has went on for years now,
when will it end??
sometimes I wonder what it would be like
if I just got up and left...
or if I ended it all for good..
or even if I called the police...
but I'm not strong enough to do any of that
I can't last any longer
these people are not my family
the people I see everyday are monsters
they don't love me, my family did
where did my family go, they are missing :(
all this yelling is really getting to me
it's breaking me down day by day
soon there will be nothing left
I just want to be left in silence..
please, make the yelling stop!
I go through the same thing. I get straight A's, do all my chores, and try to be the best person I can be, yet there's always something to be yelled at for. I want to tell someone, but I love...
Please Make The Yelling Stop
Published: May 2008