STOP Cutting Poem

Yes I did do this. I'm ashamed of myself. I'm still 11 and go to therapy (it's not that bad.) Yes I have a heart. I'm not so down anymore. But every time I look at those scars I swear I almost cry. Please don't think I'm a terrible person. Truly I am not. I have a heart and a life ahead of me. I want to live that life and be proud of what I have become after this horrible experience.

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I have the same problem. I've been cutting ever since I was 11. I'm 13, now. Almost 14. I want to stop, but it's so hard. I put a semi-colon on my arm and wait for it to fade, and once it...

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Why Did I Start Cutting?

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Published: December 2008

Why did I do this?
I was being so stupid.
That razor blade had a touch of blood.
I knew it was wrong.
I knew it would hurt my family.
I hate myself for doing it.
I'm just an 11 year old girl.
I am small and confused and scared all at the same time.
Every time I look at those scars I made, I have a terrible feeling.
Like I'm a bad guy.
I go to therapy.
So I can talk to someone.
But the worst part is knowing I did something so horrible.
My friend thought it was cool.
She had said, "Emo is so cool, they cut themselves."
I didn't believe it.
But I'm just 11 what could I do?
I don't know any better.
I'm a terrible person.
I hate myself.
Why did I do this.
I regret it...I will forever.
These scars will never fade.
What will I tell people if they ask?
I cut myself with a razor blade?
No, I won't. They will think I'm crazy.
Look at this mess I got myself into.
                 Why me!?!

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  • Mackenzie Tondre by Mackenzie Tondre
  • 2 years ago

I have the same problem. I've been cutting ever since I was 11. I'm 13, now. Almost 14. I want to stop, but it's so hard. I put a semi-colon on my arm and wait for it to fade, and once it fades I draw it again. It helps. I hope you get better. I'll be praying for you Kathy. I'm always here.

  • Alicia by Alicia, New Zealand
  • 8 years ago

I did this only days ago I'm only just 14, I told my best friend forever, she drew a butterfly on my arm in vivid and told me not to ever wash it off. She said wait for it to fade, fade until you can't see it any more. The whole time it's there you're not allowed to cut. It's been gone for 7 days, I haven't cut since. <3 its hard to understand why. you may never know, just what caused you, to hurt yourself. the way you have.

  • Erica by Erica, Philadelphia
  • 8 years ago

Dear Kathy
I started cutting myself when I was 12, I am now 16 and though I've stopped I still struggle with the addiction. You are not a bad person because you cut yourself. I know when I quit the first time I felt that way to. After seeing what my cutting myself did to my family I felt bad and instead of talking to someone I started to cut again. I am still ashamed of my marks but I don't hide them anymore. I have to face what I did and it makes me a stronger person each time someone asks me what happened and I give an honest answer. You are strong for writing this poem and sharing it with people you don't know. Stay above the water and believe in yourself.

  • Sanna by Sanna
  • 8 years ago

Dear Kathy
I know how you feel I just recently quit about a week ago the last few days have been hard but I got through it and if you want to stop you can. People at my school call me EMO the CUTGIRL everything they can think of but I let it go, yes it's vary hard.

  • Samantha by Samantha, Nevada
  • 8 years ago

I know exactly how you feel Kathy I have been cutting myself ever since I was 11. I am now 14 and still have this problem. I know my parents will find out so I cut my hips and thighs...my whole body is my canvas.. but unlike you I have not received help such as therapy I wish I could go back in time and stop this from happening. I can't even wear shorts with out staring. I also just overcame anorexia nervosa.

  • Andrea by Andrea
  • 9 years ago

I know how you feel because I have been cutting myself since I was 10 years old... I am 14 now and I am being forced to go to therapy/counseling I think it works though I have only stopped for 2 months... the scars bare my arms like they will forever and I can't stand looking at them everyday because I know I'll still want to cut some more.

  • AmandaPanda by AmandaPanda
  • 10 years ago

It never ceases to amaze me how mature very young girls can be. I think it's life that's making young girls so mature at an early age. Life is getting harder & the realities of life are coming down harder for young girls. I was only eleven when i first started to cut. I still struggle here & there at nineteen. I hope no one picks this up and if they do, they stop before it's too late.

  • Angel Cats  Bhs by Angel Cats Bhs
  • 10 years ago

dear Kathy
your very young I do admit I have also cut and my poem is also on this website
it shows you are brave that you have written a poem and shown it to the world
I would like to see those people who mock you turn and write a poem
I too do have to visit someone once a week to help
but trust me you did the right thing I try and help people too so I urge you and anyone to talk about what you have done because that's the only way
god bless
Alex
*I'm only 13 myself so do not worry about being so young *

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