You Will Never Know

You will never know how I feel inside,
The pain that still resides,
Happiness was once in my life,
Those days have long since ceased.

My body covered in holes,
One for every soul who hurt me,
I have begun to become transparent,
You can see right through me.

The lies, the anguish, the pain,
All of this shows,
The look in my eyes that never glows.

A face of desolate proportions,
One that shows every imperfection,
I can no longer hide myself from the world,
I can no longer feel this way inside,
If I continue I will die.

In a sense I have,
My blood is all around,
Splattered in a beautiful pattern,
Where in ecstasy I laugh and smile.

The pain is there still but it fades,
I deserve this hurt,
It makes me get thrills,
I feel everything and nothing at once,
Overcome with things I should leave be,
I will never understand them.

Now I must move on,
No more pain,
No more anguish,
No more lies,
No more me inside.

Goodbye from my inner self,
Hello from my outer self,
The one that I have locked away and imprisoned,
It will return and soon I will show you who I am,
My happiness is important so don't hurt me anymore,
I cant take the pain,
So Until I can ,
Goodbye