Lived

I lived through the tears,
I lived through the pain,
I lived with a man
Who spoke harsh words every day.
I will never be,
I am nothing,
I am water,
Not his blood.
I thought I was his friend.
I thought I was his best friend.
I thought I was his wife.
He told me
Soon I will be nothing.
Attempting arguments
To cruel punishments,
Choosing another woman over his wife,
To take home from an all night party.
Lived with through the verbal,
Lived with through the physical,
Lived with through the mental,
Lived through the being pulled by car
From the extensions pulled in my hair.
He call me crazy.
I can get assistance,
Need help I'm sick.
All I lived with
To praying silently,
Bible in hand daily,
Heading to church Wednesday and Sunday,
Said to me in to stay in, the devil in me.
To late night cheating,
Late night creeping,
Late night texting.
His ways he's disrespecting,
Telling me he's leaving,
Threaten me, he'll leave me
Coming home drinking,
Left with nothing,
20 dollars in my pocket.
Left me feeling less than a woman.
Had no one but me and pity
All is over, glad it's over.
It's the scars, the memories
I lived.