Jody Mark

The familiar sting of tears in my eyes
And the ripping pain in my heart.

It's been almost a year since the dreaded day
That my whole entire world was ripped apart.

I didn't know the depth of my love
And how I would miss you so.

The pain I feel is still as intense
As the very day I had to let you go.

So many thoughts and memories creep
Through my aching mind.

The answer to heal my grieving
I fear I will never find.

Grandma, please don't be sad when you
Look down upon me from heaven above,

For the tears you see are from all
The memories of you I love.

Death brings so many thoughts to my mind.
It's a subject that I just don't fully understand,
so not one perfect solution can I find.

Life is 'spose to be full of endless opportunities if you play your cards right,
but if the devil deals the wrong hand, you may live a life full of strife.

Death may answer a loved one's prayer to finally be at peace,
but what happens to the friends and family who are sad with grief and can't find a release?

Death brings about so many sad and negative feelings
that it's hard for a person to know exactly how to go about healing.

Life and death are mysteries that can't be figured out.
They can make a person live a life full of doubt.

Stress is eating at me every minute and second of the day.
How do I cope with the horrible effects and make it go away?

I feel so tired and run down and I don't sleep.
I lie in bed at night and wonder why it runs so deep.

Everyone asks why do you look so sad.
Do I tell them that my stress is eating me up and that I feel really bad?

Does everyone notice how I walk around in a daze,
and that I have deep black bags under my eyes nowadays?

I wake up every morning feeling so hopeless,
like nothing ever goes right and wondering why my life has to be such a mess.

Stress is my one worst enemy.
It's taken over my mind and my whole life in every single degree.