Heartbroken And Confused

My heart feels like it’s torn in two,
Why can't I just be with you?
Everyday another tear,
Everyday a lot more fear.
I want to hold you in my arms,
I want to keep you safe from harm.
I act like things are all okay,
But I really want to run away.
I act like things are all alright,
But always end up in a fight.
I cry more tears than I can count;
Why won't they just let me out?
I tell myself these things won't stay,
But I don't think they'll go away.

I dedicate this poem to the guy I wrote it about, Connor, and to my Dad, may he rest in peace.