I just quit a job that I hated. I live in a part of the country that is almost dead, no jobs. I am married to a wonderful man, but he cannot afford to pay my bills, vehicle and insurance. I am going to have to move on, to wherever I can find a job, leaving "us" behind. I don't want to do it, but I know I have to. So, this poem fits my life perfectly. :(
Published: Feb 2012
Illusion Of A Fantasy
searching for that love I so desperatly yearn
fading memories of a past I'd soon forget
isolated and alone waiting for the one not met.
Is he just a vision or does he really exist
illision of a fantasy like a ship in the mist
the truth of it all remains to be seen
for in this moment of time I can only dream.
Laying awake I stare into the night
doom and dread surround, like the demons I fight
river of emotions flow like a swift moving tide
spiraling so fast downward I slide.
Will ever I find that peace, I do not know
breaking down more with each passing blow
desperation and pain a part of everyday life
words not spoken that cut like a knife.