Heaven

These are truly amazing poems that I read. I just lost my mother a few days ago and I'm having a hard time. Though everyone says the pain goes away, I don't understand how that could be. Because this is truly breaking my heart. Though there were good times I can't remember them at all. My life has crumbled.

I lost my mama on 03/05/2012 and I just don't know how many more pieces could there be left of my heart to be broken....my grief is unbearable and overwhelming and non-stop.....so hard that I find it hard to take a breath.... I loved her so much. Just a smell or anything triggers the tears she's so precious to me. God has given me the strength but I feel like a lost wondering soul without her, and I know she would not like me acting like this because I've always been the cheer spreader and the positive power. I want my mama back literally!!!!

I lost my mom Aug 2010 and to top that off I reunited with my first husband who was the only love of my life after being married to him for 8 yrs in the 70's and found our way back to each other in 2009 (remarried) to lose him to colon cancer Oct, 2011.
I miss them both so dearly and feel as though my heart has broken into little pieces and can't seem to put the puzzle back together.
I too, keep the faith that the sun will shine again some day?
It is harder to breathe with some days being harder to handle than others.
I know I have been blessed!!!
#1- Making it to this point in this unpredictable world we live in.
#2- To be able to experience True Love as well.

I just question Why so much all at once?
I too want them back Literally!!!

At the moment my mother is not with me, she hasn't passed away but most of my life she has been in a women's prison which is really heart breaking! I don't have much memories of her, but my grandmother (mothers mum) had passed away October 15, which was really sad because that day was really special, it was my mothers birthday ! I couldn't believe it, my family was texting me at 4 in the morning saying she didn't have much time to live, and so I drove for 3 hours to get to the hospital but I was too late, If only I got to say goodbye to her one last time ! If you are wondering why I am talking about my grandmother instead of my Mother, it's because my grandmother was more like my mother she had brought me up since I were a newborn and because my nana talked about how strong she was and how all her beloved whanau would look after her through all her operations, Never in my life did I picture her lying in a coffin so young ....... I truly miss her, where she is buried now is where I would like to live because of all the memories she told me about :) I love you my beautiful gran !