I Wish I Weren't Alone

• by Robert Dix
• 4 years ago

I was bullied at school because I was an ugly kid. Mum and Dad loved me for what I was. I had a failed marriage due to domestic violence and verbal abuse at me. I was locked up for defending myself, but I never hit her back. We separated after just under 40 years of togetherness. I’ve been blessed with three children. I live in a single flat in an older residence block, and I hate it. I put a mask on to hide from my kids the fact that I’m so lonely. I cry tears of pain and am upset I ruined my life as I am damaged good. I’ve been blessed with three grandchildren, but they only see Bampy laughing and smiling at their angelic faces. I wear a mask that hides my sorrow. The mask covers the tears that fill my eyes and they burn deep into my cheeks. I cry every night. Will I ever find true love again? I hope and pray. My mask hides my heart and soul.

• by Kayda
• 5 years ago

I had a very hard life when I was younger. Now when I read these I know I'm not the only who feels alone. But still I'm having a hard time that I need a happy clone. If I were happy I would help each sad face and share my story.

• by ANIT K. THAKUR, NEW DELHI
• 7 years ago

This is awesome. I wish I wasn't alone. I've been away from my family for the last two years.

• by Savannah
• 7 years ago

I know some people have it bad. I try to be happy but it feels like the law of the universe is that someone/thing comes out of nowhere and screws up my day.
I feel like a loser. I'm an adult student. I never had friends to hang out with as a kid, teen or adult. I never had a job,I never do anything fun, never had a boyfriend & I've gained weight. Still have social anxiety. Depression has been off/on so my grades aren't good. My few relatives seem to prefer each other over me. All the rest hate us.
I'm nobodies favorite...I just want someone to value me. For years I wanted to go to the beach, movies, carnival, etc. I had to beg for this as a child since my relatives always argued. I want to have a family one day but who knows. Relationships aren't even real now anyways. Everyone just uses each other. What are the odds I'm going to find a compatible friend or boyfriend who won't ditch me for petty reasons? It's like I'm stuck in a phase unsuitable for my age. Wish I was better than this!

• by Forever Bookworm
• 7 years ago

I am a 13 year old girl and my life is absolutely fine. I have friends and I have a loving family. I don't have foster parents and I was never bullied. I know I have people who care about me but I still feel lonely a lot of the time because none of my friends or family seem to truly understand me. I am just waiting for the day I find someone I can talk to freely and they understand me. I can relate to this poem so well.

• by Samantha, Philippines
• 8 years ago

I feel the same way, I'm 14 years old and I have suffered depression and bi-polar disorder. When I was 10 years old I never got the treatment I needed to have but my mother doesn't care and my father is always away. My story goes on and on about me being stuck at a boring school where I get judged, ignored, backstabbed and always left behind but somehow I always survive. I have no friends since the beginning because I don't know how and I can't practice because I'm always alone. I didn't have fake friends just acquaintances who didn't seem to bother becoming my friends. Everyday I suffer, always the last one to be picked, always the one with no partner at class, and always no one. I have a sister but she has best friends who seem to be there for her. But I just can't say anything because everyone around treats me like I'm no one, parents, family, people and myself.

• by Raesyad Adhiatma Wiwanto, Cibubur/Depok/Indonesia
• 8 years ago

Sometimes I feel the same. Sometimes people can feel so lonely that they ask to god why did god even bother to create us. Sometimes you feel like you're worthless, lonely, miserable, sad and all of those negative feelings. But sometimes you have to know the fact why god created us is because god want to see our patience of going through life. You may feel that god made a mistake by creating us. But that is life, it doesn't always go the way you want and you have to live through it.

• by Sophie Yardley, London
• 8 years ago

I feel the same at school! In the playground l usually get lonely and it makes me feel very sad!

• by Jordan
• 8 years ago

My whole life I've been alone, I've been in children services ever since I was 2. I cried my whole life inside and out. I've been reunited with my mother for 9 months and just last week she passed. I'm only 18 but I still feel like I'm not 12 because I've never actually lived. I never had any thing nice because I would always give it to someone who could make better use of it. I constantly get put down by society because I always look guilty, I can't help my self, all I feel is guilt. I've done nothing wrong in my life, but it's my feelings and being alone and not being able to help others in need that I feel guilty about. Every step I take something bad happens to me. I read this poem and I cried . I haven't cried for 4 days, it felt like an eternity, but this time It felt good to cry .

• by Kacey
• 9 years ago

I'm 17 and I've been depressed for nearly 3 years now. Sometimes I have good days and bad ones. Mostly I think if I had a boyfriend to save me so that I wouldn't have to save myself. I rely on others to make me happy but they have now all rejected me...

• by Horizonthane
• 9 years ago

This poem is written splendidly, I related to it very well, I wish I wasn't alone either. I just moved to a new country and I feel so left out, I am confused and I feel lost :( thanks for this <3

• by Emma
• 10 years ago

I'm 14 and I'm a hearing impaired girl. Lonely :( . To other students- if there is a hearing impaired student at your school. Don't talk bad about them. We hear more than you think. And it freaking hurts to know that y'all talk about us like that. It eats away at us and tells us that no one wants us and no one cares what we think or feel. If you are a hearing impaired student, be strong. When you want to fall over. When you feel pointless. When you want to hide from the mean words people say about you. Don't let it eat away at you. You are unique and special and know that God wouldn't give you anything you couldn't handle, all struggles makes you stronger.

• by A Mom
• 10 years ago

I'm a mom and I am sad you children were not treated the way you deserved. Please keep faith you will have a beautiful journey ahead with unlimited potential to give love to other people who you know need it just like you once did. All the loneliness will disappear one day when you find the calling you were born for. There are many ways to change your pain in your lives into loving lonely children who will one day need you to be there for them. Do not punish yourself for the mistakes of people who were not mature and mentally sound. Keep going forth and grow into a beautiful world you create. Don't let go of hope children. The world needs you.

• by Trinity, Missouri
• 10 years ago

I'm 13 live with my Dad because my mom hooked up with a criminal who abused me for two and a half years. Now I can't help not feeling regret and loneliness. I try and be what everyone else wants me to be, yet they toss me aside. My family acts like I'm overreacting. But the only friend I have is my dog. All of this has given me problems, I'm scared of myself. I don't know who I am.
So I cry myself to sleep. Is it too much to ask for someone to be there for me? Anyone? Someone?

• by Jasmine, Illinois
• 11 years ago

This makes me think about my life being molested by my moms boyfriend had an effect on me. It made me feel confused. I didn't know how to tell them I was scared and I'm only 13 right now. I'm depressed now I feel alone I hate being single it sucks. I hate everything now. I know that out there is someone that can change me and save me from myself.

• by Sharon, Burgersfort
• 11 years ago

I'm a 14 year old girl who was staying with my step mom and dad from the age of 8. My step mom always beats me up, yell and swear at me but my dad never cares. When I was the age of 13 my step mom threw me out of the house I stayed with her sister who gave me everything I need. About a month ago she took out a protection order against me and her sister telling us that she don't want us near her house. My father still doesn't care. My father told me once that he doesn't love me and my other brother and sisters the way he love his other two children. He just don't care about what I'm feeling. It's Christmas and I sent my father a message asking him for money for clothes but he did not respond. Yesterday I phone him asking him money for clothes he told me that he won't. It breaks my heart knowing that I have a father who has everything accept the love for me. "teary eyes"

• by Aaliyah
• 12 years ago

At school I feel alone. I'm terrible at making friends. I sometimes see people looking at me with pity but I look away. People try to make friends with me but I push them away. Sometimes I have my moments where I talk a lot but most of the time I don't talk at all. But that's just school. At home I'm loud and happy. I dance around and sing. I annoy the crap out of my parents. I just wish I could let that out at school, my happy side.

• by Farwa Abbottabad
• 12 years ago

Wow supperbbbbbb I love this poem this poem really touch my heart and forced me to cry. I wish I wasn't alone, loneliness really hurts.

• by Ruth, Garland Texas
• 12 years ago

Well I feel the same way and sometimes I wish I wasn't lonely sometimes...and when I see people hugging and kissing and all that stuff I feel lonely and sad and when I tell my friend that I feel lonely she always/sometimes says "just don't look and look away someday you will find your own sweet guy" and then I feel great and happy and then when I see couples again I have the same feeling all over again:(

• by Monique, Nevada
• 12 years ago

Well my life isn't that great from when I was just a little girl. Now I worry about stuff I shouldn't at my age I'm 12 and worry more then a adult. My father has been in prison most of my life and I worry he won't make it out to meet me since 8-9 years ago:( I'm that girl that smiles with everyone but right when I get home go to my room lock the door and cry myself to sleep. I don't like looking forward to tomorrow because I feel something bad might happened every minute I'm alive. I sometimes wish I was that one girl you would have at your school that has an amazing life with her mom and dad to be with her day by day and doesn't have to worry about a thing!! I am also that girl that just wishes she were not even alive someday but just is waiting to be with her father so she could have that one person that loves her and protects her day and night.:(

• by Cierra, Silver City New Mexico
• 12 years ago

I wish I wasn't alone,
wow I'm only 13 and this speaks a lot I'm, trying sooo hard to forget about my past being in foster care for half your life leaves a scar and it never seems to heal...so if there's anybody out there that's been through the same here's my word you're never alone....