I Wish I Wasn't Alone

I wish I wasn't alone,
wow I'm only 13 and this speaks a lot I'm, trying sooo hard to forget about my past being in foster care for half your life leaves a scar and it never seems to heal...so if there's anybody out there that's been through the same here's my word you're never alone....

Well my life isn't that great from when I was just a little girl. Now I worry about stuff I shouldn't at my age I'm 12 and worry more then a adult. My father has been in prison most of my life and I worry he won't make it out to meet me since 8-9 years ago:( I'm that girl that smiles with everyone but right when I get home go to my room lock the door and cry myself to sleep. I don't like looking forward to tomorrow because I feel something bad might happened every minute I'm alive. I sometimes wish I was that one girl you would have at your school that has an amazing life with her mom and dad to be with her day by day and doesn't have to worry about a thing!! I am also that girl that just wishes she were not even alive someday but just is waiting to be with her father so she could have that one person that loves her and protects her day and night.:(

Well I feel the same way and sometimes I wish I wasn't lonely sometimes...and when I see people hugging and kissing and all that stuff I feel lonely and sad and when I tell my friend that I feel lonely she always/sometimes says "just don't look and look away someday you will find your own sweet guy" and then I feel great and happy and then when I see couples again I have the same feeling all over again:(

Wow supperbbbbbb I love this poem this poem really touch my heart and forced me to cry. I wish I wasn't alone, loneliness really hurts.

At school I feel alone. I'm terrible at making friends. I sometimes see people looking at me with pity but I look away. People try to make friends with me but I push them away. Sometimes I have my moments where I talk a lot but most of the time I don't talk at all. But that's just school. At home I'm loud and happy. I dance around and sing. I annoy the crap out of my parents. I just wish I could let that out at school, my happy side.

I'm a 14 year old girl who was staying with my step mom and dad from the age of 8. My step mom always beats me up, yell and swear at me but my dad never cares. When I was the age of 13 my step mom threw me out of the house I stayed with her sister who gave me everything I need. About a month ago she took out a protection order against me and her sister telling us that she don't want us near her house. My father still doesn't care. My father told me once that he doesn't love me and my other brother and sisters the way he love his other two children. He just don't care about what I'm feeling. It's Christmas and I sent my father a message asking him for money for clothes but he did not respond. Yesterday I phone him asking him money for clothes he told me that he won't. It breaks my heart knowing that I have a father who has everything accept the love for me. "teary eyes"

This makes me think about my life being molested by my moms boyfriend had an effect on me. It made me feel confused. I didn't know how to tell them I was scared and I'm only 13 right now. I'm depressed now I feel alone I hate being single it sucks. I hate everything now. I know that out there is someone that can change me and save me from myself.