I am angry..
You made me believe you were the cure for my every kind of pain,
I had you wrapped around me while I let you take control of my veins.
At this point in time I didn't know who or what you turned me into,
But you made it impossible to get through days without you.
You had control of my body now, and if I didn't choose you,
you made me feel so sick to where I was helpless not knowing what to do.
By now I started doing the things I swore I would never do,
lying and stealing off the people who didn't mean a thing to you.
You had me convinced that throughout my life you were determined to stay, that I did not have that option of turning and walking away.
Before you know it, everyone I loved seen this side of me that was hurting them inside, everytime they questioned,
I did what you taught me to do..Lie.
I wanted to let you go and get you out of my way, so scared to tell someone imagining what they would say.
Don't want to be judged, it was a decision I would have to make, but I've wasted so much time, it was a little too late.
Being put in jail was something I knew it was going to come down to, but it made me free of relief knowing that I could not get to you.
It was a struggle, but a worth while fight because now I am in control and you are out of my life.
Being sober turned me into the person I've always wanted to be, and the was the one day you were praying I would never see.
Now I am doing the good things I never imagined myself to do, and proudly I can say I am doing them without you.
Addicted To Heroin Poem
Gary here cleaned up just recently still frazzled but aint going back to that place. That place you have pretend friends, pretend happiness, pretend life... Used close on 30 years and all...
I am angry..