Feelings Of Abandonment

• by StephAngie Cote
• 4 years ago

Welcome into the world of an outcast and survivor! Since I was born, my mother didn't want me and said I ruined her life, but my dad loved me. When she gave birth to my sister and brother, they have always been her favorite ones. They turned the family against me. I was bullied at school and at home. I was dealing with depression and I was alone, no one to talk to. When I got married and had two children, I always wanted to protect my children from mental abuse or alcoholics. When I moved out, I never told my folks where I moved, and they had no way of contacting me. When I gave birth to my daughter, they didn't know, until she was 4 years old, and ever since, they’ve been into our lives. Nothing changed. We live in Ottawa and they live in the Quebec side. The more distance, the better it is. My son is 19 and my daughter is 14 (we lost a baby boy at birth in 2016).

• by Rebecca Stra8ght
• 6 years ago

The poem touched me. I never could get close to my family. My dad left my mom when I was 11 years old. I saw how my dad would beat my mom up all the time. When my dad would have visits with me, he and his new wife treated me like crap. They made me go bed at 8 pm every night. I could only eat when they said. I had to sneak snacks when they were not around. They called me all kinds of names. My mom had all kinds of boyfriends, and one of them raped me when I was 12 years old. I told my mom about it, and she did not believe me. I tried to kill myself. My mom was a very religious person, and I was not allowed to go to dances or have a boyfriend. In order to get away from being abused, I went to the job corps in 1987. Now since I was abused, I have problems trusting men.

• by Unknown, Brownsville Tx
• 8 years ago

I just don't understand why this had to happen to me. I didn't do anything & I wish I was dead or never born. My dad left when I was not even 3. My mom & I moved around a lot & finally my mom found work in another city. So that meant we had to live with my grandma & uncle. It was hell. My uncle would go into my bed & sexually abused me. I didn't do anything. I was 8 & it didn't stop until I was 14. My mom caught him. We moved & then my mom got a boyfriend. Now she's never here. She's always with him & I have always felt abandoned, but hey I'm just sugar coating it. I have never hated myself & my life so much.

• by Kanz, London
• 12 years ago

This story reminds me of a traumatic childhood. it makes me feel so much in just a few lines and yet it brings me comfort. nobody but the one person I love know my secret. so I'm alone and not alone, the simplest question that brings a memory, takes me away from this reality. Thanks for reading.

• by Fiz
• 13 years ago

I can't help but cry when I read this poem. It reached out to my heart. Born out of wedlock in an Asian community almost 40 yrs ago, I struggled with vicious comments and hurtful attitude by relatives. All this while my own mother ignored me.

• by Donna
• 13 years ago

I am very much effected by. I feel as if I wrote this myself. Whoever wrote this poem, made me feel a lot of feelings I haven't had in years. It actually reminded me of being a SURVIVOR and not a victim. I was abandoned at 3 months old. Left at a mental health hospital for anyone to have whatever, or whoever took me what would end up my destiny. Not a good outcome but, I guess it could of been a whole lot worse. No, wait, no it was the worse... Thank-You for your thoughts and sharing them.

• by Denver CO
• 13 years ago

It's like this person knows my life story my mom pimped me out because she had a drug problem so I had to grow up fast.