Dear Mom I Miss You

• by Daniella Micheal
• 2 years ago

I can totally relate. I lost my mom 10 days ago, and it's been really hard. How people expect you to move on I'll never understand. I miss her every day. I lost her to cancer. I saw my mom fade away in my eyes. I cried every day. In her last week on earth, she kept sleeping and was deteriorating gradually, the night before she died, she tapped me, and in an inaudible voice she said, "It's OK, wipe your eyes, I'm going to sleep now." I went away hoping to see her the next day, but she never made it. She died that night, coughed up blood and gasped for air till she gave up. It hurts. My heart is bleeding. I'm tired of everything. Every day I fake a smile, but every night reality dawns on me. My mom is gone forever, never coming back for life. I'm tired and my heart is tired too. What do I do? I can't talk to anyone because I can't explain, and I don't want their pity. I just want to feel better... I miss her so much.

• by Kay Monty
• 4 years ago

I'm 37, and my mom passed on January 14, 2020. I lost her to a stroke while she had the flu. Words don't express the immense pain, struggle of her loss and her everyday absence. We are forced to continue when our hearts bleed and move forward like in time we will be okay. I drown in my pillow with tears and anger and stare into pictures filled with memories. I can't fathom the fact that my mom, whom I love more than anything, is actually not here. She made me feel safe, happy, and filled me up with love. Everything in life was easy because of how much she loved me. Without her knowing it, she sugarcoated my problems in life because I had her. When I lost her, my childhood felt stripped away. I lost my childlike side of me - full of banter. I wish life was fair. I wish we could have the chance to at least speak our piece. I wish I could have looked at my mom and said how lucky I was to have her. My pain is as deep as my love for her. My connection with my mom was a special gift from God.

• by Kimberly Kimsey
• 4 years ago

I am 60 and lost my mother. She was 89. Most would say how fortunate I was to have her so long in my life. I am thankful for that time. But for some reason I feel we still should have had a few more years. The hurt is real, the sadness is heavy, the questions of why are still asked. I still say hey mom. I close my eyes and can see her and can hear her voice. It's been 5 months. I will forever be adjusting to her not responding to my voice.

• by Benedict
• 4 years ago

December will always be the hardest time for me. We lost our mom on December 26 from cancer. Today, December 4, was her birthday. Christmas has always been her favorite. We decorate the house together, particularly the Christmas tree. She's always been the one preparing Christmas Eve and New Year's Eve dinner. It's been two years, and it still hurts. The night before she died, our last words for each other was "I love you." The next morning she's gone. Was I ready to lose her? Nope. If you love a person very much, you will never be ready. Nobody knows about my hurts. I shed a lot of silent tears. But by the grace of God, I'm still standing.

• by David
• 4 years ago

I lost my mum to cancer on July 9, 2019. The last 2 months of her life were very difficult - she couldn't speak, gesture meaningfully or move much - a living hell for anyone, more so for someone as active and strong as my mum before she fell ill. I am listening to her voice messages, how all of them were of concern for me - how I am doing vs how she must have been feeling at the time. I am sad whenever I think of mum, because I miss her so much...and I feel I wasn't there enough for her. I know she is better off not suffering...and I am still angry at what the treatments did to her. I don't know if this will change...not if I want it to change. I just try to be more patient with people these days...my team members, family and friends...in hopes of being a better person. I am sorry, mum!

• by Bill Scarpellini, Terre Haute
• 4 years ago

My only parent, my mother passed away April of 1984. I remember it like it was yesterday and always will. It was hard trying to finish high school and coming home to see mom struggle in pain, with lung cancer. After she passed on, my wife, who was there with me in 84, told me that with her last breath, my mom told her that I was adopted, had a different father, and somehow I was to be given away for adoption. But a sister brought me in the room to my mother to see, and she decided to keep me. My brothers and sisters, all older, really wanted nothing much to do with me. Had no idea my only loving parent was my hero. Love and miss you, Mom, every single day. I’m sure you check in with the grand kids because Airianna walks right to your gravestone before I can get to her. I know you are with us.

• by Amina Usman
• 4 years ago

Hi, I lost my mum, my heart, on the 27th of June 2016. She battled breast cancer for 16 long years, which also lead to the removal of her uterus.The day she passed, I wanted the world to end. I still do. Life without her is a torture, I cry every day. She was loving, funny, caring and easy going. She was the bravest woman I know.

• by Karen L. Jones
• 4 years ago

My dear mom of 91 passed away February 2017. Things have never been the same. I am simply lost and hurt without her. I still cry often, even at my age of 63. I had a very distant family when mom was here but even worse now mom has gone. I am having a really hard time. I really hope I will see her again when I get my calling. In a few days from now is Mother's Day. That is a really tough day to get through, but then again every day is hard to get through. R.I.P. my sweet mumma. You have a piece of my heart you took with you that awful day I found you passed away in your hospital bed. God bless you. I love you so much. Hugs and kisses!

• by Saeed
• 5 years ago

No one ever had the mother and son love like I did. My mom loved me more than her own life. She had been sick since 2004. I am 20 years old now. I lived all my life watching my mother stuff every night for 16 straight years, but with all she had been through, she hustled to make me not be sad. I’m so hurt that I wish I could shout my pain out in front of the world and be felt even for a second. I watch my mother suffer breathing. I can see her agony every second. I didn’t cry on my mother’s death. I felt nothing at all, and now? I feel like I have no heart. There’s no love greater than the love of a mother and her child. I’m writing this with tears flowing down as I am so hurt from the inside. Oh, Mom! You have been the best thing in my life and always will be. I promise to never let you down. I am going to live the way you taught me. You shall never be forgotten.

• by Melissa
• 5 years ago

When I think of you Mom, I imagine you are sitting in a meadow full of butterflies and daffodils, tending your garden full of vegetables and enjoying the sunlight on your face. The heavenly place I imagine you to be in became a brighter paradise once you arrived with your sweetness and laughter. God beckoned you home, and I must accept your absence in this life, only to be assured of our reunion in the next one. Your kindness and caring lives on through your children and those you have touched so preciously throughout your life here.

Not a day goes by that I do not think of your sweet smile, wise instructions, and humor to lighten the load. As my life must move forward without you here beside me, I pray that I may rely on all that you shared to pave my path in such a way that it could only make you proud. Be still by the waters, peaceful in the sun. Love abounds for you sweet Mother!

• by Julie Atkin
• 5 years ago

I lost my mum, Edna, 5 years ago next week. When I lost her I wanted so much to be with her. She was my best friend. Mum was 90 years old and had a fall that she never recovered from. Mum was hoping to make it to 100 so she would get a card from the queen. My life has changed so much, but you do manage, but always a piece is missing. I find it still hard on special occasions. I always say goodnight to mum, and I will see her one day.

• by Haidee Bahner
• 5 years ago

My mom died almost one year ago when I was 12. She was suffering from lung disease and heart failure. Every October for the last three years my mom had to go to the hospital. Her condition just got worse and worse. I remember her telling me that she didn't think she could do it this time -- that she didn't think she could fight it off this time. It hurt me. I remember her calling my school while she was in the hospital to sing me happy birthday while my dad was beside her. And then I remember my dad and my mom getting married in the hospital on my birthday. Then my dad wanted to surprise her on her birthday by bringing her home. She had to come home on hospice. I remember the night before my mom died. I was mad at my sister, and I kinda yelled a little at my mom, and the next morning she never woke up.

• by Joann Sanders
• 5 years ago

My mom died in 2014. She had cancer. We fought the battle for almost 2 years. During the final 6 weeks of my mom's life she slept a lot, but the last 2 weeks my sister and I stayed next to her. In the end she had a stroke and lost her eye sight and the last 2 weeks she never got of bed and never spoke again. The last moments where bittersweet because she was there when I took my 1st breath into the world and I was there when she took her last. That was the most beautiful moment...our last moment. I told her over and over again that we would be okay and it was okay to go. In my heart I knew I would never be the same. My heart was completely broken. She was 71, and I still think it was too soon, but I knew it was in God's hands. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't remember those final moments. I am thankful, grateful, and blessed to have her as my mom.

• by Christina Bell
• 5 years ago

Mom, Mom, Mom. Oh Mom, I miss you so terribly much. I don't think I can stand it. I hope beyond doubt that you know I loved our great time together. We made it so difficult to love us, but our bonds went deep. I'm crying as I'm typing and thinking about what the words "let’s have a cup of coffee" really meant. After 3 years, I still go to call you. I am so aware of the important time that was stolen from us, and that is part of the great sorrow I live with every moment since you've gone. I know you died and left quickly, but I wasn't surprised. I was relieved for you. You really were the brave hero I always knew you to be. I just want you back so badly just to tell you I think you're great, Mom! And to say that I get what you meant when you’d say, “Take it easy.” In your honor, I do take it easy. The world was a better place with you in it, Mom. I'm a different person now, and I'll figure it out. I just need more time.

• by Catherine Burke
• 5 years ago

My Mam died on July 22, 2017; she was 89 years old. I miss her so much. I wasn't there when she took her final breath, but I was with her the night before she died. I will never forget the look in her eyes. She was worn out. She had cancer, and it was heartbreaking to see her fade away. I will always miss her even though she lived a long life. It was a hard life for her. I know she is at peace now.

• by Richard Sawhney
• 5 years ago

My mum passed away July 10, 2018. Mum went to the hospital with a swollen, cold food and passed away within 24 hours of being admitted. I miss my mum so much. It hurts like crazy. I was my mum’s full-time care giver for 3 years because the authorities would have put my mum in a care home, so I gave up my mom. My mum had vascular dementia but was so happy. My wife and I took her on trips. Only 6 weeks before she passed away, my mum had a great week away at the seaside. I miss our routines and chats so much. For my mum to pass away so quickly from sepsis destroys me on the inside. I have just started a new job. It’s hard to get back into it, but it keeps my mind busy. I know my mum would be proud of me, and she is not suffering anymore, but I will always miss her every day. Love you, Mum!

• by Madhuri Jha
• 5 years ago

Mumma, I love you so very much!! I just can't imagine my life without you. You died on May 26, 2018, leaving me shattered. By losing you, I have realized that I have lost the most important person of my life. I realized I loved you the most in my entire family. You don't even know how much I have been affected by your absence. Every day I wake up being shocked how it could happen to me, how you could leave me. Mom, I know you didn't want to die. I want you to come back to me. I want to sleep in your lap. I want to feel your touch. I am unable to live without you, Mumma. Please come back. I'm crying daily for you, Mom. Please don't leave me. At least show some sign that you are around me. I feel suicidal without you. My life is nothing without you. My first words were Mumma. Where are you? I am sorry for all the harsh words, and I'm sorry I could not take care of you nicely, Mom. I could not even tell you, Mumma, how much I actually love you. Please come back, Mumma!

• by Vinolia B
• 5 years ago

Fifteen years ago I lost my beloved mom. She died at the age of 37, and at that time I was only 5 years old. It pains me that I was way too young that I can't remember my mom's appearance, neither do I remember her voice. I love my mother so dearly, and I know that she has always been looking after me. I am now 20 years old.

• by Ramada Aubrey
• 5 years ago

I lost my mom 8 years ago. My best friend, my mom, was the greatest person in my life. She went through physical problems with breast cancer and heart failure and lung difficulty. She made it through breast cancer. We took her to a heart specialist. He told us she wouldn't live through a heart surgery. He said take her home and make her comfortable and enjoy what time we have left. I was so mad at that doctor. Not long after that mom's lungs weren't able to give her enough air to keep her living. It is the most awful feeling watching your most loved mother become less responsive daily. I cried having to spoon feed her and all the things you do for someone you love. She became less awake, and as she slept breathing was harder for her. I watched her from home as she stopped her breathing and departed from this world into the next. There is not a day that goes by I don't think about her and miss her. She was everything to me. I love you, mom. I'm missing you always.

• by THIRUMANGGAI
• 5 years ago

Amma, please forgive me for all my words to you. My mom was called by last 2/10/2017. I really didn't expect this to happen to me. Mom, I pray you are peaceful in paradise. Mom, I don't know what to say, but I really want to hear your voice. I really want to see you, Amma. Mom, I want you to come back down. Amma, I love you so much, and I miss you so much. Amma, I'm sorry for everything!

• by Laura Carlisle
• 6 years ago

I held my mom about 19 months ago and she passed away. I kissed her and kept telling her to hang on, but she had had enough pain and gave up. My dad and I bathed her the day before because she could no longer move, and I still remember that. I took care of her nails, and she kept babbling about something I couldn't really understand. I wanted her to look nice, and the next day she passed away after saying she couldn't do this anymore and I held her. I kept begging her to not go and kissed her, but when a person decides it's time there's nothing anybody can do. I dream about her all the time and wake myself up crying. I said I didn't want to see her die when she was diagnosed, but I guess it was my destiny to see her one last time before she left us. I'm not sure if it was a good thing or a bad thing to watch her leave, but I am glad that I got to let her know one last time how much I loved her.

• by Umer Hanif
• 6 years ago

No matter what I do to move on from this pain, deep down inside I will always know that I'll never get to hug my mom again. I miss you. Mom, your death has caged me in pain, agony, and misery. But I don't mind suffering. At least it has set you free. I miss you.

• by Jewelle Rose Feliciano
• 6 years ago

I lost my mom when I was 17 years old. She was diagnosed with throat cancer. I didn’t know what I was going to do. When I saw my mom, she was lying on the bed and had no life at all. Her eyes closed, her hands did not move, and her lips would not speak anymore. I held her hand and hugged her tightly. As of now, I live my life. I continue to pursue my dreams. It’s the best thing that I do to become like my mom. It’s hard to live on my own, but I will not give up. I know God has a plan for me. I miss you so much, Mom. I love you!

• by Pam
• 6 years ago

I lost my mom right before this past Christmas. She was 90. I miss her so much. I know she lived a long life, but she was a different person the last 10 years due to Alzheimer's. It's like losing her twice. To know the one person in your life who loved you no matter what is gone is a deep loss. I've started to write about her life; she was my hero. She was strong, independent, and fierce in her dedication to her children and grandchildren. As the disease took over her mind, that held true. I hope to mean that much to others in my life. She was so special to me. Hoping she is with those who love her as much.

• by Sandra Correia
• 6 years ago

I lost my dear mom on December 9, 2016. She was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer on October 28, 2016. I saw her close her eyes when she finally passed. It is still the saddest moment in my life. I miss talking to her on the phone. I loved making her laugh out loud. I have the support of a loving family, but I feel an emptiness in my heart. I planted an angel garden in her memory and often sit near it. If I could turn back the hands of time, I would go back to that moment just before she closed her eyes to tell her how much I loved her. I was so scared at that moment that I couldn't bring myself to even talk. I miss you, Mom, and I hope angels surround wherever you are.

• by Alfiya Mirza
• 6 years ago

I lost my mom 1 month back. I talked with her for around 8 minutes over the phone at 3:58AM after having a dream that made me restless. And she told me she was okay and I should sleep as it was late. As told by my father, my mother died at 4:05AM from heart failure immediately after my call. I still cannot believe she is no longer in my life. I feel so lonely without her. It's becoming very difficult to survive without her. I keep on regretting that I was not with her so I would have taken better care of her health.

• by Mary Huddaed
• 6 years ago

I lost my mother 4 years ago today. I am still lost. It does not get any easier. The grief just becomes part of my daily routine. She came to live with me after being released from the hospital under hospice care. They told us she could live 2 weeks, 2 months, or 2 years. She passed exactly 2 weeks after coming home. I don't know what was worse, the moment she passed or the last few days she struggled to live. I had two brothers to call, and when I did, I could not even get the words out. I sat there holding her hand just waiting for her to wake up, and when I realized she would not wake up again, I started shutting off the machines that had helped her breathe the last few weeks. My life will never be whole again. The only person I ever confided in is gone. I don't think it gets easier. I still feel like something is not right. I just can't put my finger on what it is. There is a constant ache in my stomach that won't go away. I miss her so much and hope I will see her again someday.

• by Charlie Blue
• 6 years ago

I never forget the night. My mom had kidney failure along with cancer and dementia. She passed Dec. 9, 2017. I slept on the floor the whole night beside her as she was placed in home hospice. She laid unresponsive for two weeks, and I talked to her day in and out. My mom died in my arms and she only awoke to her last breath with her eyes open. My pain and anger I can't express. I feel as if I want to die. I'm lost, sleepless, worried, and still in a state of shock. Now I know how others feel but can't really imagine it would have been this bad. I love you, Mom, always and forever.

• by Jmed
• 6 years ago

I lost my mom two months ago to pancreatic cancer. She was sick and in pain when she died. She arose from two days of being non-responsive to yelling for help and gasping for air. She died a few minutes later. It replays in my head over and over and over and over. My mom was 57, and I'm only 26. She was my best friend, heart, and soul. We talked every day for hours. She loved me so much, and I loved her. I feel alone without her, like no one could ever love or understand me like she did. She was everything to me. She was my glue. Some days I just want to pass away with her. I feel so lost and none of my friends or relatives understand. They seem to think they do, but they don't. I miss you, Mom.

• by Paul Barthel
• 6 years ago

She's been gone now for over a year, having passed two days before Christmas, 2016. Not sick, yet elderly. I knew it was coming eventually. I made every effort to show my love through conversations and time. It was not enough. I am left with photos of distant relatives I cannot identify, cards I never asked her about, thoughts, memories, and questions unanswered. I needed more time. She was not a perfect mother, yet she was my mom, and I miss her so! So much that it aches at times. She left with all these things and memories of the items she gave me, yet my most prized is a simple birthday card one year before her death. A card where it portrayed our lives like a movie from birth to our time together as we grew old. All the memories, both good and bad. In the end she said she would do it all over again, while it never was enough time. If your mom is alive, you still have time to call her and let her know. Life is certainly too short, as I think of her every day. Love you, Mom.

• by Val
• 6 years ago

My mom passed away 8 months ago. It'll be 9 months this month, and gosh I miss her. I miss her every day. I think about her being gone forever. Her not being there when I pass my exams, when I graduate, when I get married, when I have kids. I turned 16 in November. It didn't feel right without her. I don't really talk about her. I don't show how much I miss her. I just wanna go home. She was my home. I feel so lost without her. Yet I smile like everything is fine. I'm not that type of person who talks about her feelings. I hope she found peace. I really do hope so. She was all I had.

• by Sherry
• 6 years ago

One day my mom said she felt pain in her stomach. She thought it was normal pain, but it wasn't. Once we saw my mom's pain increase day by day, we went to consult a doctor. They told my mother that she has cancer. Liver cancer, and they said she only had 2-3 months to live. We were crying so badly. How was that possible? My mom kept saying she was going to die, but we told her she was going to be okay and that we were going to take her home. I have no words. She passed away on October 24, 2017.

• by Linda Sabo
• 6 years ago

It has been just one year. My mom was my pal and my best friend. She was kind and caring and funny and loving. We laughed and laughed! Then her razor-sharp mind and wit faded a little at a time. All the things we never got to do. I can't get out of bed. My dog died and then my mom died. I don't want to be here with no family. It doesn't feel like it is getting better. Not at all. I just want my family back.

• by Mohira
• 6 years ago

I lost my mother 5 months ago. She was only 51. I was in India, and the day before I talked with her. She was fine. We talked every day. The next day my younger sister called me and told that our mommy was not with us anymore. I can't imagine how I will live without her. What will our lives be like? Everyone says that we must be strong and live and be happy. But to give that advice is so easy. I hope no one will lose a mother at a young age.

• by Joey
• 6 years ago

My mom passed on June 17th of this year. I was there holding her hand at the end telling her how much I loved her. How do you come up with the words at the end of your mom's life to tell her what she had done in life was appreciated? I am 55 years old and was blessed to have her in my life for that long. Now the holidays are coming up. Her chair at the table will be empty. I miss her every day. Love you, Mom.

• by Georgia G
• 6 years ago

I lost my mother about a month ago. Someone recommended I leave her voicemails. I'm going to start doing that so I can feel like she is still here and I can still talk to her, even if it's to an empty voicemail.

• by Nicola Stevens
• 6 years ago

I know it's the circle of life, but now that you have gone, Ma, my anchor has slipped. My existence seems bizarre, and I wonder where my place is in the world. It's the strangest feeling. It's difficult, even at 55, to suddenly realize that now I am the adult and that I need to be strong to lead the way for my daughter. That's what you and Dad always did for us. You both live on in us and your flesh and blood is my flesh and blood. That's what keeps me going. As long as I live, you live on in me. I will do you both proud, and your six grandchildren are testament to the incredible human beings you were. The world is richer for you having been in it. Thank you.

• by Ratna
• 6 years ago

I have few of my friends who are without moms, and I always used to extend words of comfort to them. Now I understand the pain of losing the woman of substance who was by far the greatest mother on this planet. The pain is extremely painful. We wouldn't have ever imagined she wouldn't be there with our dad to celebrate their 45th year of togetherness.

Eighteen years of this painful journey, especially the last 5 years. She was admitted 7 times in different hospitals and always came back home with a smile. It ended on May 14th, though you lived it with so much zest and zeal and a tremendous fighting spirit. Your suffering was long and painful for everyone. Love you from all my heart.... until we meet again. I am forever thankful you're mine. Rest in peace, beautiful mom!

• by Chris
• 6 years ago

I lost my Mom four weeks ago. I feel like I have lost my whole world. I took care of my Mom and now she is not here. My Mom was a beautiful, gentle, and kind soul. I am lost without her. This loss is the worst thing I have ever been through. Everyone says, "Don't worry, time will heal your pain," but I don't think that will happen. The void and emptiness is so painful. My Mom was my best friend, and I miss her so much.

• by Chris Daryl
• 6 years ago

I lost my mother on August 22 after having her for 45 years, and I am finding it very hard to keep going on. I simply don't want to be here without her, and as irrational and weak as that sounds, I'm just not enjoying life or the prospect of any sort of future without her in it. I want to believe in this heaven and afterlife, but my logic screams that it simply doesn't seem plausible, so I live now with the notion that I will never again see the wonderful mama I had and knew all of my life. I'm simply a broken human being, empty and not wanting to venture forward any longer. I'm sure it will pass (I hope it does, but for now I am in tatters on the ground). I watched her take her last three breaths. It was there I, too, took my last ones.

• by Ashok
• 6 years ago

I lost my mom 6 months back. I am 24 years old. My mother was 40 years old. She got in a train accident when we were crossing Railway Bridge. Very, very, very bad luck for me. Every moment she is blessing me. I love you, Ma. No one can fill your place till my last breath. I have one sister. She is 20 years old and isn't married yet. How can't I lead my sister and my life? Without you, life is zero. Why did God save me? Why didn't he take me and leave my mom? What is this life without my mother?

• by Johm
• 6 years ago

My mom passed while on vacation with us. It was unexpected! I'm lost, scared, and in a deep depression. I want to close my eyes and be with her. I love you Mama. You're my best friend.

• by Shashi Chauhan
• 6 years ago

I lost my mother 7 years ago. It's so difficult to live without her. Still I miss her. Mummy, I miss you so much. Whenever I want to share anything I have no one. No one cares about me. Every day I wish that you will come back to me, listen to me, hug me, care for me. I want you back. I pray for you. Whenever I see a mother and a child it makes me feel alone.

• by Rickey Hense
• 6 years ago

I lost my mom just eleven month ago on August 6 to malignant breast cancer. She had just turned 52. She left behind two beautiful grandsons and two boys that loved her some much. She wasn't only my mom, but she was also my best friend. So I'm sorry to hear about your mom, but remember she'll always be in your heart forever.

• by Kirti Pandey
• 6 years ago

I am sorry, I am really sorry, Ma. I was not there when you were leaving us. Please come back. I want to see you at least once, please. You know I am the most irresponsible child and can't manage without you. I can't live without you. People tell me to be strong, but you were my strength. I love you, Ma. Please come back!! Everything was just for you. I have not given a proper goodbye, not even a goodbye kiss. Please come back, Ma.

• by Brandon Nguyen
• 6 years ago

I lost my mother due to leukemia on March 27th, 1999. When she passed away, I was 16 months old. I am now 19 years old. I've always thought that I was different from everybody else since I wasn't able to receive my mother's guide, influence, and love growing up in my life. She was a respectable woman among many as she was sweet, caring, and hardworking. I've been missing her more as each day passes by.

• by Kramer Patrick Kevin
• 7 years ago

I found this thread by searching, "I miss my mom." Reading through these comments has been helpful. Seeing all the love poured out on strangers has helped me cope. But I know what you mean. I miss my mother too. Mostly I look for ways not to feel her absence, but then I realize that I really want to feel it. Then when I feel it I wish I couldn't. It's confusing.

I guess I'm not helping. Just know there are others out there feeling these feelings; there are people out there confused like you. My heart goes out to you. I hope for the very best in your life. You deserve happiness despite this, and I do too. I think we can find it. Forgive me if this was off board or inappropriate. I wish you happiness and love. Know that there is someone out there thinking of you, hoping for the very best.
-Sleepless in Seattle

• by Crissy Franks
• 7 years ago

I just lost my mom 3 days ago! It is the hardest thing I've ever dealt with. I'm so lost and have so much hate for everyone right now! They say things get better and it gets longer. I don't think so; it's only getting harder for me. How do I go on? And being her only child I've had to do all the arrangements myself. So overwhelming. I don't wanna do them at all because then reality hits that it's really true.

• by Jeff Edge
• 7 years ago

I lost my mom about a month ago on the worst day of my life, 2/10/17. She called me early that morning and said "I'm sick" and I could hear her gasping for air. I called 911 and rushed to her house and they "released" her body to me an hour later. I was lost then and I'm still lost. I cry each and every day. I see no reason to come home from work or even why I'm getting up to go in the first place. I feel like I'm just waiting to leave. I never realized how much I loved her and never imagined this inevitability would be so difficult. I wish I could go back in time and have spent more quality time with her.

• by Anastacia Cruz
• 7 years ago

I was not a good daughter growing up. I remember my mother giving me to my grandpa because she no longer could support me. I hated what she did, but after a year she realized that she couldn't live without me, but it took me time to forgive her. She proved herself to me. I remember she had to wake up early just to go to market, buy food, and sell it. My mom had to raise me and my siblings alone because my dad passed away when I was 7. She worked really hard just to send us to school and provide some food. I realized what a great mother she was. I started to forgive her and love her every single day. But when I was 11 she was diagnosed with Tuberculosis. She was having so much pain and her days in the hospital made me realize that I couldn't do anything. We didn't have the money to pay for her bills and get the treatment. Because of that, she died.

Nanay, I am sorry for all the mistakes I made. You were the best mother I could possibly ask for. I love you so much!

• by Utkarsh Upadhyay
• 7 years ago

I lost my mom on December 14, 2012. She was 54 years old. It’s been over 4 years, and I miss her every day. Whoever said that time heals all never lost their mother. I was beside her when she left us. She wanted to live...for her family. It was as if she felt bad for us all if she couldn't make it. But fate had other plans. I replay my last conversation with my mom in my head whenever I'm alone...how you said you love me again and again. I hugged and kissed you and said that everything would be all right. When I am alone, I can’t stop crying. I miss you so much, Mom. I will never stop missing you.

• by Krystle
• 7 years ago

I miss you, Mum. I'm broken inside. Not a second goes by I don't want you by my side. You're in my thoughts, your voice is in my head. I wish I had one more second with you. I held your hand as you were leaving this world. All you did was help and be loving. Why would it make you end in such a cruel way? I hate this world. I just want my mum by my side. You were always my rock; you never let me down even though I couldn't be there. I knew you understood. If I could redo one thing, it would be spend more time with you. I want to change, but nothing I do will ever be the same, for you are gone and now a part of me has left. I feel completely broken. I feel my life has died. Mum, if I could do one thing again I would never have moved. I would never have left.

• by Samantha Moore
• 7 years ago

I lost my mother to ovarian cancer. She was diagnosed Oct 2011. She passed today 12/21/13 around 2am. Trust and believe I miss her, but the hardest part was watching her suffer each passing day. I know she is in heaven feeling no pain and looking down at her kids. She would want you to live each day to the fullest. Hugs to you. You are not alone.

• by Ronda Repass, Oregon
• 7 years ago

When she died, a part of me died, too. Living life without her was something I didn't know how to do. Over five years have passed now. I wonder how long this pain is going to last. I think about her every day, the way she would smile and things she would say. I feel her in my heart and see her in me. I know this isn't how she would want me to be...but I just miss my mom. I miss the feeling of having the love only a mom can give. She could always make everything okay. I can't wait to see her someday. I love you, Mom.

• by Gary Archer
• 7 years ago

Mommy died 3 years ago. ALS took her. Fine one day, 2 months later she was gone. I look through foggy lenses now at the world. It's an ache that is never ending. Love to all.

• by Courtney
• 7 years ago

I lost my mom on August 12, 2016...nearly 3 months ago, and the pain still feels the same as the very day I discovered she was gone. My mom died in a flood here in Louisiana...in which she was headed home from the hospital where my uncle (her oldest brother) had passed away that morning. My mom and grandmother were missing that entire day. (She died on the 12th but was found on the 13th). My grandma was found alive and well, but hours later my life would change forever! I miss my mom more than I could ever explain! I think about her every minute, every second! Often times I'm still in disbelief because it still feels surreal! My mom had two children, my little brother (13) and me (22). Momma, we miss you more than anyone will ever know! Until we meet again sweet angel, we love you!!!

• by Patience
• 7 years ago

I lost my mum exactly one week today. Right now I am sitting outside with no idea what I am doing. Well, I think am waiting for her to come back because she traveled and is supposed to have been back, but I got a call from my mum’s number, only it wasn’t her voice. I lost my mum to a car accident. I am lost, confused, and I think my heart is going to rip out.

I had not seen my mum for 2 weeks. Then she called me on Friday to tell me she was traveling and will be back on Sunday, but now I won't be seeing my mum again. I will never hear that soft voice that just makes all pains go away. I will not see that smile that heals, or feel that gentle hug that makes you feel safe. I don't know if it will ever get better, but now I am in pain.

• by Dale Wrightman
• 7 years ago

Mum, I miss you so much. I have never loved anyone so much. You were the kindest, bravest woman I have ever met. You got me through so much. Your soft voice and smile meant so much to me. You had such a bad marriage, but you gave to your children and taught them values beyond a saint. You used to talk to me about the war and the fighters and bombers flying overhead and how you were rationed to food. I was a child. You told me how people, men women and children, were killed in the streets in England. You told me the fighter pilots did not know they were killing children, but that was war. Your own brother was shot down and killed over Germany. You did not see his grave till after the wall came down. I was named after him. I am old now, but I hope when I die I can see you again. This is the only thing that will make my life worthwhile. I love you.

• by Nadine
• 7 years ago

It's been 6 months since I saw my mom's beautiful face! I miss her so very much that words can't describe! She was my world, she was my happiness, she was my refuge, my shelter from this insecure world! My everything. We were so close.

I miss eating with you, shopping with you, laughing with you Mom! I miss doing everything with you. I just wish you were here with me. If you could only see me right now, you would wipe my tears away, but you're not here, and that makes me break.

• by Bletchley
• 7 years ago

I lost my mom in 1979; I was 11 years old. I am now 48 and the loss feels like it was yesterday. I sometimes wish I could just get one of those hugs from my mama.

• by Karunamoorthi.P
• 7 years ago

I lost my mother on July 30, 2016 at 2:15PM. She passed in my lap at her bed. Her eyes were so bright at that time. She was 86 years old. She had a heart attack on December 13, 2005 but recovered. I took care of her a lot over the years. My wife would get mad at me and call me a "mama's boy." Mom passed in great pain and that kills me. I am 55 years old and feel like I lost my child.

Mom, I miss you so much. I know you loved me so much, and I also know that you were afraid of leaving me alone. Please Mom, come and take me with you at the very earliest. I am waiting for your arrival. I think of you every second in my mind.

• by Liz Ronca
• 7 years ago

My mom died a year ago. I was 14. I still cry every night for her. I miss her so much. My mom was only 38 when her life was taken away. I miss everything she did: the way she played with my hair, our relationship. It's so difficult to talk to my dad. It was a lot easier with my mom. I just don't know what to do without her.

• by Shanaaz
• 7 years ago

My mom passed away 21 days ago. I miss her so much. Last month she was with me...now she is so far I can't see her or talk to her. I am dreaming and waiting to get up. As soon as I wake I want to tell my mom that I had a bad dream and wanna hug her. I am literally waiting to get up and stop dreaming ...I am not able to accept this truth.

• by Ab
• 7 years ago

At the age of 4 I lost my mom due to cancer. Now I'm 19. I still can't believe I survived the last 15 years without my loved mom. I miss her every day. She battled with breast cancer since I was 6 months old. Now I'm in college, and it's really hard to continue each day without her. I know how much she loved me. I'll always love her even though I don't remember her face. I'm thankful for her to watch me from heaven.

• by Vanity
• 7 years ago

I'm 28 and lost my mom 2 days ago to pancreatic cancer. She was diagnosed only 3 or 4 months ago. I thought she was strong enough to beat anything, to beat this like she beat cancer before.

She was a great woman, a strong woman. God, I miss her so much; she was the only person I could talk to and ask for advice. She was the only person other than my husband to ever really understand me. Now all I do is think about how my life was when she was here, and I can't picture life without her. I feel I bottled everything in and haven't really grieved because it feels like a dream; it feel so unreal.

I remember having a dream maybe 4 years ago that she had passed due to cancer. I woke up and felt my heart had been ripped open. Now it has happened again, only this time it's real life. It's hard to swallow the facts, and it's killing me. But I am glad that she's not suffering anymore. The Lord called her home, and I know I'll see her someday.

• by Samantha Fosberg
• 7 years ago

My mother lost her battle with cancer 5 months ago. I was only 20 when she passed. She was my best friend, and I feel so heart broken and empty that she is no longer here. I shared everything with my mum. She gave me the best advice. Mum was diagnosed with bladder cancer early 2013. She managed to beat that, but the cancer came back end of 2015. On Good Friday she was rushed to hospital as she became very ill and put into ICU. I didn't realize how bad it was until the ICU doctor spoke with us saying she has 90% chance of not pulling through. My heart sank; I didn't leave her side for 5 days. I stayed with her till her very last breath.

I'm just so angry, sad and lost. I have recently gotten engaged and now planning an engagement party without her sucks because she would have loved to do that. I'm finding it very hard, and I'm struggling since I haven't had time to grieve and now it is all bottled up and I feel like I'm about to explode. I just miss my mum so much. I'd do anything to hug her again.

• by Joan Mason
• 7 years ago

I lost my mum on March 31, 2015. She went to the hospital just to get some vitamins, albumin, and iron, through a catheter. But she got a hospital infection. I flew over when she when to intensive care. After 3 days, the doctor called to invite us to say good bye. I was with her until the last beat of her heart. Miss her always!

• by S Dib
• 7 years ago

I am an international student, and I have never been away from family, but now I'm in the beautiful country of America. All I think about is my mom. I cry, it hurts so much that I curse myself on coming here, and I'm gonna see her after 9 months, but it feels like 9 years to me. I don't know what to do. I can't concentrate in class. I miss her.

• by Angela
• 7 years ago

I lost my mother to cancer in 1991. She was only 34 and I was 14. 26 years later hurts, it hurts when I need advice, it hurts when I wonder what love my children are missing out from. I watched a strong woman, lose her strength and ability to walk. I never watched her lose her will to live and love and be there for her children.

• by Allison Marie
• 7 years ago

I lost my mother to cancer in September, three months before my sweet sixteen. My entire world fell apart. My mom was everything to me, she was my best friend. A heavy sadness filled my soul. It was as if everything that held me up, pushed me down. Nothing was how it was supposed to be. Deeper and deeper I fell within myself and nothing could draw me out. I thought my life was over. Nobody would understand what I went through. Until I found this page. I learned that by reading others stories, I felt whole again. It was like you all were my only friends, that you understood what I was living with. So thank you to everyone who has shared their stories here. You saved my life.

• by Manjeet G., London, England
• 7 years ago

Just over a year ago my beloved Mum passed. A part of me went with her. I miss her with every breath. I lived with my Mum. Every moment I 'see' how we used to spend our days together. She had been through a lot in her life and health. The last week of her life she went into the hospital with stomach pains. Matters complicated but she recovered. However, due to unexplained organ failure, within hours she was gone.
My inner joy is gone. My smile is gone. Mum was my joy, my everything. I wake every morning with a sense of loss, my heart aching. My life will never be the same. The void will never be filled. I miss her loving presence, my friend, my confidant, my rock. There are times I'm screaming and crying inside with the grief, but no-one can tell on the surface.
Mum was beautiful, loving, giving, caring, strong, independent and an evolved soul. She gave her all for us and I love her deeply. I just keep missing her and our life together, wishing I could have her back.

• by Laura Z
• 8 years ago

My wonderful mom went peacefully to sleep on March 23, 2016. She was 98. It was heart wrenching to watch her slip away. She was my pal all my life. I miss her terribly. I can't imagine life without my mom. She told us we were all great & to be good & that she was lucky to have such a loving family. I told her that we were the lucky ones. Rest peacefully mom until we meet again.

• by Mike Fleischauer
• 8 years ago

I lost my Mom on June 10, 2014. I was much luckier than you were. She was 92 and had lived a long & wonderful life. She died fairly quietly in her sleep, with her 2 children, my sister and me, at her bedside. The last 4 years of her life were very difficult as her hearing deteriorated and her once sharp and practical mind went into serious decline. She lived and traveled with me during that time and she was difficult to deal with: confused, paranoid, & angry due to the dementia and hearing loss. Payback for dirty diapers and juvenile misdeeds, I guess. In any case, your poem touched my heart and made me cry quite a bit. After 21 months, I still shed tears for my beloved, departed mother. God bless you!

• by Hailey King
• 8 years ago

I'm 14, my mom passed away 2 weeks ago due to illness. My mom has been really sick since 2010, and this year her body finally gave out. She was in the hospital for 6 months straight this year, over 30 surgeries, a full gastrectomy, and many more. After the gastrectomy, she had internal bleeding and her heart stopped and they couldn't revive her. It is really hard on me especially since I was her mini-me, but I know that God's strength will get my family and myself through this hard situation.

• by Rob Milman, Calgary, Alberta, Canada
• 8 years ago

My mom died from cancer in January 2014. She went into the hospital on December 3rd 2013 and never came out. I spent every day with her, knowing but not accepting, that she was not going to beat this. We talked everyday about good times, bad times, good things and the hard stuff to talk about. I know this was a wonderful gift of time that I was given, but I still miss her terribly. Especially at Christmas when she's not here and I remember what she was going through during this time.

Your poem spoke directly to me, thank you.

• by Verndell Morgan, Vicksburg,missississippi
• 8 years ago

My Mother passed away in 2010. I was deployed with my Army National Guard unit and came home on emergency leave because my Father was in the hospital. A few days later my Mother checked herself into the hospital. My Father made a full recovery, however my Mother remained in the hospital. I went to visit her everyday and the day I will always remember is when the doctor told me to leave, but my Mother said whatever he had to say he could say it in front of me. I cried the whole time it is tough to hear a doctor say someone you love especially your Mother has only 6 months to live. My Mother was strong and she lived every day loving her children and her husband. She passed away a few months later, but I still feel her with me I see her in my dreams like she never went anywhere. To everyone that misses their Mom have faith and be strong. A Mothers love is strong and she is still with you. Thank you for reading my story.

• by Kellie Manning, Georgia
• 8 years ago

When I was 15 years old I tragically lost my mom due to poor choices that were made in her life. Ever since I can remember she always had a major drug addiction. When you are so young you don't really know what that is you just know something isn't right. My mother was my best friend I could tell her anything, she was my world. Sadly I was taken away by defacs when I was 12 due to her drug problem. I was put with my grandmother. My grandmother has practically raised me. Then one day when my grandmother and I was on the way back from the gym I kept getting a weird phone call from a weird guy... so I kept hanging up on him. Then I let my grandmother answer the phone when he called again. And from there my life changed forever. My mother had passed away due to overdose. She passed at least 24 hours before they found her. I felt alone. I would never want anybody to go through the things that I have witnessed/ been though. Thank you for taking your time to read.

• by Joe, Canada
• 9 years ago

I lost my mother 7 weeks ago to brain cancer, she was my most loved and trusted human in my life, her husband, my father, abandoned our family over 25 years ago and my mother never got over it, never started a new relationship, it broke her heart. I did my best for many many years to be a man in her life she could depend on and she was always there for me, ALWAYS! On Oct 11 she fell into a coma at the palliative care house she was admitted to and about 10 hours later she briefly opened her eyes and then slipped away, she knew I and my younger brother were there and I feel that on her final day she knew she was loved very much. I can't stop missing her and am devastated by the knowledge I will never see, speak to or hear from her again, I will always love and miss you Doris!!!

• by Wendy, Minneapolis
• 9 years ago

My Mom passed on November 17th after a 13 year struggle with dementia, the entire time of which she was in a nursing home. I had no choice but to put her in a nursing home. I have SO many regrets. I wish I could have taken care of her at my home. I wish I could have done so many things differently, and I cannot change anything now. She suffered for seven days, or, maybe, she didn't, as she was in a coma, with morphine, but we suffered watching her and listening to her. I HOPE and PRAY she didn't. I know I did every minute, and I had just started a new job two weeks before this, but I spent every day with her, except the final day. I drove back and forth each day 2 hours each way. However, that Sunday night, I drove home as my family (all of whom are much older than me, as I am the youngest, and I mean much younger than even my next brother) thought it would be best for me to go to work on Monday to try and get away from it. So, I did.. Well, my middle brother called me at 1:30 p.m. at work on Monday. Mom was gone. All I remember was hearing someone crying and sobbing so loudly, and it was me on the phone. I simply cannot imagine my life without her. She is everything to me, and I cannot change one minute. There's so much to type and so much to say and yet I can't do anything to bring Mom back to me. I'm Mom's youngest. I'm married and have my lovely dogs. However, I had no children. My dad died when I was 10, and it was only and just only me and Mom. Now, I have no one but my dogs. She is everything to me, and I cannot get any of it back.

• by Megha Sharma
• 9 years ago

I lost my mother 2 years back on November 13,2012. She was 59 years old. She died on Diwali (a huge festival in India). It's been 2 years today but not a single day has gone when I did not cried for her and I have not celebrated any festival after her demise. The pain of losing her is unbearable. She was suffering from renal failure and I used to take care of her but I also fought with her and said some mean things to her. I just want to say sorry. I never meant those things. I love you so much and u hold a special place in my heart. It was worst the day of my life when I saw you dying and a part of me has died with you. Please come back my life is a living hell without you. Missing you always. Hope we will meet again and that too soon.
Love you...
RIP

• by Jim Tran
• 9 years ago

My mom lived half of the world away from me, the last time I saw her 2013. I live in the U.S and she lived in Vietnam. We didn't see each other much. Her sickness getting worse, but she still talked and walked like normal people. 2014, her sickness getting worse, I couldn't get there as fast as I could, she passed away that I couldn't have a chance to said I love you mom. She had a liver failure hepatitis C and her legs swollen really big, some kind a disease, fluid that dripping out from both of her legs. I miss you forever. She passed away on April 23- 2014.

• by Elizabeth Buckley
• 9 years ago

My mother died 11 years ago from cancer. I took care of her and miss her now and for the rest of my life. I know she is in heaven, She was a loving and caring mother. Mom you're the best....Love....

• by Mvr, New York
• 9 years ago

My Mom passed away on April 14th after a 4 month battle with pancreatic cancer. It is unreal. She was so healthy and exercised everyday. No symptoms with this cancer until it is much too late to do anything. She was my inspiration, my soul mate, my friend, my sister, my mom, my life. I have been so lost without her and if wasn't for my daughter and my sister I don't think I could live in this world without her. We were so very close. We spoke everyday and shared the same dreams and goals for our family. I miss her so much. It's hard some days to care much about anything now that my inner light has been darkened forever. I have lost almost all of my inspiration on almost very level except for making sure that my daughter is not suffering as much as I am. She is 3 though so her pain is much different. I've cried almost everyday since my mom was so cruelly taken from me. Watching her die slowly from cancer was heart wrenching. How can life be so cruel. This poem is so true. I never known a broken heart until now. There is nothing that will ever mend it. I love and miss you and hope that you will wait for me.

• by Kathleen Wesley
• 9 years ago

My mum died on the 23rd of March this year. She died from renal failure, she was 57. I never saw it coming one day she's getting better the next she's gone. Most days I wake up and I can't believe she's not here anymore. I struggle with the silence, where her bedroom light used to be on, where she would watch TV of a night and hearing her playing her favorite movies, it's all dead silent now. It makes me feel so empty, confused and sad. I'm nearly finished university degree, I'm 26 and It blows my mind all the things she won't be around for. It seems like I'm in a nightmare I can't wake up from.

Live your life to the fullest you don't know if you will have tomorrow.

• by Falak
• 9 years ago

I lost my mom last year on the 1st of September because of cancer. I just pray to god to eliminate this disease from this world!!!

• by Udai, India
• 9 years ago

My mother too died couple of weeks back. I used to live with her in same house. She was unwell from last 10 years or so. I used to take care of her, best of my ability. She was suffering from Bronchitis Asthma. I always made a point to look after and care for her and ensure that all her deep rooted desires are fulfilled. In between I went out of town for work and came back in a couple of years as it becomes unbearable to live without mumma. I got married, led a happy married life and have kids which delighted her to the core. I made a point to get the best of treatment in hospital till last point of her time. She eventually died. It was a terrible time for me. Whoever read this and has his/her mother alive, I request them to stay with their mother in same house, take best care of her throughout her life. Even though if she dies, one can have solace that he/she taken best care of her and was close to her during her last breath.

• by Chandan Gurjar
• 9 years ago

I lost my mother after a surgery to treat duodenal cancer. She died of Pulmonary embolism. She was supposed to get discharged the next day And guess what, cruel fate... I get a call at 3 am to say she is gone... How bad can that be...
I miss you mom. You appear in my dreams everyday. Without you, my life has lost purpose and direction. If only I can trade all that I have achieved in life to get you back, I will do so with a smile. It has been a year and a half, but it looks like you were with me till yesterday. Please come back mom, I just can't live without you.

• by Amy
• 10 years ago

I can also relate to it too, I lost my mother from cancer and on the 29th of this month of April she'll be a year of being dead and it's just so hard for me because she died at the age of 51 :'( I just miss her so much and wish she was back, I was there taking care of her until she passed away and my family pushed me away from her and put me inside my room blocking my view and way to my mom's room.

• by Jamie, Washington DC
• 10 years ago

It was my mom and me when we helped my dad die. Then it was me when my mom was dying. She was scared and I told her it wouldn't hurt that it would come natural, but it didn't. She choked to death just like she was scared was going to happen and I let her down. I am so sorry mommy. I love you and I miss you.

• by Mr, Ontario
• 10 years ago

I lost my mom 6 years tomorrow.
There are days when it seems ok and I can breath and live a normal life, and others when I can't seem to get it together.
At the 6 year mark, I think I should really be 'getting over it'. I always take off her 'death date' and spend it with my family but this year I opted to work from home. It was a silly notion that I will never do again! I will always take that day off to be as sad or as happy as I want. My Mom was only 50 when she died of a brain tumour. After I had a severe car accident, Mom had seizures where they found an aggressive brain tumour that would take her life after 18 months and a day. Thankfully I was there with her when she died and spent many moments in the days and months prior with lots of hugs and phone calls and dates together.
She was a one of a kind, gracious, passionate, and loved me unconditionally. That's the thing I miss the most - I could do anything because she was my biggest fan. Miss you Mom, glad you are in heaven. Love your baby girl.

• by Celestina
• 10 years ago

I lost my mom when I was 14... She died at 38 years old.
Now I'm 15 years old and still missing her. :)
I was crying a lot until my eyes are sore.
I wish I can see her again, or even hear her voice...
Just for me to say "I love you" to her.

• by Thando, South Africa
• 10 years ago

It's been 9 years since I lost my mother. I was only 13 when heaven took her away from me. I know she`s in good hands and I know someday I will see her. Everybody misses you ma

• by Ann, Ohio
• 10 years ago

My Mother was my best friend and yet remained my disciplined Mom, she never blurred the lines. She passed away 8 months ago after a year long illness of ups and downs. Even during the last down turn, I really thought she would survive and stay with me longer. I miss her so much and it hurts so bad. No one understands me like my Mommy. I am 52 and she was 89. I have a wonderful husband and two wonderful daughters, they all miss her too. She was so special, oh gosh, I sure do wish I could talk to my Mom, hug her, kiss her, brush her hair, tell her so many things. I know she is in a better place and I know she is happy there with the loved ones that went before her. I just wasn't ready to not have her in my life everyday. I miss her, I miss her, I miss her, I guess I always will!

• by Ruben, Miami Fl
• 10 years ago

I lost my mother nearly three weeks ago on February 9th, after a 7+ year struggle with breast cancer. Seeing "mima", as I called her, wither away broke my heart. The trauma of the last month of her life will forever remain imprinted on my mind. It was the worst, most intense, pain I have ever felt. I think of her day and night...I miss her dearly.
My consolation, my hope, and my faith is that she's in heaven and that one day we will be reunited. I know that the day I die, she will hold my hand as I did her's the day she died.
This evening, as I prayed a few words in front of my house after saying goodnight to my dad, I saw a beautiful falling star. Thank you mommy, I know that you're telling me that you are OK. I love you and I miss you dearly...we all do...but Stephen your grandson specially so.
Mother Teresa of Calcuta once wrote: (In Spanish) "A veces sentimos que lo que hacemos es tan solo una gota en el mar, pero el mar seria menos si le faltara una gota."

• by Us
• 10 years ago

My Mom died on New Years Day 2014. She was 85, but your mom being old when she dies isn't much comfort, although it would certainly be better than some here who lost their mom when they were kids.
If you smoke, stop. My mom died of COPD (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disorder) which in a way can be worse than even cancer. Your lungs give out, and your body fills with fluid, and you basically drown. Opportunistic diseases, bronchitis, etc. abound for COPD sufferers. I miss Mom so much. I adapted the lyrics from the song, "Laras Theme" for my Mom, and when I did so, I cried like never before (and I'd lost one of my sisters, and my younger brother already to drunk drivers.) Nothing will make things better until I see her (and my siblings) in Heaven. The pain deadens after a while, but never goes away. She was my "Momma Bird" and always will be. I'm glad you're not suffering any longer, MB, but I miss you horribly. God bless all who know this pain.

• by Venus, South Africa (Phalaborwa)
• 10 years ago

My mum died on the 10 June 2012. Mum was a strong woman. Rarely sick; 2 days before she passed she was doing her gardening and planted many rows of vegetables. The following morning everything changed, my brother phoned to say mum is not well, then phoned a few minutes later to say she's beginning to scare him. I drove 2 hours to the hospital, when we went to see her she was in a lot of pain, sugar too high at 39mmol I tried not to cry, by afternoon she was better even asked us to help her sit up and talked to us, mum kept saying 'my children, I have seen that you loved me so much, I will sleep very well'
I guess we were in denial becuase at the time we didn't understand what she was saying. The following day I didn't go early I phoned and at 11 am they told me she was much better. I believed Mum was fine now. At 14:00 my dad phoned crying and told me mum was gone.
I felt the clouds turn dark and covering the sky above me. I felt cold and weak. I couldn't cry. I was scared.
To my mum: I know if you could you would have stayed with us, I love you very much and miss your love and caring, your advice.
Mum in your life you did everything that needed to be done, you said everything that needed to be said. Today mama when I think of asking for advice from you, I know what you would have said, I am still guided by your wisdom mama. Love you and miss you always.
Thank you mama for the person I am today.

• by Silva, Texas
• 10 years ago

Mom, I miss you so. My mom died in 2009 when she was 95 years old and I was 69 and I was still not ready for her to go. I lived with her and took care of her for 11 years before she died and sometimes I still hear her voice calling me. Mom, Mommy, Mother, I miss you so much. You were a good mom.

• by Saroj Kumar Nishad
• 10 years ago

My Mom passes away when I was only 4 years.
I really don't know love of parents. but when I see a mother of my friends, My eyes got filled.
I am Missing you Mom every seconds of My life.

It's is too hard to live without you..Mom please come back

• by Mumbai
• 10 years ago

Aai , yes in India we call our mom Aai. My aai taught me everything about life. She was the best mom like everyone has. She used to scold me whenever I used to do lot many mistakes but at the same time I used to get chocolates and my favourite dishes to eat. Almost eighteen years back I lost her. When I lost her I was just 19. She was kind and everyday before leaving my house I used to hug her and also used to touch her feet to take all blessings. Now today also every moment I miss her and cry in her memory in one corner cause I know God too loved my mom and hence he has taken away my mom from me. Even though I have everything I don't have her today with me. Major loss in life is my mom. Aai I love you....

• by Antony Roberts, South Yorkshire
• 10 years ago

I lost my Mum on 31 July 2013. I never called her Mum because we were closer than a typical Mum and Son. I called her by nicknames I had for her! The week she was in hospital before she died I called her Mum all the time. It's been 11 weeks now. It just feels like yesterday. But it feels like ages ago too. How can this be? This week I haven't cried for 3 days until today. I'm back at work but just going through the motions. I just think about her all the time. I feel like I'm on another planet to everyone else. How can everyone else move on and I'm just in the most loneliest place in the universe? No one asks anymore how I am. No one really mentions Mum anymore. How can life carry on? How can people forget?
Mum, I've always loved you and I know I always will. I just want to see you again. To know if you're ok. To hear you're voice which I struggle to remember. I never want to forget you. I know I never will. Cos my heart was made by you. It's broken and I hope it mends but it belongs to you. Inga. My darling Mum. I love you so much x

• by Carlos, Texas
• 10 years ago

Well in March 4 2013 I lost my mom. She was 39 when she passed. I am 18 year old the day my mom gave her last breath was one of those days I didn't know what to do. That day was like dang how am I going to continue even though I didn't have a great connection with my mom it still hurt so bad to lose her. Well on top of that I lost my grandma 2 weeks later on March 18 2013 and that was hard to lose two people in the same month due to cancer...it still rough a lot of stuff has changed and been rough to get used to the new changes but I don't know. Well that all I have to say...thanks

• by Lisa, Tennessee
• 10 years ago

A year ago, today, the thing I dreaded my entire life happened. My mom died. I sat by her side, held her hand and whispered that I loved her and kissed her.I told her I was so proud to be her daughter. I told her it was alright for her to go, that if she was too tired, she could go and that we would be ok. I knew she was exhausted. She had been in the hospital for 76 days for what started out as a very routine check-up on blood loss. After a surgery to have a cyst removed, Mom was never the same. She was confused. As the weeks progressed, Mom had two more surgeries, due to infection and more internal bleeding. She became so weak; her body too wracked with infection to be able to fight. A very gentle doctor helped us to realize it was time to say goodbye. We sat by her side from Friday to that Wednesday, waiting. We even snuck in her favorite cat to allow him to say goodbye. On August 22nd, 2012, I lost the person I loved most in this world. I miss you, Mom. Love you.

• by Tina, Pennsylvania
• 10 years ago

Next week is my birthday. My mom died from ovarian cancer a week after my 32nd birthday. That will be 11 years ago this month. My father died 3 years ago in November from colorectal cancer. Watching them suffer ate away at my soul and broke my heart. I will never be the same again. I miss them both so much. Life is unfair. These experiences have left me sad, alone and pessimistic. People have good intentions but truly do not understand. To live 10 years of your life surrounded with illness, try to imagine what that does to a person. To have the people you love the most cry to you because their pain is unbearable that they want to die is one of the worst experiences of my life. They never got to grow old. I guess God has a plan but I will never understand.

• by Gillian
• 10 years ago

My Mother died on 28th February 2013 after suffering a severe stroke at the beginning of February. She was on her own. The neighbors raised the alarm and phoned my daughter. She would have been 90 years old in September; my 60th and my twin daughter's 30th in May. We planned to have a big celebration but without Mum it wasn't right and didn't happen. Mum was unable to talk but I like to think she understood what we said to her...all but the harsh words between her daughters. We numbered three but could not agree when the Consultant said she had only had possibly six months left: I wanted her to live with my husband and I; they wouldn't agree...so the Consultant made the decision to put her in the horrible Liverpool Care Pathway. Their greed! My horror and shame! I should have fought more! I stayed with her every night and talked to her throughout. I miss her and want her back! My immediate family do too. Rot to the rest of them, especially my untruthful sisters! Shame on you!!

• by Tracie, England
• 10 years ago

I lost my mom a year today 25th/7 and it hurts just as much if not more than the day she walked with the angels, she was 66 years old and had so much to live for, my mom only went into hospital for tests, she was in there two days and died in my arms I love her and miss her so much, good night god bless mom xxx and a million more

• by Tinath, Asia
• 10 years ago

Both of my loving parents are alive. But my aunt--she was a second mum to me, and she didn't love me any less than my mum.
She went 6 years without any treatment. She had breast cancer, see. the doctors didn't know her strong will for her children, which did not waver when her husband married once again in front her eyes.
And it certainly did not waver even when she was paralyzed, weak, her organs shutting off, and with everyone at her side.
There is a difference between cheating Death and battling Death.
When she died, nobody was beside her except her betraying husband. I had just left. I cried when she died. I cried because she died alone. I let her die alone. I cried because I had promised I will take of her daughter when she died, but I couldn't keep my promise properly because I myself was too busy shouting and crying. I cried because my aunt was gone. I wouldn't see her.
I cried because I couldn't say goodbye to my aunt before she turned to dust, all away. I would never see her again.

• by Savuya
• 10 years ago

The most pain in my life is when I lost my mother, I was only 17 years old. We made so many plans for the following year which is this year. My mother was my best friend and I mean my everything. She was working in Grahamstown and I was far from her but she always made time for me and we adored one another. My mom was only 47 years old and she was struggling with Breast Cancer. I held her hand each and every step she had to take. But God took her unexpectedly, she was far from me I couldn't even say my last words to her or make her smile. She ended up laying in the hospital like an small helpless baby, she couldn't eat on her own. They had to feed her or use pipes to feed her. She couldn't even speak and she got tired of the pains that was eating her up decided to give up without even me seeing the last smile on her face or even touching her or holding her hand. Only had a chance to touch her face when it was cold in her casket. My heart is still hurt because I lost my everything just by losing my mother.

• by Trying To Survive
• 10 years ago

Hi everyone, My mother died 10 years ago with lot of pain in her last days. I still miss her every second. Mommy if you could hear me. It's just impossible to live without you. Without you life has no meaning. Please come in my dreams and hug me everyday. I need you very badly.

• by Gail, Ohio
• 10 years ago

My mom passes away April 2-we lived together for the last 31 years-since the night my dad died very suddenly. We were told on Feb 27 (my birthday) that her cancer had returned and that she had less than 6 months to live. I was by her side, holding her hand, when she took her last breath. I miss her so much and don't know how I am going to get through Mother's Day.

• by Rajni, India
• 11 years ago

Jenifer it seems that words are yours but story is mine. I did the same when my mother died. It's been around 2 years now, but I am still struggling to live without her. I do not know how would I do it for the rest of my life. I lost her to kidney failure...she was 63 years at that time...it feels that someone has taken away some part of me away and left me in pain forever...oh god...I miss her so much....can not she come back and give me a hug?? just once...just once....please

• by Jiselle De Montbrun, Trinidad
• 11 years ago

This month April 26th would be ten years since my mother passes away from colon cancer. I miss her so much, she was my best friend. A humble person that cared about her children and friends more than she did herself. My heart aches and I wish I can see and feel her again. I know in my heart that we will meet again and it would be a joyous moment. She gave her all for us and I will love her always and forever.

• by Kristi Langenmayr
• 11 years ago

You know when it's the time to say goodbye, at least I knew. My mom was only 59 when she passed away and I was 32 yrs old. I never thought in my life that I'd have to go through the pain I did until I was older. She knew that she had to quit smoking and she just never did. I had to take care of her for the last 6 months of her life. She was always a very independent woman and always had her head on straight. She was an R.N and a great nurse, her patients loved her. Towards the end of her life it was so hard to watch her wilt away to nothing. She couldn't drive or even be alone she was so sick and in pain. Well December 9th 2011 she went into a coma and stopped breathing and I had to call an ambulance, they intubated her which we had an DRN (do not resuscitate) that she had signed. They still went against our wishes and kept her breathing for the next day. Well we finally took her off the respirator and the doctor's put her in Hospice to keep her comfortable while she passed on to the next life in heaven.

• by Jeff E.
• 11 years ago

I just lost my mom on the 5th of Jan this year, this I believe is the hardest thing a son or daughter has to go through! My mom was my best friend my grandma had me go check on my mom and when I did I found her sitting on her couch gone, I got down on the floor on my knees and put my arms around her and laid my head I'm her lap and cried like a baby, it's still not real that she's gone, I never got to say goodbye, this pain and emptiness will never go away. I love my mom with all my heart and soul, if it weren't for my three sons and my loving wife, I would not want to go on! So please if you still have your mother pick up a phone, drive over their if your able to put your arms around her and tell her that you love her. Just a little something from me to you (peace)

• by Clara, Ok
• 11 years ago

My mom died when I was 9. Only 2 weeks from her birthday and about a month from mine. And oh my goodness was that ever hard. I still cry over her death. She died from breast cancer. My dad remarried but it is so not the same. A step mother can be a stepmother but there can only be one true mama in my heart. Ahe was so precious to me. I'll miss her every day till I meet her in heaven.

• by G. Taylor-Franklin
• 11 years ago

My mom died three years ago, a week before thanksgiving. She died from cervical cancer which she battled with for about a year. As I sit here and type in this text, tears are flowing. My mom was my everything and I do mean EVERYTHING! As crazy as it seems I thought she would be with me forever. I always told God to take me first because I didn't know how I could handle not having her on earth but God so fit to take my mom first. It's been a struggle for me these past three years, I even thought about ending my life. But with God's grace and mercy.....He's been sustaining me thus far. MISSING MY MOM DESPERATELY! Without her I've been like a fish without water..... Today is her birthday..."HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMIE"..R.I.P, I MISS YOU SO MUCH MORE THAN WORDS CAN EVER SAY OR DESCRIBE.

• by Mary Jo, Grand Rapids Mi
• 11 years ago

Oh mother, how I miss you so much. You were my best and only true friend. Dec. 6 you will be gone 1 month. I will never forget your touch and the feel of your hand. I hurt so much. The only comfort I have is that I know I will see you again. My mother was 80 years young and she did not suffer as she was dying. I love you so much.

• by Nancy, Nebraska
• 11 years ago

Today, right now, I miss you. You have been gone so long----I have lost count of the years, I think it is 17. I was 40 years old, but felt like a child who lost her mother---and I was lost. I have darling grandchildren that you have never seen, but sometimes I think maybe you are watching over them. For so many years I felt like one day I would answer the phone and it would be you. How it haunted me that I missed your last phone call the night before you died. I can't even remember your last visit to my house or the last time we talked. Some of my memories make me mad and sad, but my love for you is always there. I hope Dad is with you, and how I miss him too. I always imagine that he will come for me when it is my time, and he and I will take a ride into the gates of heaven, him driving me into the light. I want the universe to know, I miss you.

• by Danielle, Oconomowoc
• 11 years ago

I lost my mom about a month ago. It still feels like it was yesterday. I am 17 years old and it is harder than anybody I know could imagine. I keep telling them that I feel like I'm going crazy but they just don't understand. I'd always call her if I was feeling upset, and now I'm upset a lot. And all I want to do is call her but I can't. I miss her hugs and her smile and her laugh. She died of bone cancer. She was in hospice for about 2 months and even when I saw her in there, I didn't really believe it was true. Until she got really sick the day before she passed. I saw her fall apart right in front of me. Even after she was gone I couldn't leave her side. I came in the room, kissed her and ran my fingers through her hair. I walked out and ran back in and did it again. I didn't want to leave knowing I wouldn't see her again. I miss her so much :'( and I wish this was easy. I really do.
I love you so much mommy.

• by Anonymous
• 11 years ago

Mommy I miss you so much, even though you had health problems I never thought you could just leave me alone so soon. You left and now I feel that I've never said to you how much you meant to me. I know you loved me so much and I also know that you were afraid for leaving me alone, I say thank you for being there for me fifteen years of my life. Those years will be the most happy years I'll ever have because we were together...I LOVE you , I miss you and I wish you were here to watch me do everything you wanted me to...

• by South Africa
• 11 years ago

I lost my mom Dec last year and the year before that my dad, she never recovered from it. She had a heart attack - she was 60. Today she would've been 61, people say things will get better with time, it doesn't. You only get used to the pain, but every second you can feel that all is not as it should be.
Happy B-day, mom. Miss you and Love you always x

• by Juan, Riverside California
• 11 years ago

I lost my mother a year ago; she passed as I stood at her bed-side. She was only 61 years old. I think of her every day. I held and kissed her every chance I had, but it still seems that it was not enough. My wife would get mad at me and call me a "mama's boy" because I would seek my mother's advise when I had problems that stressed me. My mother passed in great pain and that "kills" me. I am 46 yrs old and I feel like a lost boy without my mother. Mom I miss you so much.

• by Jacksonville N.C.
• 11 years ago

My dad passed away 27 years ago. My two brothers passed away 17 years ago and one 10 years ago. My sister got shot 8 years ago. Now my mom died 6 weeks ago It was so hard for them all to leave me because I loved them so much but there's nothing that compares to losing a mother because she was always my best friend the one I could go to to talk about anything and she always knew the words to say especially when times were hard she knew how to make me feel better. I love you all and miss you more than words could ever say.

• by Ashley
• 11 years ago

My mom passed away from stage four colon cancer when I was 16 my dad had already passed away when I was 7. I miss them both more than anything. I can't believe they are gone. People say time makes things easier but they are wrong.

• by Tiffeny, Essex
• 11 years ago

It is hard loosing your mum, I lost my mum when I was 6 , In fact it is hard loosing both parents, my dad died when I was 4 and my Nan always used to tell me my mum died, I have always lived my life thinking 'she could be dead' or 'she could turn up anytime' this poem touched me and it is really well written

• by Desma Phillips Stanford, Ky
• 11 years ago

My Mom has been dead for 1 year today. I didn't sleep at all last night. I miss her so bad, even though we really didn't talk that much for the last couple years of her life. She had a pill problem for as long as I can remember, on May 20th 2011 she took too many for the last time, and never woke up. Today is a bad day for me and I'm struggling, I have my own issues, not trying to kill myself anymore, but just wish my family had of turned out different. I think if I can handle it I'm going to call my daughter today and try to talk some sense into her, cause I don't want her to feel bad someday when I'm gone and she has things LEFT UNSAID ........

• by Sandys
• 12 years ago

It is so hard to watch someone you love soo much be taken away too young. I lost my mum to cancer and could relate to this beautiful poem. I laid beside her and held her hand, I watched her leave this world with such fear and uncertainty in her eyes and hope she too found peace. It was 3 years ago today and I miss more today than yesterday.