Published: Jul 2008
Trying Too Hard
You are too old to take all the hurt away with a kiss from a scrap.
You look as beautiful as I had imagined when I held you for the first time.
You were such a diamond to me.
I know that I can be demanding.
I know in my head that you need to be let go.
But my heart continues to say no.
It is too soon to lose my youngest to the world outside.
So please understand I don't like the way things are going.
I don't want to keep pushing you away.
I want to cross the line into the next phase.
Where we laugh and share without judgment but still praise.
I think you are the most amazing, precious jewel that I was fortunate to be given.
So please give me time and I will continue to step into the shadows until you call.
I know that I have done my job and now it is time for you to take your place.
You are a woman with so much style and grace.
I love you Jennifer with each breath I take.
I can see you in mind's eye.
All I can visualize is your smile and beauty so fine.
I am so sorry to make you feel so frustrated.
I hope that we can start from today
shaping the relationship that we both want
but are having a hard time making.