Abandonment Poem

A daughter writes about how she feels towards her mom, who abandoned her when she was little.

My Feelings To You

© Katarina Alexa Arruda
Behind your shadow,
I stand and fall.
It’s a tough battle,
In which I feel so small.
My feelings toward you,
you might think are dumb.
Sad upset confused,
angry hurt and numb.
When I needed a mom,
you were not there,
to talk about boys,
or to fix my hair.
Yes, you did call,
every once and while,
but an ocean of tears,
hide behind this smile.
Tormented, trapped and torn,
my heart says I feel,
seven years after I was born,
my heart won’t start to heal.
I see other girls,
laugh with their moms,
I go dizzy with swirls,
and crash like a bomb.
The anger in me,
rages in fright,
always staying angry,
I just think I might.
Time heals everything,
I don’t think that’s true,
I know something,
time did not do.
Time has been flying,
for a long while,
I’ve always been trying,
to show a real smile.
One thing that hurts,
and I don’t know why,
you moved far away,
and it makes me cry.
When I think about this,
to myself I lie,
I’ve gotten over you,
that I would not try.
You are a mother,
a mother of two,
me and my brother,
we hardly know you.
Every night I think,
of how my life could’ve been,
tears run down my face,
and my world starts to spin.
These past few years,
have been really hard,
for the rest of my life,
I’ll be severely scarred.
It took me time to realize,
what you did to me,
tears in my eyes,
and you're clueless it seems.
I try to be brave,
it really hurts,
you could’ve stayed,
instead of making it worse.
I want you to know this,
it’s sad but it’s true,
you hurt your little girl,
and your little boy too!
You ruined me,
you made me cry,
you really hurt me,
and to laugh I try.
There is a hole in my heart,
the doctor’s don’t see.
I guess they don’t know,
what my mommy did to me.
If you want me back,
you have to prove,
you can be a mom,
to me and Andre too!
When I screamed for you,
did you hear a sound?
I guess you didn’t,
because you were never around.
I will tell you something,
you cannot forget,
once you hurt your kids,
it will soon come to regret.

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Published: Jun 2007

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  • My Mom left me & my Brother & Sister when I was 3. I still haven't fully got over it. I lie & say I'm over it. I'm 25 years old.
    I think of her less & less everyday. She used to call occasionally make promises and disappear for another 5 years. I haven't seen her since I was 3.
    My feelings are the same, angry followed by numb, followed by betrayal. I loved the poem.

    Kim Submitted Sep 2008
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  • I feel like this was written to me, I have tried to be back in my daughters life for the last 6 years, I was gone a year. she has slowly let me back in but I don't think she ever fully will, she calls someone else mom now, it hurts bad but I know I hurt her and I am truly sorry

    Cheryl Submitted Sep 2008
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  • My little girl is 4 now and her Mom left her when she was just a week old. I know she thinks of it now as she asks me a lot. So your poem touched me. Thank you

    Keith Connell Submitted Jan 2009
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  • I felt like this was the true story of my mom leaving me and I will never be the same because of her and I just want to meet her some day and tell her how much she hurt me and how she never even tries to find me or anything the only thing I ever got from her was a birthday card when I was 6 and I never heard from her again and I am 15 now!

    Moriah Submitted Feb 2009
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  • WOW my mom left me when I was three years old 2 she came into my life like every 3-4 years she gave me a stuffed rabbit that's the only memories I have of her and we live cities away its really hard growing up without a mom but I'm 24 now and I have a daughter of my own that I cherish with all of my heart and I will not follow in her footsteps

    christina Submitted May 2009
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  • I lived with my mom all my life for 14 years...My father, whom I did not know decided he wanted me to live with him,, in another state. He told me how to act towards my mom, (hatefully), how to say things to make her look bad, I did a lot to hurt her...I did go with my father, after lying to everyone, including my friends I met in his state.
    Well, I am back with my mother. I love her, so much bad happened, I do not know how to express anything. What is love anyways? I never hated her, I was told to hate. Look at my life. Well you can't but if you could. Think of the parent that gave you love, attention, respect and a good home.

    Meghan Submitted Jul 2009
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  • My mother never left home, but she never made an effort to love me and my dad. I, as her child always tried my best to excel so she can look at me with loving eyes. She never did and I am now 34 and my dad has passed away. She gave us a big hole in our hearts.. a feeling of emptiness and loneliness and time never made it easier to bear. I guess seeing her everyday at home and seeing how much she tried to make me feel invisible every single day makes the experience tougher and more painful.

    Ryn Submitted Jul 2009
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  • My mother left me and my brother when I was only 16 months old. She has just now come back into my life and wants a relationship with me. Should I do it or should I not. I pray to god not knowing what to do.

    Shelby Submitted Oct 2009
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  • It's a beautiful poem, my teacher left us to translate it to Spanish. I will do my best. Thanks for this amazing poem it's so touching
    good luck

    Rose Kuri, Mexico Submitted Dec 2009
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  • I was abandoned at age 5. This is the part that got me the most:
    "Time heals everything,
    I don’t think that’s true,
    I know something,
    time did not do."
    I wish it was healable, but I haven't found it to be either. It has been impossible to have close relationships as an adult because of this damage.

    Deb Submitted Dec 2009
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  • This is a very honest poem.. I read it and I cried all the way through it because this is exactly how I feel. I am 35 years old have 2 kids and love them to bits.. spend my life trying not to be my mom. Used to think I was over her but I don't think I ever will be. you just get used to the pain....

    Angela, London Submitted Dec 2009
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  • My mother has never really been in my life. We were taken away from her when I was 4, I am now 18 almost 19. I haven't seen her in 14 to 16 years I have lost count. My brother and sister and I grew up with out are mother and fathers. I know I will have to see her some day but I don't know if I want to, anytime soon.

    Ayshia Submitted Feb 2010
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  • My mom left me and my sister and brother when I was nine after years of cheating on my dad. We stayed in touch for a year but she's an alcoholic and a drug addict and so we moved to try and stay away from her but she just keeps finding us and has tried to break in to our house and has stole stuff from us. She says she loves us and wants to be with us but all she does is hurt us.

    Spencer Submitted Feb 2010
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  • I love this poem!!! I feel similar to the girl who wrote it...My mom left me when I was 3. I never heard from her, not so much as a single letter or phone call. She suddenly appears in my life again, I meet her on my 16th birthday. I was raised in foster care, where I was passed around and abused. She was in my life for 2 1/2 years, and now she's gone again...Why did she hurt me again? What did I ever do to her?

    Heather, New York City Submitted May 2010
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  • Wow this is so touching, so deep and so real. best poem I think I've ever read :) loves...

    Derroll, Newcastle UK Submitted May 2010
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  • This really touched my heart! My real mother left me and my little brother when I was 3 and he was 1. We had a step mom that decided she wanted no part of our lives when her and my dad divorced when I was 12 years old. I have had no one to call mom since then and I am now 25 years old! My children have no one to call grandma...maybe someday she will want to be in our lives...I just keep the faith, thank you!

    Sara, Hanford CA Submitted Aug 2010
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  • This really touched me as well, My mom left both me and my sister with my grand parents I was 6 months and my sister was 11 years old. My sister never got over it and ran away from home again with my mother as of the age of 18. My sister and my mother lived together bouncing all over NYC in lower east side apartments. Both got into intense use of drugs after time, both became drug users. Using heroin and all kinds of drugs during 1978 worse time of drug impact in the USA. My Grandparents gained there rights and adopted me and as for me I thanks God My grandparents took over my life, I was very lucky today I stand with my head up high all went by and my grandparents must be in the sky with the lord because they did a great job.

    Joe, Puerto Rico Submitted Aug 2010
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  • this poem really hit home with me the only difference is that my mom was still around my older brothers but when I was 8 my mom and dad got a divorce and I lived with my dad and I would go to my moms sometimes after school and one day I went there when I was 12 and had a note on the table that said "went to Florida, bye" she called a few times while she was gone and came back to KY when I was 20 and wanted to be part of my life it is hard and she is a drug addict so makes it harder. she lives a mile from me now and we still rarely talk she calls me when she's drunk or high. I say you lucked out she doesn't deserve you.

    Carla Submitted Sep 2010
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  • This poem really touched me so bad my dad was not really there for me, at times I feel so left out don't want to talk to any one always by myself and was so sick of being me but all these poem I read fill my heart with tears I wish I could just have the guts to tell my mum how much she is love but at time she make feel so bad

    Annakay, Spanish Town Submitted Sep 2010
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  • This poem has made me think of my own mother who had abandoned me when I was only 2 years old. My father and my adoptive mom {still my mom} have taken care of me for 13 years. They have given me a better life. Had I stayed with my biological mother, I wouldn't have as many options for life as I do now. So thank you to whoever wrote it, and Mom, if you're reading this, I do love you.

    Janie, Md Submitted Nov 2010
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  • My mother didn't abandon me and my sister but she basically chose a man (which was my step father) over my sister and I. Something happened to me when I was 11 yrs old and my mother chose not to believe me and she decided to just stay with him. Thats what hurt me the most. So because of her making that decision, I was put into foster care for about a year and a half. To be honest, I'd rather have lived with my foster family than to go back with my so called mother and step father. Thankfully my father tried to get custody of me but for some reason they wouldn't let him at the time, so the only thing he could do was have somebody else in my family take me in, and that's when I went to go live with my aunt Linda. She took good care of me until a year later when my dad finally got full custody of me. You see, the funny thing is that my mother had several chances to leave him but she never would. I'm 15 now, and I'm doing ok. My mom doesn't try calling me, but that's her loss, not mine.

    Shelby Submitted Nov 2010
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  • My mother abandoned me when I was 2 years old. So I understand the feeling a lot more than others would. What people don't realize is that it happens more often than we think. And it hurts. I don't even remember my mother leaving me, but it has a lasting effect on everything I do now.

    Janie Woodward, Parkville MD Submitted Nov 2010
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  • Hi, I know what its like to not have your parents in your life but instead of not having one gone both of them were gone ..they're both drug addicts who have been in and out of prison ever since I was born ..they did have my sister up until recently but they were abusing her and are drug dealers still today. This past summer I got to meet them for the first time since I was a baby..and they both had assured me they were done with their old life and were clean, but my little sister told me otherwise ..before me mom had lost my brother, then me now she has lost my little sister. My question is how many children does she have to loose before she stops thinking of herself sometimes I wonder does she even love us at all ?
    I had given her a second chance but she blew so I guess its her loss

    Kendra, Canonsburgh Submitted Nov 2010
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  • WOW! what a awesome poem. it really touched me in a deep way. my mother left me and moved to a new country while my brother and I were with foster parents. 3 years later she came and won custody of us so we moved countries to be with her. 3 years later I was back in foster care but this time alone because my brother moved back to Germany with our dad only 2 years after being with my mum. I haven't spoken to him in 17 years...it's sad. I will never forgive her. Some people shouldn't have kids...

    Mel Submitted Jan 2011
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  • Damn, didn't know so many people were effected by this..
    My mom left when I was 3, I'm 15 now, and TIME DOES NOT HEAL, people try to get me to open up, some try to be a mom figure in my life. That's never gonna happen, she really messed up my life. This poem brought many emotions to me, they WILL NEVER GO AWAY... but she did..

    Jazzlyn Submitted Jan 2011
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  • My mom never wanted me. She left right after I was born and she was out of the hospital, gave me to my daddy and left, wasn't at my 1st bday nothing and now she wants to be my everything, but I hate her and she told me she didn't want me and I wish she never had me

    Shelbi Crawford Submitted Mar 2011
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  • I am 14 and my mom left me when I was three.....I am in contact though but I missed at least ten years with her... great poem...

    Kalie, Lansing Submitted Nov 2011
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  • My mom left when I was young too. She had five of us, but she had me when she was 15. She chose to be on drugs and go through several different men. The way you feel about your mother in this poem, explains exactly how I felt about mine. This is a great poem.

    Shanece, Louisiana Submitted Jan 2012
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  • I love this poem. I can honestly relate this to my dad. But instead of him leaving me, I left him. He was very abusive. So I got a restraining order on him at age 12. As you can see I matured very well. I tried not to cry, I tried not to pout. But now that I'm 13. I'm still blaming myself for what has happened, always beating myself up about it... It's very hard for me to not go a day with out wanting to hear his voice... I understand exactly how you feel...

    Jade, North Carolina Submitted Jan 2012
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  • I was 7 when my mom started to go out of my life. I'm 17 now and no one really understands around me. I try to explain but they never get it. I still tell myself I'm over it but it's a lie and it hurts to think about it.

    Karli Submitted Feb 2012
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  • My mother had 3 kids, 1 boy and 2 girls. She kept my older brother and baby sister. She didn't want me... I don't know why. She would visit once in a while then one day she gave up and I haven't seen her since. As I got older I asked my dad about her.. she was a drunk, she is a drunk. My older brother, he's in jail. My baby sister I don't know where she is.. me, I'm 18 now and have a 18 month old son. Just about done school got so many plans for life, for my son's life. One of my plans, make sure my son knows I LOVE him every single day of his life! and other babies I plan on having latter on in life make sure they know I LOVE them and no matter what I'll always be there!! Yeah, I'm 18 but being a mommy, having my little boy smile and laugh and to look at me with his big brown eyes and call me mama. I know I was meant to be a mama. I have a chance to give my baby what I never had. a mama... and I wouldn't give up being a mama for anything in the world!

    Melissa St.Germaine Submitted Feb 2012
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  • Hi! My mom disappeared for almost 12 years. I love this poem because I can relate with that story. I have a also a younger brother. we stayed at our grandparent's hometown. At first I know the feeling of being abandon, getting angry, getting envy with other girls who have their mother on their side. But as I grew up I realized that I should accept what happen and I believe that God is doing this because he know very well that I am strong and can handle this things. He knows I can surpass everything. I am very much thankful that my grandparents were there to love and support me. But when they passed away one by one. Again the feeling of being alone and lonely is eating my whole system... angry is starting and there also a time that I ask God. God do you really think I can handle this? Do you think that I can already stand on my own? I'm not that brave I'm so scared I need my love ones beside me... after a year my mom contact me at facebook God really knows what is best for us... he knows when is the time that you need him. I forgive my mother and understand her. The truth is I love her that's why I accept her. Everybody deserve a second chance. God bless us

    Deniece Submitted Feb 2012
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  • I was adopted at age two to a woman who thought she couldn't have children. 2 and a half years later she did have a child a girl and I was a passing thought. I was physically, verbally and sexually abuse by my adopted father and the ''stepfather'' she married, a horrific torturous childhood. I yearned to know my mother who I was told left me alone at home in a tub to drown, and that I was starving. I continually ran away from home to try and escape the abuse, but no one believed me. Because of the life I ran to I would go on to lose 2 children a boy, and a girl at about the same age as when I had been adopted, finally leaving an abusive lifestyle to raise my 3rd child, I met my birth mother and shared a brief reunion of 10 years with dismaying results. Instead of her trying to make up to me she used me and said things to hurt me more, like "I wish I'd never met you"....when she found out about my tainted past....instead of the words..."Honey I am sorry." I talked to my birth father 1 time to have him agree to meet me, afterward changing his number to never be spoken to again.

    Michelle, Pennsylvania Submitted Feb 2012
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  • I completely relate to this poem. My mother abandoned us as well. I was 15. My brothers were 17, 8 & 6 and my sister was 4. I was left to raise my little brothers and sister. I was forced to be their parent at a young age. I am now 31 with a son of my own. I survived by not thinking about her. My priorities were my brothers and sister. I took care of them. I was the only one they had. I Fed them, put a roof over their heads, took care of them when they were sick scared sad, helped them with homework, celebrated their birthdays, Christmas, Easter, etc.. tried to give them a normal life as much as I could. I have a son of my own now and He is my number one priority. I love him so much I can't imagine not being there for him. I would never abandon him. It hurts thinking about how much we've missed out on. Not having a mother, father, aunt, uncle, grandparents. It was just me and my siblings. I've never had the opportunity to heal because I was busy trying to be strong for everyone else.

    Steph Submitted Feb 2012
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  • Thank you for this poem. My mom ran away when I was barely a year old, she couldn't handle motherhood. She left my dad to take care of a baby on his own. She came back a few years later and tried to be a part of my life again but it was hard she lived in the next state over. So my dad would meet her half way so I could spend a weekend with her maybe once a month, usually I just went to her parents house, an hour drive from our house, so I'd at least be part of that family. She died when I was 13. It was hard; my siblings had their mom and my dad, and I barely knew my mom. I'm 27 now, I've done great things, I graduated college, I'm a twice deployed vet of the us army, I was a welding instructor in Iraq for a year and taught over 150 students. She missed all of that, it's her loss. I owe her nothing, I honor her as my birth mother and that's it. I love her family and they miss her greatly. I don't hate her for what she did, but its very hard to respect her memory after that.

    Joe, Tacoma Submitted Mar 2012
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  • I realized very young that my mom really didn't want me around. She had her boy and girl and I was just in the way of her perfect life. She wouldn't leave me no she got with lots of men and she let them hit me with whatever they wanted. I remember at a young age of 7 trying to hang myself off a bunk bed. I was around 10 when I told my mom what her dad did and she stuck me behind a couch for 3 days and wouldn't let me go to school because she was scared I would talk. So sometimes you have to wander if it isn't a blessing that they leave. A blessing from God. For some reason God kept me alive after 4 suicide attempts and 2 times I've died. I wish I didn't suffer from manic depression but the things she put me through I wish she would have left.

    Princeton Submitted Mar 2012
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  • This poem says everything. I don't know what is worse, having one in your life that everything is about her and no one else or not having one around at all. My mother was there but she was never a mom. My father was very ill and did what he could but my older sisters and I had us and that was it. I am truly blessed for them, but it will never be the same as having your mom to turn to. I look at my children and I can not figure out how someone could not want to be a part of them.. you listen to her and she should get the Mother of the year award but we know the truth.

    Donna, Melrose Submitted Mar 2012
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  • I know what you are feeling. My mother never left me, but she got her children taken away from her. My father passed away when I was 1 1/2 year old, but this is funny thing, my mother could had her children back but she just decided to go on he own way I guess. Now I only live a mile away from her, and she doesn't even come over, or call to see how I am doing. Once she changed her cell phone number and I didn't know until someone else told me. Now what kind of a mother would do that.

    Midale Submitted Mar 2012
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  • Hello! I am 15 years old the baby of 8 kids of my mom's but I have 12 other brother's and sister's from my dad! My mother left my brothers and sisters and I when I was 13 months. One of my brothers passed away. We all were split up and went to foster cares. My mom has a drug addiction and goes to bars. My family are all bikes my moms dad (my grandfather) is a part of Hell's Angles (Outlaws gang) sad thing is she lives in Sandusky Ohio like a 15 to 20 min drive away from me. I got to meet her when I was 8 years old and then she looked at my dad and said I wish I would have never ran in to you guys and then she has been in and out of our life every since then and on my last birthday in Oct. 8 2011 she looked at me and said you were the last child born it's all your fault and I have not seen her since then or talked to her. There is a lot more but I don't feel like typing it out thanks for your time.

    Destiny, Milan OH Submitted Mar 2012
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  • I can totally relate to this. My mom and dad had a one night stand and my mom got pregnant with me by accident. I always had a feeling that my mom didn't really want me because she left me with her mother a lot of the time and I felt like I was an extra thing she had to take care of. When I was old enough to stay home on my own she was never around, always at work or partying. She could go weeks without coming home and that always made me feel sad. Through the years when I went to school or somewhere public I always saw kids with their mothers, laughing and having a good time. I always wondered what I did wrong. Now me being twenty nine I realized that my mom never cared about me, she didn't even want me in the first place.

    Lundlehenderson, Michigan Submitted Apr 2012
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  • This had me tearing up the whole way through. So touching and worded so well. You have a true talent. My mom left when I was thirteen after my father passed away to be with another man. She was never really caring in the first place though. It just sucks to think of all the moments I will never have.

    Va Submitted May 2012
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  • My Mother had me at 15. a year after, she soon became addicted to drugs and sleeping with every guy she saw. I would run the streets with her, or she would drop me off at her friends house or my grandmas house but majority of the time, I was right there with her. I would watch her cook meth, have sex with guys.. I was in the same bed when she got raped. I have seen a lot of terrible things that is my actual life and another persons nightmare... at age 9 I got taken away from social services. It was only a matter of time before I began to feel sad, depressed and angry. I went from foster home to foster home. I didn't meet my dad until I was 11. Today, I am about to graduate high school, the first in my family. I don't have kids. I don't do drugs. I am the opposite of everyone in my family. Both of my parents are in jail. I have no contact with them. Dad is in prison for attempted murder. Mom for petty theft, narcotics, and burglary. I can say I feel your pain somewhat.

    Maranda, Oregon Submitted May 2012
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  • This is absolutely beautiful. A lot of emotions came up when I read this. My mother left me and my sister last year, when she was 10 and I was 12. She lived in Omaha, and now Arizona. I barely talk to her ever. The fact that she abandoned me still affects my relationships with others. It's really hard to let go of. Again, this is amazing.

    Madison, Oregon Submitted Jul 2012
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  • I was abandoned when I was 4. She left with another man she met online and my dad and his family cared for me. My father remarried and his wife "my mom" raised me and made me the person I am now. I don't have hatred in my heart towards her. She actually did a favor to us. I have the most wonderful parents a person could hope for. I was raised with love and values and I was always a very important part of my family. I could sit and cry for what happened to me, but I decided I was going to look at the positive side and think of what my life would have been like if I was never abandoned and I thank God I don't have that life now. The person who abandoned me is irresponsible, unreliable, enjoys telling lies, can't keep a job, is dishonest, cares only about herself. I can honestly say my mother ( my father's wife) is the best. I am blessed!

    Seattle Submitted Aug 2012
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  • I simply love this poem, I can relate to it in every single way possible, I also have a brother but we were separated he's adopted by another family. I live with my grandmother. This poem really touched me and I would like to speak to the person who wrote this poem, I will be highly appreciated if you get a hold of me. Thanks!

    Elisha, South Africa, Kwazulunatal Submitted Oct 2012
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  • I was seventeen when I had my daughter and nineteen years old when I had my son. It was never my intentions to abandon my children. I was unable to care for them, I had no job and no High School Diploma. I was dependent on their father who after the birth of my son did not want me in his life anymore he was real abusive to me it took me years to get over that abusive relationship but I finally did. I had no choice at the time but to give my daughter to my father and my son was raised by my aunt. It was suppose to be when I was able to care for them I could get them back. I tried many times my aunt and father would throw a fit every time I wanted my children back. I did not want to have the children hate me so I did not fight. Now my children want nothing to do with me. I have never done drugs beat my children or was abusive to them. Now I have a good job and College Degree it is to late for me to take them now they are all grown up and they resent me.

    Angela Submitted Oct 2012
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  • Man, same here. I guess there are a lot of us out there. I am the eldest of 3. My mom left us when I was 12 my sister was 10 and my brother was 8.
    I'm 29 now with a young child of my own. I don't think I'll ever get over it.

    Sarah, Virginia Submitted Nov 2012
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  • My story is a bit different than the others. I am 53 years old, and after intense therapy I have finally been able to accept that my mother hates me. One of the incidents took place about 6 years ago, as she had my inheritance from her father put into her account- for my ''own good'' she said. The most recent comes from my fathers death. I am so grateful I was able to care for him till the end- The problem was two horrible phone calls, mom and sister. They took turns trying to bully me, as I was in the way of their plans to take over daddys cabin. Even though everything of his was to be split between sister and I, it didn't matter. Even them knowing my car wasn't running and I hadn't a place to live. What I can say is by the grace of god, Dad had his will revised. This will gave me the power to keep my sister from putting dad inpatient to die. Also allowing me to reside in cabin forever.

    Candie Submitted Nov 2012
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  • I was abandoned by my mother when I was 12 and actually she left 10 of us with my dad. I am a grown woman now and I also wrote a book about it. All the pain still hurts soo much. My book is called " A Father's Love" by Ruthie Hernandez. you can find it on Amazon or in book stores. For any child that was abandoned I have been told that my book has helped them heal. My heart has forgiven but my tears are still there. Even now soo many years later I am still hurting. Ruthie Sendejas

    Galveston Texas Submitted Dec 2012
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  • Your poem speaks volumes to me as a step-parent watching my stepson spiral through depression because his biological mom abandoned him when he was a baby. I always knew he thought about her in some capacity but recently his feelings toward the situation have increased and your poem has given me some insight into how he could be feeling too. Thank you and I'm sorry you had to go through this. You seem like a pretty amazing kid! :)

    Mo, Maine Submitted Dec 2012
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  • To put my feelings into words, is this beautiful poem!
    My mother left my brother (18 months) and I (6 years) with our wonderful father to raise us. She disappeared completely for 18 years, nothing at all! I was broken when she left, as she was a very attentive mother. I don't know what went wrong!?! I am 24 now with 3 amazing children and the pain and anger has increased! As I now know what it feels to a parent, I would go to the ends of the earth for them and I love the so much I could self combust!! I am more confused now than I have ever been!?! This poem has helped a great deal, thank you x

    Laura, England Submitted Jan 2013
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  • Hello everyone, I am the author of this poem.

    I just recently published my own book if anyone is interested.

    I wrote this poem when I was fourteen and I am now twenty years old. I have reconnected with my mother, believe it or not. My scars will always be there but it is a refreshing feeling when I can look to the future with the past well behind me.

    Thank you all for your nice comments.

    Katarina Submitted Jan 2013
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  • My mother was a drug addict that had different men in and out of our lives. Even if she was there in person, she was so high her mind was gone. She ultimately ended up going to prison and leaving me on my own. My younger siblings ended up in custody of our grandparents, but I lived on the streets, I was barely a teenager at the time. I'm grown with a family of my own now, and I now have a relationship with my mother who is out of prison. We take it day by day as some wounds are deeper than others. I love her to death, I have gone through every emotion and feeling expressed in the poem.

    Letitia, Oklahoma Submitted 5/11/2013
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  • Wow! That's all I can say. My mom didn't leave, but she wasn't there so parts of your poem really hit home. Beautiful, but yet so sad.

    Vickie Submitted 5/12/2013
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  • This poem sums up all my feelings, I can totally relate to it. It is very sad but so very true. I think I may send a copy to my mum across the other side of the world. Maybe she will read it and have the smallest of inkling of what she has done to me, however I doubt it very much as she is far too selfish to even acknowledge what she's done and the pain she has caused.

    Whenever I feel sad, angry or lonely I will read this poem as I've wasted far too many tears and sad times over not having my mum. I will share this poem with my husband and children instead of getting tearful or angry.

    It's very difficult for people to understand how having a mum who leaves makes a person feel or react to situations. This poem on this site is very helpful to people who have experienced maternal abandonment. It is helpful to hear that people share these feelings, as I know of no other person who has had their mother leave them. All of my friends have amazing caring mums.

    Mel, Somerset, Uk Submitted 6/18/2013
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  • I was born in Haiti, to tell you the truth I don't remember having a mother nor a mom, But I do remember having a dad for a whole, And believe me when I tell you that it was really worthless, anyway to make a long story my mom left me, my dad was a drunk and my mom is a lie, now the curse passes on me. I have two gorgeous young man that don't really want anything to do with me because of my sorry life.

    Dina Falaise Submitted 6/27/2013
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  • Hi, I don't know to say this... It's not easy. My mom left me and my brother when I was 6 and my older brother was 11 at the time. She left us with no food and in huge debt. My father who can't raise us on his own has to leave us in the province with other people. And since then our life has been like that. Transferring from one house to another until I reached 14. She suddenly decided that she wanted to take care of us, problem is it was too late. We were so used to without her around, later on we on we got separated again.
    I promised myself that I will never become like her so I studied hard, graduated high school as top of my class and luckily although I didn't go to college I landed a decent job. I worked hard and managed to succeed. I live in my own house and studied while working. And now that she saw how well off I am she decided to live with me because she said she wanted to take care of me. Full of BS!!!! I hate her and I don't know if there's anything she can do to change that.

    Clover, Philippines Submitted 7/26/2013
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  • This made me cry! My mom left me and my sister when I was 2 everybody hated me and told me I was the reason she left. My sister always told me I should have been an abortion you could look in here eyes and see that she truly meant it, she hated me for 12 years of my life I am currently 13. I have exactly two friends and my step mother hates me. My dad does whatever she says so I know now that I'm not truly welcome, people tell me that I don't know what pain is and to get over it. They call me names and push me down stairs and beat me. People tell me I have a lot to live for but I know they are just trying to be nice because I already know the truth they try to hide so cleverly I have nothing to live for yet I go throughout every day praying something good will happen. Yet it never does so if a mother ever reads this. Please I beg of you stay with your children keep them safe and love them because mine never did.

    Amanda, Shelby Ohio Submitted 7/26/2013
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  • My mom left me when I was four. I thought about her every day waiting, waiting, and waiting and then some more. I'm thirty nine now and I thought I was over that. I was recently in a relationship and I noticed that I was acting like a little boy. I had not noticed it until that moment. But this women triggered some emotional wounds that I had put away in the closet as a child. The relationship with this woman ended, and I take the blame for that. I realize now that sometimes people come into our lives for a moment to show us something we never knew about ourselves. I'm glad I met this woman because otherwise I would have probably never noticed this about myself. I found myself reliving all the pain I felt as a child, my heart was hurting like crazy. Only then did I realize it wasn't about the relationship. It was about my mother and the pain I had locked away for many years. I'm going to get help to understand how I can get better in order to have the chance at a normal relationship without these issues coming back to haunt the relationship. I think the only way to get better is to be able to identify the problem, catch myself in the moment and correct the mistake.

    Neo Submitted 7/27/2013
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  • I am 51. My mother left us when I was five, my sister was ten and my brother was eight. She ran off with my father's best friend. He also had a family. He left his kids and his wife to be with my mother. She had been unfaithful at least once before with my dad's only brother. We didn't see her for around seven years. After that she tried to arrange small visits and we tried to forge some sort of relationship. Her husband is very overbearing and thinks we should just accept him as a family member. I wanted to just arrange some one-on-one time because I live the closest but he would never allow it. So many years have gone by and I decided to just end it. I don't feel any love or connection to her like my older siblings. Thinking about her gives me eye twitches and makes my eczema flare up. My only problem is that my siblings think I am being too harsh. I empathize with the writer of this poem.

    Karen Illinois Submitted 7/29/2013
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  • No one seems to understand why I get upset over little things. I think its because I'm upset all the time if that makes sense? I never got over it when my mum chose that some things were more important than her daughters. It has made me see teenage problems almost in a pathetic way. I miss having a mum to be honest. Especially now that I am a teenager. This poem has me crying. At least someone understands, thanks.

    Angharad, Wales Submitted 2/3/2014
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  • My girlfriend and I been together for 10 years. We had a great relationship, never argued or fought. We now have a 2 year old daughter and weeks after our 10 year anniversary she walks out on us. I'm hurt because I love her and don't understand what happened bust most of all I'm hurt for my daughter. Her mom rarely calls to talk to her because she says it's disrespectfully to the other man. How do I explained to my daughter that it's not her fault and what do I say when she asks about her.

    Nick, Louisiana Submitted 2/9/2014
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  • Hi everybody.
    I read most of stories, then I cried and I could not stop. I wish I met you all and hug you. I want to tell you are strong and you deserve beautiful and better life. May Allah make all of you happy, strong and better moms and dads. Thank you for these stories

    Malika Submitted 2/22/2014
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  • My mom left me and my brother when I was 13 for drugs and another man. My dad was never really there for us either and left us earlier that year. I'm almost 18 now and have all of this anger and hate built up. This poem touched me, thank you.

    Jordan Submitted 2/23/2014
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