My Feelings To You

• by Minnie
• 10 months ago

I know this poem was submitted years ago, but I hope you are okay and doing well. I see myself in you. Even though my mother stays with us, I feel abandoned. I know it's not quite the same. You are my hope that one day I'll be over it. Even with some ache in my heart I will accept it. Thank you for this. Thank you for being so brave. I don't know you, but I'm so proud of you, so very proud of you.

• by Jeorgia C. Byrd, wasco, cali
• 4 years ago

I know this was submitted in 2007 and we're now in 2019, but I hope the writer reads this. Oh my gosh, I was bawling like a baby. You are talented. I'm sorry about the pain you have been through. I can definitely feel it in your words. Man, how strong the feelings you share, and I thank you for sharing them. God bless you and your brother/son in all ya'll do, and always remember you are amazing.

• by Alyssa
• 5 years ago

My mom abandoned my brother and me. When I was only 11 and my brother was only 10, I took care of him and my little niece and nephew when my mom went out and did her drugs. She'd tell me every day that it's my fault if she dies. She tells me that I'm a slut and all these names and that I'm the one who's going to have a baby at 15. Right now I'm 15 and I'm not having a baby. I was homeless when my mom left, and my sisters took my brother in. My dad came 8 hours to just pick me up to have a better life. Now I’m proving everyone wrong and having a 3.8 GPA and loving life. Yes, I still make mistakes, but I learn from my mistakes and keep moving forward. I hate my mom so much that I can't even explain. She has hurt me. I love this poem so much and can relate to it.

• by Catlyn Hollis
• 6 years ago

I understand what you are going through. I have been there. I have three brothers who live with her. I now live with my dad and have been for the last 5 years. Sometimes it’s hard, but sometimes you’re okay with it but you still hurt, and I still do. I will never understand why she did it. But my heart will always have an emptiness. I have a step-mother whom I call my real mother because she has watched me grow since I was 2 years old, and she has been my mother from then. Five years ago was when she actually became my mother because she took me under her wing and didn’t care what people thought about us. She loved me for who I am, and that’s why I love her so much.

• by Kathleen
• 6 years ago

My parents also had me when they were still in school. I don't understand what happened, but my dad hasn't said anything about their break up. According to granny, my mum left me when I was one week old. I never took breast milk. She never showed up till I was 8, but my family never allowed her to meet me due to what she did. Now I'm 20, and I miss the feeling of having mother. How I wish I could talk to her about my problems as my friends do with their mums. I want to go to her, but I don't know how to tell my dad I want to go and visit her.

• by Azola
• 7 years ago

My parents had me when they were still at school. They were never married. My mother left me with my father's family when I was a couple of months old. I have a stepmother who never liked me. When I was eighteen I tried to build a relationship with my mother but I could tell she was not interested. Now I'm 24. She still doesn't want me and I have given up. I really didn't care anymore what happened because they both have their different sides of the story. All I wanted was a relationship with my mother just like any girl. Had I had that, I probably would not have made so many mistakes in my life, but she doesn't seem to care.

• by Kara Arnold
• 7 years ago

I love my mom. I've supported her and the opinions and decisions she's made! At 16 I've come to need my mom a lot, but I feel like she doesn't want anything to do with me. It makes sense because I was a one night stand baby girl. She didn't plan me like she did my little brother. She never tries to understand or listen to me, and it's depressing, especially when over the years I've gained weight. I'm not so outgoing or confident about myself and my body. And her mean words or acts she has towards me don't help but make me feel alone, a mistake, one night stand, a nothing.

• by Victoria
• 7 years ago

My mother had a brain injury six weeks after I was born. I had three older siblings. I was put in an orphanage and came home at the age of three. Mum was confined to a wheelchair and was allowed home weekends at first. I will never forget the day all the hate started. She started screaming and pointed at me saying 'she was the cause of this. If she hadn't been born I wouldn't be stuck in this chair. She is an evil bitch'. My siblings had that drummed into them. They hated me. All I wanted was to please them and please my mum and make her happy. It never worked. She would wheel past me, then suddenly turn and grab my hair and pull me to her, smashing at my face and dragging my head to the wall. I eventually managed to be able to numb out the pain and surrender to her. It made her better and more placid for a while at least. Until another day when it would start over again. I feel I was strong for years yet now at the age of 51 it affects me. Why now?

• by Dalayna Lewis
• 7 years ago

This poem made my cry from the very beginning, this poem hit a soft spot. This happened to me at the age of ten, she left me for drugs, and I have never forgave her for it. I don't talk to her to this day, she talks to my little brother every night and, I refuse to. I will never forgive her for wronging me in such a way and, in no way shall I ever forgive her.

• by Brandiboyer86
• 7 years ago

Wow! You have no idea how much this poem hit home for me. see I am a mother, a mother of 3..I have made so many bad choices in life and now my mother and father have adopted my kids. It hurts so bad to know I could have done something about it and didn't because I choose the wrong roads to go down. I am praying that soon I can be back in their life.

• by Lovely Me
• 8 years ago

I was abandoned by my mother when I was only six weeks old, even though I had normal childhood because I grew up with my grandma, the rejection I felt from my parents damaged me more than anything. I'm 26 and haven't seen my mum yet, and I'm not having a great relationship with my dad. I haven't received any answers and they make it out like everything is perfect but deep inside I'm dying but the worst thing is I am not sure if want to hear their side of the story.

• by Erica Flores, Tx
• 8 years ago

My mother left me a couple of weeks before my 15th birthday. The Saturday night before she left she told me "I will always love you and I promise I will never leave you" and she gave me her necklace she got from her mother before her mother died. And told me to go to sleep. That Sunday morning my father woke me up telling me "wake up your mom is leaving us" my father had tears running down his face and I ran outside and tried to block the passenger door of the man picking her up from our home, my mother let one single tear run down her face and she pushed me into some bushes so she could hurry and leave before she could break down. I threw my phone at the back windshield and shattered the mans window. I sat in the street for what felt like forever crying and screaming for my mother to come back and I went into a deep depression to the point of not wanting to talk to anyone or eat. I'm almost 17 and I still have flashbacks of that day and this poem explains my feelings so perfectly.

• by Sierra
• 8 years ago

I can relate to the feelings of the poem all too well. My mom left me and my twin brother on the doorstep of my grandmas house when we where 3 weeks old. 17 years later and I'm still so hurt. I have so much anger and confusion and this poem really got me to me. I couldn' t even finish reading it without balling my eyes out. I tell people all the time that I'm ok and I don't care. But deep down it hurts me more everyday. I try reaching out to her but she doesn't want to be in our lives. She goes years without talking to us. I have not even seen this lady in about 11 years and the only time she messages me is to say happy birthday. This poem was great.

• by Stephanie, Connecticut
• 9 years ago

This is a beautiful poem you've written and I am currently facing the same issues. Stay strong xo

• by Lilly
• 9 years ago

This poem really hit home, it truly is hard growing up without a mom to do all of the things a mom should do. My mom left me when I was 3, and around the age of 12 she turned up again as if nothing ever happened. The thing that hurt me most I guess was the fact that she made sure to stay in close contact with my brothers and sister, but never me. After a couple months she disappeared yet again. Soon after I moved town with my dad, and my step mother moved in. Now my step mother isn't the nicest person you'll ever meet, she worshipped my little siblings, but hated me. She would constantly blame me for things I didn't do and insist I was a liar. Thankfully she left after a few months, but I couldn't help but wonder if maybe it's not my 'mothers' maybe it's me, maybe I'm doing something wrong. About 4 years later, my real mom turned up again, with no explanation as to why she left. Deep down I'm still angry with her but I've been so desperate for a mothers love and care that I just went with it. I'm still sort of in contact with my real mom, but she goes without talking to me for days, even weeks at a time. I'm 16 now and I seem perfectly happy on the outside, but like you behind my smiles is a deep longing for my mom. Someone to talk about boys with, do nails with, to nurture me whilst I'm sick, to help me pick out a dress for a dance, someone to just love me.

• by Adam Buck, Wisconsin
• 9 years ago

My mom and dad were both great parents till I was about 9 years old now I'm 14 and live with my aunt and uncle. At around the age of nine I started to realize something was changing with my parents. It was like they got more tired more crabby and just got angrier faster. At the time I thought their body's were just changing being nine I thought that was normal I didn't know that drugs affected you like that. There was a lot of fighting going on at the time and the police were even called a few times. At around the age of 11 my dad got arrested I gave him a hug and he just kind of shoved me off. I started crying even more than I already was. My mom just kind of left us on and off and finally they let us go to our aunt and uncles that didn't last long. Parents took us back at Christmas time. I lost weeks of school my mom taught me how to steal and I started smoking at 12 years old. We stayed at hotels with barely enough money to pay to stay there and we had to steal food all because my mom and dad were doing cocaine and meth. Then we moved into a AAA house we got going then my mom leaves again I keep the family alive by stealing food and any thing that was worth money I got so good I walked out of stores with 1000$ (not happy about that) of stuff. Then eventually we go back to our aunt and uncle I also have two siblings that this happened to one is 11 and the other is 7. It looked like out parents were doing stuff to get us back it was getting good I was getting my hopes up and they crushed my mom relapsed and my dad just stopped talking to people that could help get us back so as it is right now it looks like we're going to get adopted by our aunt and uncle. In their house 13-14 I chewed tobacco I got caught and now have quit I wish my parents could do the same thing.

Thanks for reading my story,
Adam Buck

• by Rose, Melbourne
• 9 years ago

It's amazing how little is ever spoken about the effects from being abandoned by a parent can still be felt well into our adult lives and I mean truly FELT as raw as if it happened yesterday. Tears rolled down my eyes as I read your poem from start to finish.
My mum left us when I was 9, I am now 30 and my pain hasn't weakened, however I have found that I am really good at pretending that I am happy and everything is ok, which is crap.
People say things like, get help to get over it but there is no help or be strong, please believe that when you're 9 years old waking up every morning not knowing why your mum decided to piss off and still get up, get dressed put that fake smile on and go to school, that is being strong, having an empty black pit for a heart and still drawing breath is being strong.
It's a child's right as a human being to be loved and cared for.
I have my own children, 3 beautiful strong and healthy boys, and there isn't anything in this world that could ever make me leave them and I never will.
BTW she returned 2 years later, at the time I was relieved. However after years of getting no explanation/ownership or apology from her or my dad nothing has been resolved, no wonder kids grow up thinking they're worthless.

• by Camilla
• 9 years ago

Greetings,
I have been on a quest to heal my emotional wounds for about 10 years. I'm 38 now and definitely in a better state of mind than 10 years ago. I'm a work in progress. There is light at the end of the tunnel but you have to keep driving. My father was absent from my life from the age of 6 and never made an effort to reach out to me and never helped our mother financially. My oldest sister lived with our dad in a different state and my middle sister and I lived with our mother. We rarely kept in touch with our oldest sister or dad. Life with our mother was awful; we always lived in rat and cockroach infested studios, watched a parade of man come and go, experienced abuse from some of the men in our mother's life, never received a hug from her and experienced total neglect. She never invested a penny in us, we lived in her space. She now travels the world completely guilt free while we continue to work on healing our wounds. Thank you for the poem!

• by Jordan
• 10 years ago

My mom left me and my brother when I was 13 for drugs and another man. My dad was never really there for us either and left us earlier that year. I'm almost 18 now and have all of this anger and hate built up. This poem touched me, thank you.

• by Malika
• 10 years ago

Hi everybody.
I read most of stories, then I cried and I could not stop. I wish I met you all and hug you. I want to tell you are strong and you deserve beautiful and better life. May Allah make all of you happy, strong and better moms and dads. Thank you for these stories

• by Nick, Louisiana
• 10 years ago

My girlfriend and I been together for 10 years. We had a great relationship, never argued or fought. We now have a 2 year old daughter and weeks after our 10 year anniversary she walks out on us. I'm hurt because I love her and don't understand what happened bust most of all I'm hurt for my daughter. Her mom rarely calls to talk to her because she says it's disrespectfully to the other man. How do I explained to my daughter that it's not her fault and what do I say when she asks about her.

• by Angharad, UK
• 10 years ago

No one seems to understand why I get upset over little things. I think its because I'm upset all the time if that makes sense? I never got over it when my mum chose that some things were more important than her daughters. It has made me see teenage problems almost in a pathetic way. I miss having a mum to be honest. Especially now that I am a teenager. This poem has me crying. At least someone understands, thanks.

• by Susan, Australia
• 10 years ago

I was adopted when I was 3 months old, so I have no idea if I have any siblings. I know my mum probably had a good reason for giving me up, but I sometimes feel all these emotions. This is so honest and I'm glad so many people can relate because there aren't exactly any songs written about this. I was adopted into a good family, but I think I will always have mum issues. I love my mum, but I can't bring myself to trust her, as even though we have good times, she always flies off the handle for no good reason, or gets ridiculously drunk. It's gotten to the point where I trust my friends mothers more than mine, and even the slightest "betrayal" of my trust will make her upset. Thank you for writing this, it really sums it up perfectly for anyone with mum issues. I'm 15 now and I still struggle with my adoption. I'm glad to know there are others who can relate to me :)

• by Karen Illinois
• 10 years ago

I am 51. My mother left us when I was five, my sister was ten and my brother was eight. She ran off with my father's best friend. He also had a family. He left his kids and his wife to be with my mother. She had been unfaithful at least once before with my dad's only brother. We didn't see her for around seven years. After that she tried to arrange small visits and we tried to forge some sort of relationship. Her husband is very overbearing and thinks we should just accept him as a family member. I wanted to just arrange some one-on-one time because I live the closest but he would never allow it. So many years have gone by and I decided to just end it. I don't feel any love or connection to her like my older siblings. Thinking about her gives me eye twitches and makes my eczema flare up. My only problem is that my siblings think I am being too harsh. I empathize with the writer of this poem.

• by Neo
• 10 years ago

My mom left me when I was four. I thought about her every day waiting, waiting, and waiting and then some more. I'm thirty nine now and I thought I was over that. I was recently in a relationship and I noticed that I was acting like a little boy. I had not noticed it until that moment. But this women triggered some emotional wounds that I had put away in the closet as a child. The relationship with this woman ended, and I take the blame for that. I realize now that sometimes people come into our lives for a moment to show us something we never knew about ourselves. I'm glad I met this woman because otherwise I would have probably never noticed this about myself. I found myself reliving all the pain I felt as a child, my heart was hurting like crazy. Only then did I realize it wasn't about the relationship. It was about my mother and the pain I had locked away for many years. I'm going to get help to understand how I can get better in order to have the chance at a normal relationship without these issues coming back to haunt the relationship. I think the only way to get better is to be able to identify the problem, catch myself in the moment and correct the mistake.

• by Amanda, Shelby Ohio
• 10 years ago

This made me cry! My mom left me and my sister when I was 2 everybody hated me and told me I was the reason she left. My sister always told me I should have been an abortion you could look in here eyes and see that she truly meant it, she hated me for 12 years of my life I am currently 13. I have exactly two friends and my step mother hates me. My dad does whatever she says so I know now that I'm not truly welcome, people tell me that I don't know what pain is and to get over it. They call me names and push me down stairs and beat me. People tell me I have a lot to live for but I know they are just trying to be nice because I already know the truth they try to hide so cleverly I have nothing to live for yet I go throughout every day praying something good will happen. Yet it never does so if a mother ever reads this. Please I beg of you stay with your children keep them safe and love them because mine never did.

• by Clover, Philippines
• 10 years ago

Hi, I don't know to say this... It's not easy. My mom left me and my brother when I was 6 and my older brother was 11 at the time. She left us with no food and in huge debt. My father who can't raise us on his own has to leave us in the province with other people. And since then our life has been like that. Transferring from one house to another until I reached 14. She suddenly decided that she wanted to take care of us, problem is it was too late. We were so used to without her around, later on we on we got separated again.
I promised myself that I will never become like her so I studied hard, graduated high school as top of my class and luckily although I didn't go to college I landed a decent job. I worked hard and managed to succeed. I live in my own house and studied while working. And now that she saw how well off I am she decided to live with me because she said she wanted to take care of me. Full of BS!!!! I hate her and I don't know if there's anything she can do to change that.

• by Dina Falaise
• 10 years ago

I was born in Haiti, to tell you the truth I don't remember having a mother nor a mom, But I do remember having a dad for a whole, And believe me when I tell you that it was really worthless, anyway to make a long story my mom left me, my dad was a drunk and my mom is a lie, now the curse passes on me. I have two gorgeous young man that don't really want anything to do with me because of my sorry life.

• by Mel, Somerset
• 10 years ago

This poem sums up all my feelings, I can totally relate to it. It is very sad but so very true. I think I may send a copy to my mum across the other side of the world. Maybe she will read it and have the smallest of inkling of what she has done to me, however I doubt it very much as she is far too selfish to even acknowledge what she's done and the pain she has caused.

Whenever I feel sad, angry or lonely I will read this poem as I've wasted far too many tears and sad times over not having my mum. I will share this poem with my husband and children instead of getting tearful or angry.

It's very difficult for people to understand how having a mum who leaves makes a person feel or react to situations. This poem on this site is very helpful to people who have experienced maternal abandonment. It is helpful to hear that people share these feelings, as I know of no other person who has had their mother leave them. All of my friends have amazing caring mums.

• by Vickie
• 10 years ago

Wow! That's all I can say. My mom didn't leave, but she wasn't there so parts of your poem really hit home. Beautiful, but yet so sad.

• by Letitia, Oklahoma
• 10 years ago

My mother was a drug addict that had different men in and out of our lives. Even if she was there in person, she was so high her mind was gone. She ultimately ended up going to prison and leaving me on my own. My younger siblings ended up in custody of our grandparents, but I lived on the streets, I was barely a teenager at the time. I'm grown with a family of my own now, and I now have a relationship with my mother who is out of prison. We take it day by day as some wounds are deeper than others. I love her to death, I have gone through every emotion and feeling expressed in the poem.

• by Katarina
• 11 years ago

Hello everyone, I am the author of this poem.

I just recently published my own book if anyone is interested.

I wrote this poem when I was fourteen and I am now twenty years old. I have reconnected with my mother, believe it or not. My scars will always be there but it is a refreshing feeling when I can look to the future with the past well behind me.

Thank you all for your nice comments.

• by Laura, England
• 11 years ago

To put my feelings into words, is this beautiful poem!
My mother left my brother (18 months) and I (6 years) with our wonderful father to raise us. She disappeared completely for 18 years, nothing at all! I was broken when she left, as she was a very attentive mother. I don't know what went wrong!?! I am 24 now with 3 amazing children and the pain and anger has increased! As I now know what it feels to a parent, I would go to the ends of the earth for them and I love the so much I could self combust!! I am more confused now than I have ever been!?! This poem has helped a great deal, thank you x

• by Mo, Maine
• 11 years ago

Your poem speaks volumes to me as a step-parent watching my stepson spiral through depression because his biological mom abandoned him when he was a baby. I always knew he thought about her in some capacity but recently his feelings toward the situation have increased and your poem has given me some insight into how he could be feeling too. Thank you and I'm sorry you had to go through this. You seem like a pretty amazing kid! :)

• by Galveston Texas
• 11 years ago

I was abandoned by my mother when I was 12 and actually she left 10 of us with my dad. I am a grown woman now and I also wrote a book about it. All the pain still hurts soo much. My book is called " A Father's Love" by Ruthie Hernandez. you can find it on Amazon or in book stores. For any child that was abandoned I have been told that my book has helped them heal. My heart has forgiven but my tears are still there. Even now soo many years later I am still hurting. Ruthie Sendejas

• by Candie
• 11 years ago

My story is a bit different than the others. I am 53 years old, and after intense therapy I have finally been able to accept that my mother hates me. One of the incidents took place about 6 years ago, as she had my inheritance from her father put into her account- for my 'own good' she said. The most recent comes from my fathers death. I am so grateful I was able to care for him till the end- The problem was two horrible phone calls, mom and sister. They took turns trying to bully me, as I was in the way of their plans to take over daddys cabin. Even though everything of his was to be split between sister and I, it didn't matter. Even them knowing my car wasn't running and I hadn't a place to live. What I can say is by the grace of god, Dad had his will revised. This will gave me the power to keep my sister from putting dad inpatient to die. Also allowing me to reside in cabin forever.

• by Sarah, Virginia
• 11 years ago

Man, same here. I guess there are a lot of us out there. I am the eldest of 3. My mom left us when I was 12 my sister was 10 and my brother was 8.
I'm 29 now with a young child of my own. I don't think I'll ever get over it.

• by Angela
• 11 years ago

I was seventeen when I had my daughter and nineteen years old when I had my son. It was never my intentions to abandon my children. I was unable to care for them, I had no job and no High School Diploma. I was dependent on their father who after the birth of my son did not want me in his life anymore he was real abusive to me it took me years to get over that abusive relationship but I finally did. I had no choice at the time but to give my daughter to my father and my son was raised by my aunt. It was suppose to be when I was able to care for them I could get them back. I tried many times my aunt and father would throw a fit every time I wanted my children back. I did not want to have the children hate me so I did not fight. Now my children want nothing to do with me. I have never done drugs beat my children or was abusive to them. Now I have a good job and College Degree it is to late for me to take them now they are all grown up and they resent me.

• by Elisha, South Africa
• 11 years ago

I simply love this poem, I can relate to it in every single way possible, I also have a brother but we were separated he's adopted by another family. I live with my grandmother. This poem really touched me and I would like to speak to the person who wrote this poem, I will be highly appreciated if you get a hold of me. Thanks!

• by Seattle
• 11 years ago

I was abandoned when I was 4. She left with another man she met online and my dad and his family cared for me. My father remarried and his wife "my mom" raised me and made me the person I am now. I don't have hatred in my heart towards her. She actually did a favor to us. I have the most wonderful parents a person could hope for. I was raised with love and values and I was always a very important part of my family. I could sit and cry for what happened to me, but I decided I was going to look at the positive side and think of what my life would have been like if I was never abandoned and I thank God I don't have that life now. The person who abandoned me is irresponsible, unreliable, enjoys telling lies, can't keep a job, is dishonest, cares only about herself. I can honestly say my mother ( my father's wife) is the best. I am blessed!

• by Madison, Oregon
• 11 years ago

This is absolutely beautiful. A lot of emotions came up when I read this. My mother left me and my sister last year, when she was 10 and I was 12. She lived in Omaha, and now Arizona. I barely talk to her ever. The fact that she abandoned me still affects my relationships with others. It's really hard to let go of. Again, this is amazing.

• by Maranda, Oregon
• 11 years ago

My Mother had me at 15. a year after, she soon became addicted to drugs and sleeping with every guy she saw. I would run the streets with her, or she would drop me off at her friends house or my grandmas house but majority of the time, I was right there with her. I would watch her cook meth, have sex with guys.. I was in the same bed when she got raped. I have seen a lot of terrible things that is my actual life and another persons nightmare... at age 9 I got taken away from social services. It was only a matter of time before I began to feel sad, depressed and angry. I went from foster home to foster home. I didn't meet my dad until I was 11. Today, I am about to graduate high school, the first in my family. I don't have kids. I don't do drugs. I am the opposite of everyone in my family. Both of my parents are in jail. I have no contact with them. Dad is in prison for attempted murder. Mom for petty theft, narcotics, and burglary. I can say I feel your pain somewhat.

• by Va
• 11 years ago

This had me tearing up the whole way through. So touching and worded so well. You have a true talent. My mom left when I was thirteen after my father passed away to be with another man. She was never really caring in the first place though. It just sucks to think of all the moments I will never have.

• by Lundlehenderson, Michigan
• 12 years ago

I can totally relate to this. My mom and dad had a one night stand and my mom got pregnant with me by accident. I always had a feeling that my mom didn't really want me because she left me with her mother a lot of the time and I felt like I was an extra thing she had to take care of. When I was old enough to stay home on my own she was never around, always at work or partying. She could go weeks without coming home and that always made me feel sad. Through the years when I went to school or somewhere public I always saw kids with their mothers, laughing and having a good time. I always wondered what I did wrong. Now me being twenty nine I realized that my mom never cared about me, she didn't even want me in the first place.

• by Destiny, Milan OH
• 12 years ago

Hello! I am 15 years old the baby of 8 kids of my mom's but I have 12 other brother's and sister's from my dad! My mother left my brothers and sisters and I when I was 13 months. One of my brothers passed away. We all were split up and went to foster cares. My mom has a drug addiction and goes to bars. My family are all bikes my moms dad (my grandfather) is a part of Hell's Angles (Outlaws gang) sad thing is she lives in Sandusky Ohio like a 15 to 20 min drive away from me. I got to meet her when I was 8 years old and then she looked at my dad and said I wish I would have never ran in to you guys and then she has been in and out of our life every since then and on my last birthday in Oct. 8 2011 she looked at me and said you were the last child born it's all your fault and I have not seen her since then or talked to her. There is a lot more but I don't feel like typing it out thanks for your time.

• by Midale
• 12 years ago

I know what you are feeling. My mother never left me, but she got her children taken away from her. My father passed away when I was 1 1/2 year old, but this is funny thing, my mother could had her children back but she just decided to go on he own way I guess. Now I only live a mile away from her, and she doesn't even come over, or call to see how I am doing. Once she changed her cell phone number and I didn't know until someone else told me. Now what kind of a mother would do that.

• by Donna, Melrose
• 12 years ago

This poem says everything. I don't know what is worse, having one in your life that everything is about her and no one else or not having one around at all. My mother was there but she was never a mom. My father was very ill and did what he could but my older sisters and I had us and that was it. I am truly blessed for them, but it will never be the same as having your mom to turn to. I look at my children and I can not figure out how someone could not want to be a part of them.. you listen to her and she should get the Mother of the year award but we know the truth.

• by Princeton
• 12 years ago

I realized very young that my mom really didn't want me around. She had her boy and girl and I was just in the way of her perfect life. She wouldn't leave me no she got with lots of men and she let them hit me with whatever they wanted. I remember at a young age of 7 trying to hang myself off a bunk bed. I was around 10 when I told my mom what her dad did and she stuck me behind a couch for 3 days and wouldn't let me go to school because she was scared I would talk. So sometimes you have to wander if it isn't a blessing that they leave. A blessing from God. For some reason God kept me alive after 4 suicide attempts and 2 times I've died. I wish I didn't suffer from manic depression but the things she put me through I wish she would have left.

• by Joe, Tacoma
• 12 years ago

Thank you for this poem. My mom ran away when I was barely a year old, she couldn't handle motherhood. She left my dad to take care of a baby on his own. She came back a few years later and tried to be a part of my life again but it was hard she lived in the next state over. So my dad would meet her half way so I could spend a weekend with her maybe once a month, usually I just went to her parents house, an hour drive from our house, so I'd at least be part of that family. She died when I was 13. It was hard; my siblings had their mom and my dad, and I barely knew my mom. I'm 27 now, I've done great things, I graduated college, I'm a twice deployed vet of the us army, I was a welding instructor in Iraq for a year and taught over 150 students. She missed all of that, it's her loss. I owe her nothing, I honor her as my birth mother and that's it. I love her family and they miss her greatly. I don't hate her for what she did, but its very hard to respect her memory after that.

• by Steph
• 12 years ago

I completely relate to this poem. My mother abandoned us as well. I was 15. My brothers were 17, 8 & 6 and my sister was 4. I was left to raise my little brothers and sister. I was forced to be their parent at a young age. I am now 31 with a son of my own. I survived by not thinking about her. My priorities were my brothers and sister. I took care of them. I was the only one they had. I Fed them, put a roof over their heads, took care of them when they were sick scared sad, helped them with homework, celebrated their birthdays, Christmas, Easter, etc.. tried to give them a normal life as much as I could. I have a son of my own now and He is my number one priority. I love him so much I can't imagine not being there for him. I would never abandon him. It hurts thinking about how much we've missed out on. Not having a mother, father, aunt, uncle, grandparents. It was just me and my siblings. I've never had the opportunity to heal because I was busy trying to be strong for everyone else.

• by Michelle Fuqua
• 12 years ago

I was adopted at age two to a woman who thought she couldn't have children. 2 and a half years later she did have a child a girl and I was a passing thought. I was physically, verbally and sexually abuse by my adopted father and the 'stepfather' she married, a horrific torturous childhood. I yearned to know my mother who I was told left me alone at home in a tub to drown, and that I was starving. I continually ran away from home to try and escape the abuse, but no one believed me. Because of the life I ran to I would go on to lose 2 children a boy, and a girl at about the same age as when I had been adopted, finally leaving an abusive lifestyle to raise my 3rd child, I met my birth mother and shared a brief reunion of 10 years with dismaying results. Instead of her trying to make up to me she used me and said things to hurt me more, like "I wish I'd never met you"....when she found out about my tainted past....instead of the words..."Honey I am sorry." I talked to my birth father 1 time to have him agree to meet me, afterward changing his number to never be spoken to again.

• by Deniece
• 12 years ago

Hi! My mom disappeared for almost 12 years. I love this poem because I can relate with that story. I have a also a younger brother. we stayed at our grandparent's hometown. At first I know the feeling of being abandon, getting angry, getting envy with other girls who have their mother on their side. But as I grew up I realized that I should accept what happen and I believe that God is doing this because he know very well that I am strong and can handle this things. He knows I can surpass everything. I am very much thankful that my grandparents were there to love and support me. But when they passed away one by one. Again the feeling of being alone and lonely is eating my whole system... angry is starting and there also a time that I ask God. God do you really think I can handle this? Do you think that I can already stand on my own? I'm not that brave I'm so scared I need my love ones beside me... after a year my mom contact me at facebook God really knows what is best for us... he knows when is the time that you need him. I forgive my mother and understand her. The truth is I love her that's why I accept her. Everybody deserve a second chance. God bless us

• by Melissa St.Germaine
• 12 years ago

My mother had 3 kids, 1 boy and 2 girls. She kept my older brother and baby sister. She didn't want me... I don't know why. She would visit once in a while then one day she gave up and I haven't seen her since. As I got older I asked my dad about her.. she was a drunk, she is a drunk. My older brother, he's in jail. My baby sister I don't know where she is.. me, I'm 18 now and have a 18 month old son. Just about done school got so many plans for life, for my son's life. One of my plans, make sure my son knows I LOVE him every single day of his life! and other babies I plan on having latter on in life make sure they know I LOVE them and no matter what I'll always be there!! Yeah, I'm 18 but being a mommy, having my little boy smile and laugh and to look at me with his big brown eyes and call me mama. I know I was meant to be a mama. I have a chance to give my baby what I never had. a mama... and I wouldn't give up being a mama for anything in the world!

• by Karli
• 12 years ago

I was 7 when my mom started to go out of my life. I'm 17 now and no one really understands around me. I try to explain but they never get it. I still tell myself I'm over it but it's a lie and it hurts to think about it.

• by Jade, North Carolina
• 12 years ago

I love this poem. I can honestly relate this to my dad. But instead of him leaving me, I left him. He was very abusive. So I got a restraining order on him at age 12. As you can see I matured very well. I tried not to cry, I tried not to pout. But now that I'm 13. I'm still blaming myself for what has happened, always beating myself up about it... It's very hard for me to not go a day with out wanting to hear his voice... I understand exactly how you feel...

• by Shanece Dampier
• 12 years ago

My mom left when I was young too. She had five of us, but she had me when she was 15. She chose to be on drugs and go through several different men. The way you feel about your mother in this poem, explains exactly how I felt about mine. This is a great poem.

• by Kalie, Lansing
• 12 years ago

I am 14 and my mom left me when I was three.....I am in contact though but I missed at least ten years with her... great poem...

• by Shelbi Crawford
• 13 years ago

My mom never wanted me. She left right after I was born and she was out of the hospital, gave me to my daddy and left, wasn't at my 1st bday nothing and now she wants to be my everything, but I hate her and she told me she didn't want me and I wish she never had me

• by Jazzlyn
• 13 years ago

Damn, didn't know so many people were effected by this..
My mom left when I was 3, I'm 15 now, and TIME DOES NOT HEAL, people try to get me to open up, some try to be a mom figure in my life. That's never gonna happen, she really messed up my life. This poem brought many emotions to me, they WILL NEVER GO AWAY... but she did..

• by Mel
• 13 years ago

WOW! what a awesome poem. it really touched me in a deep way. my mother left me and moved to a new country while my brother and I were with foster parents. 3 years later she came and won custody of us so we moved countries to be with her. 3 years later I was back in foster care but this time alone because my brother moved back to Germany with our dad only 2 years after being with my mum. I haven't spoken to him in 17 years...it's sad. I will never forgive her. Some people shouldn't have kids...

• by Kendra, Canonsburgh
• 13 years ago

Hi, I know what its like to not have your parents in your life but instead of not having one gone both of them were gone ..they're both drug addicts who have been in and out of prison ever since I was born ..they did have my sister up until recently but they were abusing her and are drug dealers still today. This past summer I got to meet them for the first time since I was a baby..and they both had assured me they were done with their old life and were clean, but my little sister told me otherwise ..before me mom had lost my brother, then me now she has lost my little sister. My question is how many children does she have to loose before she stops thinking of herself sometimes I wonder does she even love us at all ?
I had given her a second chance but she blew so I guess its her loss

• by Janie, Md
• 13 years ago

My mother abandoned me when I was 2 years old. So I understand the feeling a lot more than others would. What people don't realize is that it happens more often than we think. And it hurts. I don't even remember my mother leaving me, but it has a lasting effect on everything I do now.

• by Shelby
• 13 years ago

My mother didn't abandon me and my sister but she basically chose a man (which was my step father) over my sister and I. Something happened to me when I was 11 yrs old and my mother chose not to believe me and she decided to just stay with him. Thats what hurt me the most. So because of her making that decision, I was put into foster care for about a year and a half. To be honest, I'd rather have lived with my foster family than to go back with my so called mother and step father. Thankfully my father tried to get custody of me but for some reason they wouldn't let him at the time, so the only thing he could do was have somebody else in my family take me in, and that's when I went to go live with my aunt Linda. She took good care of me until a year later when my dad finally got full custody of me. You see, the funny thing is that my mother had several chances to leave him but she never would. I'm 15 now, and I'm doing ok. My mom doesn't try calling me, but that's her loss, not mine.

• by Janie, Md
• 13 years ago

This poem has made me think of my own mother who had abandoned me when I was only 2 years old. My father and my adoptive mom {still my mom} have taken care of me for 13 years. They have given me a better life. Had I stayed with my biological mother, I wouldn't have as many options for life as I do now. So thank you to whoever wrote it, and Mom, if you're reading this, I do love you.

• by Annakay, Spanish Town
• 13 years ago

This poem really touched me so bad my dad was not really there for me, at times I feel so left out don't want to talk to any one always by myself and was so sick of being me but all these poem I read fill my heart with tears I wish I could just have the guts to tell my mum how much she is love but at time she make feel so bad

• by Carla Peters
• 13 years ago

this poem really hit home with me the only difference is that my mom was still around my older brothers but when I was 8 my mom and dad got a divorce and I lived with my dad and I would go to my moms sometimes after school and one day I went there when I was 12 and had a note on the table that said "went to Florida, bye" she called a few times while she was gone and came back to KY when I was 20 and wanted to be part of my life it is hard and she is a drug addict so makes it harder. she lives a mile from me now and we still rarely talk she calls me when she's drunk or high. I say you lucked out she doesn't deserve you.

• by Joe, Puerto Rico
• 13 years ago

This really touched me as well, My mom left both me and my sister with my grand parents I was 6 months and my sister was 11 years old. My sister never got over it and ran away from home again with my mother as of the age of 18. My sister and my mother lived together bouncing all over NYC in lower east side apartments. Both got into intense use of drugs after time, both became drug users. Using heroin and all kinds of drugs during 1978 worse time of drug impact in the USA. My Grandparents gained there rights and adopted me and as for me I thanks God My grandparents took over my life, I was very lucky today I stand with my head up high all went by and my grandparents must be in the sky with the lord because they did a great job.

• by Sara, Hanford CA
• 13 years ago

This really touched my heart! My real mother left me and my little brother when I was 3 and he was 1. We had a step mom that decided she wanted no part of our lives when her and my dad divorced when I was 12 years old. I have had no one to call mom since then and I am now 25 years old! My children have no one to call grandma...maybe someday she will want to be in our lives...I just keep the faith, thank you!

• by Derroll, Newcastle UK
• 13 years ago

Wow this is so touching, so deep and so real. best poem I think I've ever read :) loves...

• by Heather, New York City
• 13 years ago

I love this poem!!! I feel similar to the girl who wrote it...My mom left me when I was 3. I never heard from her, not so much as a single letter or phone call. She suddenly appears in my life again, I meet her on my 16th birthday. I was raised in foster care, where I was passed around and abused. She was in my life for 2 1/2 years, and now she's gone again...Why did she hurt me again? What did I ever do to her?

• by Spencer
• 14 years ago

My mom left me and my sister and brother when I was nine after years of cheating on my dad. We stayed in touch for a year but she's an alcoholic and a drug addict and so we moved to try and stay away from her but she just keeps finding us and has tried to break in to our house and has stole stuff from us. She says she loves us and wants to be with us but all she does is hurt us.

• by Ayshia
• 14 years ago

My mother has never really been in my life. We were taken away from her when I was 4, I am now 18 almost 19. I haven't seen her in 14 to 16 years I have lost count. My brother and sister and I grew up with out are mother and fathers. I know I will have to see her some day but I don't know if I want to, anytime soon.

• by Angela, London
• 14 years ago

This is a very honest poem.. I read it and I cried all the way through it because this is exactly how I feel. I am 35 years old have 2 kids and love them to bits.. spend my life trying not to be my mom. Used to think I was over her but I don't think I ever will be. you just get used to the pain....

• by Deb
• 14 years ago

I was abandoned at age 5. This is the part that got me the most:
"Time heals everything,
I don't think that's true,
I know something,
time did not do."
I wish it was healable, but I haven't found it to be either. It has been impossible to have close relationships as an adult because of this damage.

• by Rose Kuri, Mexico
• 14 years ago

It's a beautiful poem, my teacher left us to translate it to Spanish. I will do my best. Thanks for this amazing poem it's so touching
good luck

• by Shelby
• 14 years ago

My mother left me and my brother when I was only 16 months old. She has just now come back into my life and wants a relationship with me. Should I do it or should I not. I pray to god not knowing what to do.

• by Ryn
• 14 years ago

My mother never left home, but she never made an effort to love me and my dad. I, as her child always tried my best to excel so she can look at me with loving eyes. She never did and I am now 34 and my dad has passed away. She gave us a big hole in our hearts.. a feeling of emptiness and loneliness and time never made it easier to bear. I guess seeing her everyday at home and seeing how much she tried to make me feel invisible every single day makes the experience tougher and more painful.

• by Meghan
• 14 years ago

I lived with my mom all my life for 14 years...My father, whom I did not know decided he wanted me to live with him,, in another state. He told me how to act towards my mom, (hatefully), how to say things to make her look bad, I did a lot to hurt her...I did go with my father, after lying to everyone, including my friends I met in his state.
Well, I am back with my mother. I love her, so much bad happened, I do not know how to express anything. What is love anyways? I never hated her, I was told to hate. Look at my life. Well you can't but if you could. Think of the parent that gave you love, attention, respect and a good home.

• by christina
• 14 years ago

WOW my mom left me when I was three years old 2 she came into my life like every 3-4 years she gave me a stuffed rabbit that's the only memories I have of her and we live cities away its really hard growing up without a mom but I'm 24 now and I have a daughter of my own that I cherish with all of my heart and I will not follow in her footsteps

• by Moriah
• 15 years ago

I felt like this was the true story of my mom leaving me and I will never be the same because of her and I just want to meet her some day and tell her how much she hurt me and how she never even tries to find me or anything the only thing I ever got from her was a birthday card when I was 6 and I never heard from her again and I am 15 now!

• by Keith Connell
• 15 years ago

My little girl is 4 now and her Mom left her when she was just a week old. I know she thinks of it now as she asks me a lot. So your poem touched me. Thank you

• by Cheryl
• 15 years ago

I feel like this was written to me, I have tried to be back in my daughters life for the last 6 years, I was gone a year. she has slowly let me back in but I don't think she ever fully will, she calls someone else mom now, it hurts bad but I know I hurt her and I am truly sorry

• by Kim
• 15 years ago

My Mom left me & my Brother & Sister when I was 3. I still haven't fully got over it. I lie & say I'm over it. I'm 25 years old.
I think of her less & less everyday. She used to call occasionally make promises and disappear for another 5 years. I haven't seen her since I was 3.
My feelings are the same, angry followed by numb, followed by betrayal. I loved the poem.