Still Here

I lost my younger brother 5 years ago, and still can't get over the loss. We were very close to one another, and shared all our joys and sorrows with each other. He died very suddenly, and at the time when he died, I couldn't cry, as I was in shock for a few months. When I cried, it was much later, and then I started crying everyday. I missed him so much, and I was really sick with the pain, that I thought God was going to take me away too. We were both married with children, but were separated from our spouses. We could understand each other's sorrows so well, as we went through a lot in our marriages, which we could both relate to. My other brothers and sister could not understand us both as well. I really miss talking to him and telling him what was in my heart. He was so understanding and caring, and helped me a lot in my in many ways.
Even after 5 years of him being gone, I want to cry when I think of him. He was such a beautiful person, and he had such a sad life.