On My Own

I basically was the product of a bad marriage. My parents divorced when I was barely 1 year old. My dad re-married and I was raised thinking that my step mom, was my mom. I knew otherwise. I didn't even meet my biological mother until I was the age of 18, when I could go looking for her myself. I met her, found out I have a blood half sister, and then she apparently thought that she'd had enough closure to make sure I survived I guess and I haven't spoken to her since. I know how this girl feels to feel unwanted, unappreciated, unloved, and that just makes you feel miserable. I've put my feelings for her in the past and I will NOT cry at her funeral!

My mum left me when I was 14, I ended up in a children's home, because she was frightened of my abusive dad, I forgave her when she came back into my life. probably the worst mistake I ever made, she hurt me again when she moved 300 miles away with my dad. I miss her but I don't want her back. once a let down always a let down

From the time I was a little girl I can remember hating my mother for the hurtful things she would do to me. She was so jealous of my father and I and it was so obvious. She was never there for me at any of the special occasions and always managed to downplay any good thing in my life. Stirred up trouble everywhere she could do it covertly and come out smelling like a rose. My brothers were treated like gold and I could never do anything right. I went No Contact finally after the most horrible hurt, she totally shut me out of my dads sickness and the hospital stays and subsequent funeral. I was not included in any of the plans or arrangements. I was shocked I was included in the obituary. I hate her so much and have just recently found out what a narcissistic Mother is and she is spot on. I wasted 50 years of my life reacting to something she pulled.