My Josh

In my mind I hold a picture
Of how we used to be
For everything you needed
You could turn to me.
I still see that sweet faced baby
And the toddler full of joy
The charming little person
And the athletic growing boy.
Every phase I relished
Treasuring every day
All the while knowing
Someday you’d grow away.

I guess I wasn’t watching
Not holding up my end
Because I swear I never saw
When evil stole in on the wind.
I sensed something was different
I knew something was wrong
But tried to justify my part
“The Single Mother’s Song.”
When I finally woke up
Nowhere left to hide
I cried and swore, yelled and begged
But I was always on your side!

Through all the broken promises
The stealing and the lies,
Somehow I still could find my son
When I looked into your eyes.
The phone became my enemy
Each ring could bring my death
Because I feared the words I’d hear
I lived holding my breath.
The road has not been easy
But I’ve always lived in hope
Because I know you’re not the enemy
The monster’s name is DOPE.
This disease will never leave you
You’ll struggle One Day At A Time,
You won’t always be a junkie
But you WILL always be MINE.