Addiction Poem about Family

Poem To My Meth Addict Husband

I wrote this to my husband hoping it would make him see what his addiction is doing to our family. To this day, he is still battling meth and it's strong hold. We are in the midst of his detox, and I pray to God this is the last time my family will have to witness the effects of coming off this drug. I gladly welcome your prayers for my husband's sobriety and lasting recovery. If you would like to read more poems written by me my book is called "My Heart is an Open Book." Thanks for taking the time to read my poetry.

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© Michelle Meece

February 2009

Puppet On A String

You act like I know nothing about it, but I know enough.
I know what it has done to you, I know what it's done to us.
You're no longer a real person, more like a puppet on a string.
Every single move you make is controlled by methamphetamine.
I just can't seem to help you, can't break you away.
I've tried to cut the strings so you could walk away.
But without this attachment, your so-called support.
Your body goes limp, and collapses to the floor.
I can't lift you up, you fall right back down.
Your body is like dead weight on the ground.
I wish I could pull you to safety so you could be free.
It's so hard to watch you be a puppet on a string.

I'm figuring out that I can't do this anymore.
You have to let me go, I need to walk out the door.
I've been in entrapment, under lock and key
With your love that's pushed me to insanity.
Step aside, you must let me through.
My heart's taken enough abuse.
You have become someone I don't want to know.
There's no other choice; I really have to go.
You can make it okay because you can always pretend
whatever you want when the strings lift you back up again.

You attempt to burn the past away.
While everything you loved melts away.
Your new life has taken what was once my place.
Tomorrow you can't always fix your mistakes.
You have a million reasons, always an excuse.
And most of all it's precious time that you abuse.


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  • by Ali, CA
  • 1 week ago

I had no idea so many were going through this. It is unbelievably tragic. He and I were high school sweethearts. Never apart. Best friends. Married for 30 years. THIRTY YEARS. One wonderful daughter who is presently 15 years old. He was a business owner and a college professor. We had such a nice life and family. Suddenly about 2 years ago he started acting very strange. He stopped coming home. His behavior was erratic. The electronics in the house began to disappear. He drained two bank accounts. It never occurred to me that this man I've loved for more than 30 years was doing meth. You could knock me over with a feather. But I came to realize that he was using this evil drug. He is now homeless and so very mentally unstable. It is heartbreaking but there is nothing I can do. I worry about him every single day and pray he will somehow make it back to life. I am so afraid one day I will have to tell my daughter that he is dead from all of this. My divorce is final. Thank God I can support myself and my daughter on my own since there is no child support when Dad is a homeless drug addict. I don't think I will ever understand how such an intelligent, thoughtful 49 year old man suddenly decided to use meth. My life is NOTHING like I thought it would be. Nothing like I planned. Prayer, support from family and friends and my desire to make my daughter's life as good as I can, keeps me motivated to move forward instead of dwelling in the past, but I will never stop loving him. Stay strong everyone and do what you need to do to protect yourself and your family - physically, emotionally, financially. You can lead the horse to water but you'll never make him drink, unless he really wants to.


  • by April, United States
  • 2 months ago

I don't know where to begin. This poem is wonderful. I have been with my husband for 13 years and we have 2 boys. I found out a few months ago that he has been doing meth for at least the last 3 years and maybe even longer, I don't really know. He always had his reasons and excuses for not being around much, for working in the shop for days on end. I would ask him why he didn't sleep and he would tell me he would nap in his shop and then go back to work. I suspected many things and at one point I did suspect meth, but he lied to me at that point and made me feel dumb for even asking. For quite some time I even thought he was having an affair. He always told me he had to work to make money and keep our farm and I always fell for it. I guess the best way to put it is I was drug dumb. Where I sit right now I know I need to walk away, but it's really hard. I want to believe that he's quit like he promised but I know better also. I never pictured my life turning out this way. I feel so lost.


  • by Beverly, Texas
  • 3 months ago

My husband and I met and have been together since we were 16. We are now 35. We both struggled with addiction for years. I got clean 12 years ago and him 3 years later. We moved out of state to work in a rehab. While there my husband posed the question to me of swinging. I obliged because part of me was curious and the rest of me wanted to make him happy. We ended up on meth. Worst 2 years of my life. I've since decided to never use again as I have our boys to think of. But also I have a heart condition and a family history of heart disease and have been having chest pains. I've also quit smoking. He, on the other hand, is out right now getting f'ed up. I just want to be loved and appreciated and I want my place back as his wife, the most important thing in his life. What should I do? If I don't make some drastic changes I'm going to fall right back into the trap and it will kill me. Should I leave him and move on while he slowly kills himself?


  • by Shakeya Robinson
  • 4 months ago

I discovered my husband of six years is a meth addict. He said that he started using five weeks ago but I don't believe a word he says anymore. He is now with another woman whom is also a meth addict. He has started selling all of his belongings and to support his new woman and his addiction. At first I wanted to intercede and hide his mail (which allows him to receive unemployment claims) but I have to step aside. I cannot interfere or I will interfere with God's plan for him. I will let him go. I am fasting and praying that he return back to his family. I actually have my church and all of my beloved family praying for his return. James 5:16 Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results. I know that he will return back to his family, I just don't know when and I don't know how much worse his addiction will get. Everyday I pray the Lord protect his mind, start opening his eyes to those that are deceitful around him, and that he not even enjoy his high's anymore. My test is to keep the faith and return my focus and seek God's face! I pray that all of our prodigal sons and daughters are returned safely back to their families. Amen!


  • by Mandy
  • 10 months ago

This was so heartfelt and I felt every word. I'm beginning this journey as I just found out about my husband of 13 years addiction. I'm scared, feel betrayed and alone. I have to put on mask everyday to shield my kids as well as family of the heartache I'm feeling. Prayers to you and thank you for letting me know I'm not alone there are woman out there sharing this struggle.


  • by Kimberly, San Diego CA
  • 10 months ago

I am so sad to hear of everyone's unfortunate circumstances while dealing with addiction, but all of these stories make me feel like I'm not all alone in what I am going through. I have been with my husband for 13 years married for 2 years. My husband is a meth addict, every so often he leaves us without any notice and stays gone on a binge for 2 days, 3 months, a year ? We never know how long he will be gone, we don't even get a phone call, that is until the party is over either he gets tired, things get scary, or he gets locked up. Today is 3/19/14 and I haven't heard from him or seen him since 2/28/14. I can't begin to explain to you what my emotional state is like at this moment. I go to bed crying, wake up crying, I can't concentrate, I'm lost, and I shouldn't be, I'm sober, so why am I so lost? I miss him and love him so much If anyone could direct me to a good online support group for families of addicts I'd really appreciate it.


  • by Michelle, Kentucky
  • 10 months ago

Wow! It's been 3 years since I have checked this site. I wish I could say things are different, that they are fantastic....but they are not. The only difference is I am working full-time for $8.50 an hour at a job I love but I am no where near the point where I can take my kids and move on without having to live in poverty. I am beyond crying for him. This situation has left me cold. But you, you wonderful people who know what I am living, you have moved me to tears. Sometimes I wonder if HOPE is a real thing. Is recovery a REAL thing? I know my kids won't be young forever. Still wondering when I will reach the end of this madness. By now I am bitter. Ready for him to pay consequences for his own sins. But only God has the right to decide. So I continue to wait...


  • by Becky .U.K
  • 11 months ago

This poem really touched me, I am the wife of an addict, An addict of all sorts from crack to Heroin to Meth and alcohol, I love my husband with all my heart and I know nothing I do or say will help him and the battle is his own. I am standing by his side but it's been a struggle, sleepless nights, crying until I just can't cry anymore, the worry that this time may be the last and I will lose my husband to this monster of a drug. I know I'm not the only person out there going through this and that makes me feel less alone in this struggle as obviously no one knows, if someone asks me anything it's always we're good, everything is fine, I'm happy, when really I'm dying inside and want this to go away. It's not going anywhere my husband is not at that point to want to stop for good so I'm just plodding along pretending I'm fine its ok we're good ...


  • by Rachael, Ohio
  • 1 year ago

Thank you! I cried reading your poem because it's everything I am feeling, and have felt. I can't talk to anyone about it, his family just ignores it. I can't talk to mine because I'm to ashamed to tell them their little girl is with a Meth head and not quite ready to leave him behind. Nothing I do keeps him away from it long. I've kicked him out, threatened I'll divorce him, call the police, etc.. But he still lies and pawns everything, steals from me and stays up for days. It sucks coming home from work searching the house to see what has been sold. I have to hide my wallet every day. I search the house even the trash for clues of his habit, and when I do he lies with the evidence in his face. I'm tired and it hurts so bad. But good to know that I am not alone!


  • by Maryam, CA
  • 1 year ago

About a year in he started suspecting that his business partner was stealing, every night he would come home distraught and devastated, threatening to kill his partner because he told his partner that the money was from my home and would do anything to protect me and my savings. This went on for one year, he would sleep in his car, not come home for 2-3 nights, his excuse was he was trying to figure out how he was stealing. My god I go crazy thinking about all of the lies and deception. I remember begging EVERY night to PLEASE tell what is wrong with him?? The worst part of it is he never admitted to using any drugs to me. It was like a game, for one year, he played me and the worst part of it is I trusted him when he swore to me he wasn't using drugs. I believed in him and in our love sooooo deeply. We met at 18 and have been married for 13 years. Fortunately we do not have any kids, but I have lost the love of my life, something I NEVER, EVER thought would happen to me :(. I begged him to get help, for whatever problem he had (at the time I did not know)..but he chose not to, he was not the same man I had married and I felt like I didn't even know him anymore. I spoke to many doctors, clinics, police officers, addiction specialists and BEGGED for help which I never got they said they cannot FORCE him to go if he is not showing any signs of danger to himself or others, they said you have to walk away, tough love as they say. I had exhausted all attempt to get him help, Mid-February I finally told him to either get help or to get the hell out of my life, he chose to leave and of course blamed me for everything :(. The hardest part is living with the fact that still until this day he does not recognize how much I tried to help, he doesn't see it like that. He ended up moving to Northern CA to stay with his Uncles, he finally got the help that he needed and I believe is no longer using anything, but unfortunately our marriage has been damaged beyond repair. I found out from his uncles that he was using Meth. I couldn't believe it when I heard it!! I even went to meet him about a month ago, he looked much, much better, (he too had lost about 40 pound and he used to be 230 lb.) exercised and was all buffed up, but unfortunately all of this has taken a toll on me. I could never go back to that life, with the thought of all of the lies and deceit, I couldn't do it anymore, I filed for divorce 2 weeks ago :( (against my true feelings), he is a changed person, I don't know him anymore, Meth really changed him and his brain. We too grew up together and met when we were 18 and were married 13 years. This is the HARDEST thing I have ever done, I think my heart will stay broken forever. But, as they say Elizabeth, you are not alone in this battle. Stay strong and do what is best for YOU and your children. NOBODY deserves to go through all of that pain, I've been there, I know what a nightmare it is. I don't think I have waken up from it yet :(. BE STRONG


  • by Ashley, Mo
  • 1 year ago

Your words you put on paper are the words my lips and my heart wish I could say. My husband is also a addict of many including meth. My prayers are with you and yours. Thank you for helping with my own emotions battling this through my husband. I know now to expect the worse, yet I still hope for the best. I know God can heal anything. What I had to learn is he can't heal those who don't want to be healed. Let family, faith, and love conquer addiction. God Bless! Please update.


  • by Cal, Georgia
  • 1 year ago

Thanks for sharing. I have been with my husband 17 years married 10. He has been an addict the whole time but I didn't realize the extent of it until I decided to stop my addiction in 2008 which was alcohol. When I stopped I realize I wanted more out of life and in a marriage and apparently he is satisfied with his. I'm not sure what to do. My spirit, heart, life everything is suffering. I feel like I am being held back from what I want and deserve but at the same token don't want to leave him. Confused!


  • by Renata, South Africa
  • 1 year ago

I'm going through a divorce to the man of my dreams. Addiction was something I didn't understand. He told me he just came out of rehab and I respected him even more for fighting those demons and "winning" only to realize the evil nasty sick grip crack has on someone. It wants you dead inside, but alive to use it more. I fought this drug on his behalf, but always came in second best. I called dealers, I followed him, taking crack pipes out of your husband bum isn't something you dream about as a young girl. The worst fear was waking up next to a cold dead body. I couldn't do it any more. I wanted him to hurt me physically, broken bones or a black eye or something so he could see the effects. Because addicts don't see, they don't care what they are doing to you inside. Maybe if he could see the effects on me he would stop! I walked out of my marriage 3 months ago. I still love him and cry daily. I will no longer allow that abuse. We are all living results of our choices and he made his when he decided to call his dealer, and I finally made mine.


  • by Elizabeth, Texas
  • 1 year ago

My husband is addicted to crystal meth. About a year now. I found out when he called me from the back of a police car that he was caught with almost 4 grams. He was working a lot in our new business we had opened the prior year. He was losing weight, staying at the shop all night, and becoming someone I don't know or possibly think I even love anymore. We lost our house, we lost our business. Legal bills have all but wiped us out. Now we live in a trailer and barely making it. We have 3 kids who have hardly a relationship with him anymore. He has told me he has a problem. Gives me excuses and days he is going to fix it. Then never follows through. I question everything. I have to hide money. I have no more trust and its breaking my family. We have been together 18 years, 12 years married. I grew up with this man. I don't know what to do. I feel hopeless and alone.


  • by Michelle, Kentucky
  • 3 years ago

Just wanted to thank all who have left comments to me. I hadn't checked it for quite some time. It hurts a little less to know that I am not alone. It is going to be the hardest thing ever to walk away from all of this. But I know it's the only thing I have left to do. It's just gonna take me some time to get there.


  • by Texas
  • 3 years ago

I am a recovered speed freak. I've been clean for over 10 yrs. I spent 21 yrs. in prison. When I walked out of prison for the last time, Sept. 9, 2003, I was 42 yrs. old, and had literally spent half my life in prison. My life in prison was directly related to my drug addiction. I am clean, free and have no desire to go back to that life. Just wanted to say that sometimes walking away is the best thing you can do for a person suffering through addiction. The more you lose, the sooner you hit bottom, the sooner you wake up and do the work necessary to get clean. My prayers are with those both fighting addiction, and those that love an addict.


  • by Lynsie
  • 3 years ago

This poem has really touched my heart. When I was 18 I met my soul mate, the love of my life. We got engaged and it was eventually dissolved because his mother passed away when he was 22. This triggered drug abuse and until this day he is still an addict. It is one of the hardest things I've ever gone through and I live it every day. I've been living it every day for the past year now. It is very touching and heart warming to know that I am not the only one who has these feelings. It justifies all the emotions that I have that he considers me crazy for having. I know he still loves me, and I will never stop loving him. But there are times where I think "I didn't sign up for this". I am twenty one now, things are starting to get better. But every day is still a battle. Thank you very much..


  • by Jen, UK
  • 3 years ago

my heart goes out to you I have tried to support my son for the last 17 years as he has battled with heroin and crack addiction. I have had to walk away because I realized I am all but wiped out. Your poem has lifted my spirits and made me realize this fight is his not mine thank you so much take good care


  • by Michelle Meece
  • 4 years ago

Mona, I just wanted to tell you "your very welcome" and thank you also. I was touched by your response. Hope things are better for you and your husband.


  • by Mona, MI
  • 5 years ago

All I can say is WOW! It was if someone was looking right through me and seen my pain as I have watched my husband battle addiction after addiction. I thank you cause I'm sure as you know you always feel alone. I cried reading your poem not for him, but because someone else finally understands my pain and frustration. Thank you so much,


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