Vanessa Kershaw

I wished so much
for my biological dad
but now I've got him
I'm feeling very sad

my world, my guide, my father
who I know nothing about
I pretend to laugh and smile
but really I scream and shout

I don't feel like his daughter
I feel second best
he hasn't made the effort
like he has with all the rest

he is nothing special
that I now can see
he is scared and lonely
and frightened just like me

so much of my life
has just been lost
I just want his love
and things that don't cost

but he doesn't want to know
he won't even try
he's the reason I hate
and also why I cry!!! x

the clock is ticking
and time is passing by
I love him very much
and this is my goodbye

he put on his brave face
told me there was nothing wrong
he thought I never knew
but I knew it all along

he was diagnosed with cancer
it made me really sad
I knew he was unwell
but didn't think it was this bad

he used to sort it out
when things got really bad
now I just want to say
"I love you, Grandad"