Asmita

Do I ever dazzle you the way you dazzle me?
Do I ever take your breath away the way you take mine away?
Do I make your heart beat fast when we're close?
Does your heart skip a beat when you find me looking at you?
Do you think about me when I'm gone?
Do you love me back the way i do?

My head heavy...
My heart shattered...
My brain numb...
So is my heart...
A piece of me died when I read that conversation...
Now I lay here crying...
With no one to understand my feelings...
This is all for a boy...
It's something I can't believe...
Why me?
I ask myself...
Why should I always be the one getting hurt?
Why not her?
What's so special about that girl?
I want YOU to kill me...
(Please do)
I can't live with this broken heart...
Neither can I face you...
So just let me die...And never see that breath-taking smile again...
Cuz if I do...I'll be going crazy about you all over again...

You ask me what he means to me...
But I'm too stubborn to say...
But now I give up...
Tired of all the questions you ask...
He is the sun in a foggy day...
The moon in a dark night...
He is gravity in space...
Rain in a drought...
He is the shining star in the sky...
He is like an angel to me...the sweetest delusion...God's most stunning creation...
I love him...Even if he doesn't...
And I want you to know that it doesn't matter if he doesn't love me back...
I don't want him...
I just love him...without expecting anything in return...
But you won't understand...
Because you don't know what love is...
Love is where you can hurt yourself but not the one you love...
It is where you can give up that person if it makes him happy...
Love is something which makes sacrifices happily...
It's something you'll never know...

I love that you...
The you I knew...
The you I always wanted...
The one who spread happiness all around...
To talk to you...
It used to be so fun, so effortless, so uncomplicated...
I was altogether a different person around you...
I used to be so carefree..so full..So content...
I never knew..rather never thought..that you'd hurt me so bad..I don't know what he said..But..can't  I love you? Is that a crime?
Now..our talks..they're so outrageous..so difficult..So complicated...
I'm so scared around you now..scared that this will be our last talk..
I'm so scared to face you again...I'm so afraid I'll cry then...
I think I'm too devastated ..too empty..too shallow to understand if loving you was a sin I happily committed...
I wanna cry each and every day ...I wanna think of you until the end of the day...
But I'm delighted too...
You spread happiness all around..But to me..You gave me something you never gave anyone...
It's the pain...
But yet, after all you said...
The pain will always be special to me..to my little wrecked heart..to the pieces of my whacked heart which would always find you irresistible...