Shahinaz Soliman

Broken
To give and not receive
To intimidate when you achieve
When your love falls on a cold ice
Or your dedication sells for a low price
When you hug and it is just a wall
When you cry and no one to call

Broken
When you don't care how I feel
And my broken heart is not the deal
When I see The leaves with no colors
My once fruitful garden has no flowers

Broken
When you are in your own world
When I scream for you and hear no word
When I walk alone on my way
When you have no answers and nothing to say

Broken
looking for my strength
Resting here on this bench
I will shout and shout
then I will figure it out
How to add colors again to the leaves
To encourage my heart and my strong beliefs
My flower's colors will revive
My broken heart will survive
I will never sing again choking, that my heart is still Broken
Never again broken.

I am allowed.
Allowed to dream
Allowed to scream
To run and chase
To find my place
To feel the pain
Enjoy my gain
To love and feel
This life is real

So I am allowed
To be who I am
I don't give a damn
I am allowed
As long as I am pure
I can help and cure
I am allowed to be me
I am not he or she

So I am allowed
To live to give
To achieve and believe
To bend to kneel
To bargain for this deal

I am allowed
I will fly and land
I will fall and stand
I will open my arms
Believe in good luck charms
I will accept and I will reject
Trust and expect
I am allowed to have a choice
I am allowed to deliver my voice

I am allowed
To hide and play
To live my day
To run and chase
To find my place
I am allowed..

By Shahinaz Soliman

My dad, I miss you every day
My greatest love, my hero
My best memories in every way

The greatest man I knew
In every moment of my life I do remember you
I remember your strong yet tender features
I remember you as a role model and a great teacher
I remember looking up to you, jumping, hopping, and feeling safe

I always hid behind your existence
You taught me about patience and persistence
I felt safe, secure, and never worried when you were around
I always knew with you I was standing on a solid, safe ground

I remember your tear when I read for you my first poem
I remember when you waited for me after my late classes till I came home
I remember your daily hard work, dedication, and tender care
I remember all the love, fun, and thoughts that we used to share

I wanted you to be proud of me
I wanted to be the daughter that you wanted to see
I made sure everything I did was what you would approve
I am purely your daughter, there is nothing more to prove

My children hear about you every day
They always ask me why grandpa didn't stay
I tell them he is in heaven now, looking and praying for us somehow
I love you so much, my dad, your memory will always be alive
I love you so much, my dad, your words and wisdom will always survive