Sopheap Cabaniss

It is calm and serene, to no other this is my scene.
The water is calm, the wind is slight, To see the birds fly out of sight.
The fish are swimming, the ducks are playing to my delight.

As I sit here thinking, "what happened to me?"
At this point does it really matter, because I am set free.
Free from the pain, the storms of indoors.
To Leave this site, And roars of thunder behind ...

In a home so hostile, so scary sometimes.
I wondered each day "will I make it out in time?"
My worries so great, only hidden by smiles,
If only people knew, the tragedy inside.

I Prayed each day, to the Lord above, to set Me free from the Anguish that was.
My heart was torn, no love but fear, to live this life ...
My secret hidden from dangers that lurked. Thoughts to myself.. "Could I Persevere?"
I cried profusely but no one heard until that fateful day..my changed.

I couldn't change him nor could I leave. How dumb was I to not see or believe?
A home so quiet So dark and lonely. All was lost to the bottle only.
Today I sit and reflect on what I did wrong and to live with regrets.

The power of God to show me the way, I fear no more the trap of silence
To speak out loud, a victim of violence. My pride is gone, my strength was no more
The fears of the external looms over my shore. To be free from that life, To start all over
Has brought me peace, solitude, and freedom to become myself the independent girl
Who thought she knew what life would tell.

I thank the Lord, the few Friends near me
God bless you all and let us not forget, it's not ok to live in fear,
Please ask for help from those that are dear. This chapter is closed.
I move on slowly to Reflect on the history that brought newfound glory..

We've connected through times of joy
Even through times of pain
I can see right through your show and
Unfortunately, I have to let you know
That you are the one for me
You have and will always be

I've seen the way you look at me
And although I may turn with chagrin
I'll never be able to show you
Just the way I feel
I know that one day I will be free
From this feeling of regret and sorrow
But for now, all I have to say is

My life will move on today
With or without you ..will you stay
If I beg you, don't leave
Will you still be there for me
And if I should choose to let you see
You have and will always be
The only one for me

Someday down the line
Maybe one day I'll let you in
It's been the hardest thing for me
To feel this way and pretend
But maybe one day if there's a chance
You'll see exactly what I saw
That I am the one you need
For now, I just want to be free