Amanda

I say I miss the sky
I say I miss peace
I say I miss happiness
I say I miss the sun
but its you I miss 
I wanted your love
I couldn't have your love
I wanted your lips
I couldn't have your lips
I wanted your hands
I couldn't have your hands
I loved you little did I know you loved me too
ironic, isn't it, that two souls make one heart
you asked me out
it's then that I got everything I ever wanted
from beginning to end
I'll always have
for all eternity
I will have love.

when I scream you don't hear
when I hold my breath till my face turns blue you don't care
when I reach you don't see
you look straight through me
you hit me
beat me
curse me
scream at me
molest me
you don't care
I wear a mask
I fake a smile
but you look straight through me
why am I dead to you?
'cause I understand why I'm dead to myself too
I can't even look myself in the eye
know why?
because you look straight through me