Katelyn E. Dodd

My soul has been split in two.
The better piece of me is still with you.
I'll carry your memory with me always.
One step at a time for the rest of my days.

You helped me love by showing me the way.
You took my hand and promised you would stay.
You let me yell when I needed to feel heard.
You gave me advice when I wanted to save the world.

I watched you grow weak, though I tried to deny it.
The proof was in front of me, but I attempted to hide it.
How selfish is it that I'm angry because you've gone away?
I just cannot fathom why you could not stay.

I had to give you permission to go,
Before I could discover everything that you know.
All of your stories, how I long to hear.
My soul feels so empty, but my eyes are full of tears.

I had to pretend to be okay,
To make the most of your final days.
When deep down, I think we both knew
That I feel an emptiness without you.

I have no earthly idea who I would be
Without the vital traits you passed on to me.
How will I be able to suffice?
Without your unmatched and worldly advice?

You're the light that guides me home, the anchor that holds me steady.
I know that I'll never be alone, but I don't think I'd ever be ready.
You're the flower that gives me hope, but my heart still feels so heavy;
And I've always been the lucky one.

I could just go on forever.
It was always you and me against the world together.
Though now I feel so very alone.
I know the Lord has called you home.

But my soul is still split in two.
The better half of me remains with you;
Oh, but you let me yell when I needed to feel heard,
And you gave me advice when I wanted to save the world.