Catherine Lamberton

Never knowing,
Always seeking
happiness and approval,
even the words I am speaking.

Constantly doubting
my choices, my actions.
Succumbing to fixes,
for temporary satisfaction.

Overwhelming anxiety,
illuminated by fear,
controlling my life.
Who I'm becoming is unclear.

Four years have now passed,
my hearts still not whole.
Pieces forever missing,
with your death, they were stolen.

The beginning proved the toughest.
Depression sunk in hard.
Just went through the motions,
yet eternally to be scarred.

Reminded through your pictures
of the life that you once knew.
Your smile ever so captivating,
those eyes of ocean blue.

Your presence is a constant,
felt in the sunrise and sunset.
Shooting stars, heart shaped rocks,
YOU... I am never to forget.

Your memory will be everlasting.
Still your voice I miss the most.
Oh, just to hear you laughing
or just to feel you close.

Four years now have passed.
No, my heart's still not whole.
Yes, pieces forever will be missing,
but your life...it changed my soul.