Poems by Antoinette McDonald

I wish to thank you, Lord
For allowing me to be a mother
I accept these precious gifts you've bestowed upon me wholeheartedly
I pledge to raise these miracles to reflect your light
I promise to cherish them
I will love them unconditionally
I will take them by the hand and guide them through life
I will teach them right from wrong
I will share with them patience, kindness, gentleness, joy, and laughter
I will show them compassion, understanding, thoughtfulness, and gentleness
I will shine upon them faith, truth, and prayer
I will pick them up when they fall
I will dry their eyes when they cry
I will comfort them when they are sick
I will calm them down when they have fears
I will instruct them that it is because of YOU that they have life

Amen

When I think of my past,
Nothing can compare
With how my life turned out now.

You've taught me the freedom of love,
Given me a reason to go on and live.
You've loved me because I am who I am.

The doubts I once had have long gone away,
Allowing love to blossom in their place,
Into something that is spiritual, even divine.

God has brought us together,
And I'm so glad that you're mine,
And better yet I am yours.

In my heart, it is a heavenly plan
For us to spend life together,
No matter where it may lead.

For God has stepped into our lives.
He is the one who knows best,
Blessing our lives as we know it.

I wish I knew what has become of the two of us
We used to talk, now I can't speak anymore
I'm told I speak way too loud
Nothing I have to say ever comes out right

I wish I knew what has become of the two of us
We used to have fun
Now we can't stand to be around one another
All we ever seem to do is fight

I wish I knew what has become of the two of us
We used to laugh
Now all I want to do is cry
You no longer hold me in your arms at night

I wish I knew what has become of the two of us
We spoke of the future quite often
Now it just seems bleak and blind
We no longer have the sunshine that is so bright

I wish I knew what has become of the two of us
We don't seem to see eye to eye
It feels like we move only mechanically
Doesn't look like there's any hope in sight

I wish I knew what has become of the two of us
Nothing seems the same at all
Have we gotten too old to love one another
Has our marriage lost its delight?

What exactly have I done so wrong?
I've listened to her cries and her pleas
I tried to understand all of her needs, hopes and dreams
Yet as time goes on she continues hating me
Not trusting in my love
Not believing in our friendship
How can I remind her so she'll remember?

Why has she left me all alone?
I've always talked and cried with her
I've laughed and joked around
I've shared my secrets with her and all of my feelings
But as she get older she wants to leave,
Run away so to speak
Never turning back, not even a blink
Will I ever see her again?

Where has my daughter gone?
She's hiding behind the teenage smoke screen
Rather be lonely than come back to me
I have to be the parent she doesn't like
Sorry if this she can't see
I can't seem to change her mind
How can I tell her I love her and have her believe?

Is there any chance to help our relationship survive?
I've given her my heart and my soul
But she don't seem to care anymore
The closeness we once had seems to have died
In a couple of weeks' time
It's a possibility she may one day forgive
Allowing our anger, pride and hurt to go away,
Not holding a grudge for things that are not my fault
Will she ever accept my apologies?

Having a son to carry on the family name
Was something to be proud of
But since he became a teen, nothing has remained the same
He has changed, thinking he knows all
I still love him with all my heart, but not his mouth
He wants to argue and talk back every chance he gets
Since he became a teen his life has gone south
Getting in trouble when the urge hits him
He's 15, not a little boy, definitely not yet a man
Have asked for advice, have tried several different things
He loves to try me when dad's not around, because he thinks that he can
Please Lord, hear my plea, I need assistance right away
We clash and we fight
Please Lord, I beg of you to step in and help him see
That the way he treats me just ain't right
Help him to grow up and to respect
Hold me back from causing him any harm
Give me patience, guidance, and wisdom
To direct him on the right path
And once more hold him in my arms
Let me remember when he was born he brought me great joy
And remind me to praise him when he does do good
For no longer is he my little boy
But a teen who claims he's so misunderstood