Deborah Robinson

I close the door on yet another day.
It's been over eight years now since you went away.
It now seems like forever since I last saw your face.
Time ticks on at a startlingly pace.

If only I could turn back the hands of time
And bring you back home to when you once were mine,
To hold you close and out of harm's way.
Whatever happened on that fateful day?

If I had only been with you,
If I had only been there,
Just maybe your future
Could have turned out to be fair.

My mind goes over all that has been.
Why did this happen? Why could I have not seen.
For as your mother, I should have known
And not just at the end of a telephone.

If you had never have left, if you had stayed with me,
Maybe our lives might have been as others will be.
Some people might say that it's time to move on,
But my life seems so empty now that you're gone.

Where do I go, and what do I do?
For Liam, I really do so much love you
In my heart and my head there is still so much pain,
For a huge empty space in my life now remains.

My prayers that I say every night are for you.
I pray that you're with me in all that I do,
And when my time here has come to an end,
It's you that the angels I hope will then send.
To take me back home and light up my way,
And from then to forever, I'll be with you each day.

If I could have one wish in life,
That wish would have to be
That God would take away my pain
And send you back to me.

Your birthday's here today, my son,
And I just wanted you to know
How much I deeply love you
And that I miss you so.

On days like this we should celebrate,
But for me that now proves hard,
For unlike other mothers, I cannot send
A simple birthday card.

No kisses can I give you
Or birthday gifts to buy.
Only flowers I now can give you,
Which I place down where you lie.

Two other things I send you
Are my thoughts and all my love,
So hold them close and keep them safe
In Heaven up above.

And please wait for me, my darling
Until my days are through,
And then I'll come and spend all time
In Heaven just with you.

I need you to touch,
I need you to see,
I need you so much,
I need you with me.

My life feels so empty,
My heart feels so cold.
I need you beside me,
I need you to hold.

Why were you taken?
I ask that each day,
But no one will answer,
I therefore now pray.

I pray that you're happy,
I pray that you're safe,
I pray that I'll hear you,
And that I have faith.

That's all I have now
I have to believe
In life beyond this one,
We all must achieve.

Come to me, son,
And whisper my name.
Tell me you're happy,
and I'll be the same.

My life at the moment
Is empty and dark.
The light that once shone
Has gone out in my heart.

I only have a picture now,
A frozen piece of time,
To remind me of how it was
When you were here and mine.

I see your smiling eyes
Each morning when I wake.
I talk to you and place a kiss
Upon your lovely face.

How much I miss you being here,
I really cannot say.
The ache is deep inside my heart
And never goes away.

I hear it mentioned often
That time will heal the pain,
But if I'm being honest,
I hope it will remain.

I need to feel you constantly,
To get me through the day.
I loved you so very much.
Why did you go away?

The angels came and took you,
That really wasn't fair.
They took my one and only son,
My future life, my heir.

If only they had asked me
If I would take your place.
I would have done so willingly,
Leaving you this world to grace.

You should have had so many years
To watch your life unfold,
And in the midst of this,
Watch me, your Mum, grow old!

I hope you're watching from above,
At the daily tasks I do,
And let there be no doubt at all,
I really do love you.