Poems by Tanya

If this is who you really are, then I want you far...
If this is what a father is, then I never want one...
You abandon me in my time of need,
Left me with nothing to eat...
I had to survive on my own two feet...
All the money you had, and still you treated me so bad...
You're the worst dad, and that makes you so glad!!!
What comes around goes right around...
I hate when you yell, I hate that sound!!!
I looked for you and hell is what I found!
I should of been your princess with a crown.
Instead, you treated me like I was your clown.
Betrayed me and left me with a frown!!
Look at my tears, what about my fears?
You can't help me anymore. Don't even try, what for?
I hate what you have done to me!
I used to be so weak. I was afraid to ever speak...
Now I have found strength and I'm not afraid...
I'm not afraid of telling you to leave.
You are my dad just by name. Because of you, I will never be the same...
You are insane, and that's how you will remain.
My mom is good. She's not the one to blame...
She had to play your roll as a dad...
You were never there. She was always so fair...

Growing up was tough because of you
You left and didn't care what I went through
Without you, I survived and grew

You were supposed to be my dad
but your actions were so bad
when I succeed you are never glad

You never tried to care
Never gave me your love to share
To forgive you I would never dare
Treated me so unfair
when I needed you, you weren't there

I don't trust the world because of what you did
I don't believe anything you ever said

All you ever did was lie
Always made me cry
You were why I wanted to die
You'll never stop you won't even try

You are so cruel
Treated me like I was your fool
Never took me to my first day of school

I want you out of my life
Go be happy with your new wife

I have resentment towards you
I hate who you are
Stay away, stay far

You make me sick
I can't stand your voice
I hate you for making the wrong choice

Why can't you love me the way you should?
I know you could
Instead, my heartache is what you're choosing.
It's me that you are losing.
I hate what you've done to me.
I was all that you ever wanted me to be.
I'm not blind, I can see.
I see your game.
I'm not insane; you are hurting me.
After everything I have done for you,
Everything I gave you, you turn around and cheat?
All the times and memories we have spent together,
You even said we'd be forever.
The bond we share
I never thought you would dare,
Dare to hurt me this way.
All the lies you say,
You made me sick.
She is who you want to pick.
You made me cry while you told a lie,
You made me want to die.
How could this be, you're not here with me?
You are not that man I thought you were.
Now I know, now I'm sure..."Never hurt you,"
Is what you said.
Now I know you're not a man of your word.
Made me feel crazy when I asked, "Why was your phone off?"
Yet I knew you were hurting me.
I knew I was right; you were out of my sight.
You really ruined my life.
How could you ask me to forgive you?
How many times can I?
You have lost my trust over what I call lust.
You chose to hurt me; it was a must.
I am beautiful, so I have to be brave,
Brave enough to move on.
I will be strong without you.
My life won't be wrong.
I will forget you in time, 
And no, no it's not fine.
I'm glad that you're not mine.
You used to be my greatest treasure, but now you're never.
I hope you're happy for what you did to me.
Right now you're blind, but soon you will see...

Where do we go from here?
I can't believe that you are not near.
You're the cause of my every tear.
Losing you was my every fear.

The remarkable feeling of your touch,
The blessed feeling of your love,
The thought of believing you,
The things we have been through,
All my cherished memories have vanished.

I was wrong to trust you,
I was wrong to believe when you said
That I was your dreams for your future.

Was she worth losing me?
How blind could you be?
Your desire was to deceive me,
To degrade my love that I gave you.

Look deep inside your soul.
I was the one who remained by your side.
In return all you did was lie.

I was never prepared for you to cheat me out.
Now, as I lay here alone,
I realize that you're gone forever.
Forgetting you will be never.

Life is unfair; sometimes the misery we can't bear.
This was a feeling I could never share.
I am strong, strong enough to move on from this pain.
I won't feel the shame; my life is not a game.
Tired of these tears and my fears,
I will cherish my inspirations.
I will find my dream, I promise; that's what I will achieve.
I will find a way to leave. 
I'm not who you will deceive.
I believe in miracles; these people laugh like it's hysterical.
I won't fall; I may be lost, but I will be found.
One day I will find the perfect life; life will run beautifully,
I will fly like a butterfly through the night, will have a pleasant sight.
Afraid but I will fight.
No boundaries, free my mind of all the pressure.
Leaving here will be my pleasure.
I want so much to be free; so much I want to see.
I want to reach the sky; I want so badly to fly.
See, I used to be a fool when I let you treat me cruel.
I made a mistake, but I won't let myself break.
Leave me, for God's sake.
So now I kneel down to pray.
For these times of struggle I will just say,
I'll leave in your hands, God. I will let go.