Poems by Marcia A. Newton

That old familiar feeling is stirring inside my heart.
and just like my old memories, these feelings never part.
I've always tried to keep these feelings buried deep inside,
but whenever I remember you these feelings come alive.

My heart knows the truth that my feelings have never changed
and knows the old familiar feeling will always remain the same.
Over the years my love for you has never faded away,
just like the memories that come to me every single day.

That old familiar feeling takes me to another place and time
when being with you always was the one thing on my mind.
A joyous place and happy time walking hand in hand,
when we were free to love and there wasn't any demands.

Whenever I am lost in thoughts and they just won't let me go,
I remember when you captured my heart and my hopeful soul.
When our song plays on the radio, I pause to reminisce
and that old familiar feeling comes when thinking how we kissed.

Whenever my yearning heart whispers out your name
that old familiar feeling comes and sets my heart aflame.
There were so many good times you gave me to remember,
and that old familiar feeling it brings keeps me warm and tender.

To the love of my life, I want you to know
I carry you in my heart wherever I go.
My heart has always been and will always be with you
because I waited all of my life to love someone like you.

To the love of my life, I loved you from the start
and I will love you forever with every beat of my heart.
From the moment you came into my life, I've loved you everyday.
You are every dream I've ever had yesterday and today.

To the love of my life, you are the one I want and need.
and you are the best love that has ever happened to me.
I found my Heaven here on Earth when you hold me in your arms.
Every part of my being desires you. You're my wish upon a star.

To the love of my life, you bring out the best in me.
God brought you into my life is something I'll always believe.
I love to gaze into your eyes and see myself in you,
and I love to kiss and hold you close whenever I'm with you.

To the love of my life, you are so loved.
You are my greatest treasure and you're my only one.
I will never get tired of loving you and my love will never fade.
I choose to fall in love with you each and every day.

To the love of my life, you touch and hold my heart.
I start each day thinking of you and you're my very last thought.
You are my life and my love, and I don't want it any other way.
My life is beautiful because of you now and for always.

If only I could turn back time and relive my days with you,
I'd hold on tight with all my might when I found my way to you.
If only you knew how I felt lost when I knew what I left behind,
you'd understand why I felt the need to turn back the hands of time.

If only you knew that letting you go was my single greatest regret.
And if only you knew that I was hurting too and it's a feeling I can't forget.
If only you knew I thought of you as the only one to hold and kiss,
and you need to know before I go, you're someone I truly miss.

If only you knew that when I met you, you brought color to my day.
And you need to know before I go, before you, I only saw gray.
If only you knew when I needed you, you were always there to listen.
And if only you knew that when you left, a part of me went missing.

If only you knew, time spent with you was the best part of my day.
And if only you knew because of you, I am the person I am today.
If only you knew when I was with you, I had no worries or cares.
And you need to know after I let you go, I kept you in my prayers.

You need to know before I go you didn't do anything wrong,
and you need to know before I go your love only made me strong.
If only you knew that when I was with you, I never felt sad or alone,
and if only you knew that my love for you was the best I've ever known.

If only you knew when I was with you, you never let me down.
and if only you knew how my love grew every day you came around.
I need you to know before I go that my love wasn't make believe,
nor was it a dream, or infatuation, or even a fantasy.

You need to know before I go, you were the best time of my life.
And you need to know instead of letting you go, I wanted to be your wife.
If only you knew when I was with you, we came so close to forever.
And if only you knew time spent with you is something I'll always treasure.

If only you knew that I wanted to move up time to see the future
and see if we had found each other and if our love was truer.
You need to know that I loved you so, and you gave me so much pleasure,
and you need to know I don't want to let go but stay in this moment forever.
If only....

When days seem dark and it feels like rain,
you bring your light to brighten the day.
You bring a ray of sunshine along with hope
whenever times get rough and it's hard to cope.

You are charming, kind, funny and sweet.
Being crazy with you is hard to beat.
You always understand just how I think.
It doesn't matter if I'm sober or drink.

You make me smile and you make me laugh.
You make me feel whole instead of half.
I treasure our crazy days together.
It's the simple things I always remember.

When we share a laugh or joke or two,
these are the times I cherish with you.
Not to mention the food brought to share
that let me know you also care.

Your friendship gives comfort I'm not alone
to face my fears and tackle the unknown.
You're someone in my life that can't be replaced
either by time, distance, or even space.

Whenever we're together something just clicks
We feed off each other and have to think quick.
I have a deep affection and we have a bond
not many people share that our friendship goes beyond

During this festive season of giving
there are many Christmas wishes you are deserving.
Because your gift of friendship is the best I've received,
your gift is these Christmas miracles to believe.

You are so much sweeter than a candy cane.
You are peace on Earth in so many ways.
You are twinkling lights and the jingle in bells.
You are the merry and bright that make hearts swell.

You are the sleigh bells beautifully ringing.
You are Christmas memories that life is creating.
You are the song carolers are singing.
You are joy to the world who just keeps giving.

You are the heavenly angel on top of the tree.
You are the winter wonderland that's magical to see.
You are the stocking hung with care full of treats.
You are the present underneath the Christmas tree.

You are the star brightly shining Christmas night.
You are the Santa making the holidays bright.
You are the music that lifts holiday spirits.
You are a Christmas miracle and never forget it.

You are holiday hugs and mistletoe kisses.
You are the comfort and joy in my Christmas.
You are the Christmas magic I have come to believe.
You are Christmas love and loved you'll aways be.

What is it about Christmas that feels like magic?
Is it love and celebration or memories making it nostalgic?
Is it believing in something we cannot see
such as Santa, Rudolph, Elves, and Frosty?

Somehow the magic of Christmas connects us all,
binding us as family and friends too many to recall.
The giving and sharing of all of our traditions
just to brighten each other's lives being our motivation.

The magic of Christmas can be telling stories and singing songs,
and becoming better people when we right all the wrongs.
To share the good feelings that gives thrill to our hearts
such as acts of kindness and sending holiday cards.

The magic of Christmas can be found in a smile
and the laughing out loud of a small happy child.
The magic of Christmas can be found in the silence
where it lives inside the hearts of many in existence.

The magic of Christmas can be soft and beautiful
by bringing joy to others from a heart that glows.
The magic can be found in forgiveness and togetherness
and found in life's blessings that brings us happiness.

The magic of Christmas can be forever heartwarming,
and goodness and love can be always everlasting.
We can keep the joy of Christmas living within us
knowing Jesus the Lord is the real magic of Christmas.

There's a place called home where everything feels right,
a place that's enchanting and beautiful and its own paradise,
a place of wonder and excitement and its own playland.
This place called home is known as wonderland.

Laughter and love overflow in wonderland,
where hopes and dreams are fulfilled as planned.
Delights and marvels are awaiting in utopia
where blissfulness and surprises are part of euphoria.

Wonderland is a dreamworld of make believe,
a place of beauty and fantasies.
It is a world of myths and magical things
beyond the Earth where Heaven begins.

Wonderland is happiness and infinite inspiration,
a space to live a love story or a wild obsession.
My wonderland exists wherever you are.
My heart is with you no matter how far.

In wonderland we are never apart,
and thoughts and desires keep us young at heart.
My soul craves a time when it's not a fable
to live a charmed life as long as we're able.

Is it just a fool's dream to feel this way
to cross into a world different as night and day?
All I need is a vivid imagination
to take me to wonderland on any occasion.

We both live in the shadows of the past
where we only know hurt and love doesn't last.
We were made to feel that we weren't enough
We were brought to our knees and made to give up.

We both know how easy life falls apart
how easily our wounds broke our hearts.
We remember when we were made to feel small
when criticized for our insecurities and all of our flaws.

Painful pasts poisoned our loving hearts,
but how can we move forward to make a new start?
How can we make peace with all of the pain?
Will pain always haunt us and love be in vain?

Can we ever live in the here and now
and leave yesterday's mistakes in the past somehow?
Can we ever know love means us no harm?
Will we ever feel safe in each other's arms?

Why do our memories hurt us from long ago?
Are we reliving the past by not letting go?
Are we doomed to a life of pain and brokenness?
Can we make peace with the past and the emptiness?

Maybe we can make each other better
by being kind to one another whenever together,
by listening, by supporting and making the other feel whole,
by taking care of each other's heart and soul.

Maybe we can be each other's peace,
be tomorrow's hope where the past is released.
Maybe we can take a deep breath and make it last
when we realize we're free from the shadows of the past.

Heavenly Angels, Messengers of God, you speak to me with numbers of love:
111:  Stay positive and know the desires of heart and soul.
222:  Keep your faith alive and always trust in the Lord.
333:  You are surrounded and loved by God above.
444:  Your angels reach out to you with love.
555:  Changes are coming into your life.
666:  Be a service to others and shine your light.
777:  Your dreams and hopes are coming true.
888:  Follow your heart and believe in you.
999:  Release your burdens and start anew.
         as new beginnings are waiting for you.
My happy heart does know and believe that Angels of God are speaking to me.
Guardian Angel Prayer:  Angel of God, my guardian dear, to whom God's love commits me here.  Ever this day be at my side, to light and guard, to rule and guide.  Amen.

Our happy days came and went, but memories always remained
because feelings stay buried deep inside even when times have changed.
There was a time when togetherness and love was all that really mattered
but hopes and dreams of starting over are all but lost or shattered.

I regret I didn't hold you longer.  I regret there wasn't more kisses.
I regret there wasn't more time together.  I regret the hurt this is.
I regret the day we said goodbye, but not what we once had.
One mistake can change everything, every dream and every plan.

I've shed many a tear thinking about what we could have been,
but we can't turn back the hands of time and do things we never did.
The heart knows the truth we waited too long to ever share love again,
or to try to start all over again just to end up in heartbreak and pain.

When I look back I always regret the chances we didn't take,
but we can't undo what has been done or change our past mistakes.
There are many things that I regret, but never our time together,
nor the way you use to hold me tight or the love we made to each other.

If I could write our story again, I would pour out my feelings inside
and remind you how we fell in love and how our love could last a lifetime.
If we could create new memories just tell me where and when,
I'd do it in a heartbeat even if it meant losing you once again.