Hurting Poem

I have been in a six year relationship and he still does not know what he means to me. I wrote this poem during the saddest time of our lives. He lost a loved one and I was not able to comfort him. Every word in this poem is truly meant; it's as if my heart was speaking all on its own. I dedicate this to all of those who have been lost in your own love.

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Tears Of A Broken Heart

default © more by Bianca Santamaria

Published: October 2008

I have given all my love to you, but what do I get in return?   
A broken heart.
I have given you my heart, and you stomp on it like a doormat.
I have given you my youth and you took advantage of my un-experienced heart and played with my emotions.
I gave you all the trust, but you misused it.
I gave you the benefit of the doubt, and you proved everyone right.
I gave you my life and you killed me day by day.
I want to pull my aching heart and tear it piece by piece so I no longer love you.
I want to lose my memory so I no longer think of  you.
I want to go so far so I no longer have to see you. 
I want to cry, but I no longer have any more tears to fall down
my sad, lonely face.
I want to sleep, but my dreams haunt me with you in them.
I can't seem to find a way out. What do I do?
I don't want anyone to see this, not even you.
How do I get out of this?
How do I stop this misery? How do solve this mystery?
I can't seem to find anyone to make me feel the way you do,
The way you look at me,
The way you say my name,
The sound of your voice when you tell me that you care.
I love you so much I think I'm going to die from this pain that haunts day and night.
How can I forget you? If the only love I know is you.
How can I move on? If life is not the same without you.
I want to break free and move on, but I think I'll be doing something wrong.
I just have to close my eyes and let things fly and let the days pass me by.



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  • Anastasia by Anastasia
  • 1 month ago

I betrayed my boyfriend and ignored him over text after a conversation with an ex of mine, which he found out about and is really hurt now. He's now rude and doesn't care about me any longer. He always says he's okay, but I don't think he is. He doesn't chat with me like he used to. I keep apologizing, but he doesn't seem to be okay.

  • Judy Sherif by Judy Sherif
  • 7 months ago

Well, I fell in love with my best friend, and he said he loved me back, but after 3 days he said that he doesn't. I think he lied because he was so bored of being single, but I said it's okay, but it wasn't okay. I wasn't okay. I cry myself to sleep every night. I tried to kill myself once, but it didn't work. I am dealing with depression, crying and screaming for help, but all of these noises are in my mind. I can't seem to explain it to people because no one actually cares. I feel so sad. I need help.

  • JamieAdams by JamieAdams, Williamsburg, VA
  • 1 year ago

I just found out that my boyfriend was lying to me the whole time he and I were together, and he cheated on me twice. He was my first everything, and I gave him everything, and in return all I got was a broken heart. It hurts when you find out you can be everything someone wants and still not be enough.

  • Star Fields by Star Fields
  • 1 year ago

Wipe your beautiful tears. He's just not worth crying over. You're more than enough. He just couldn't realize it. He will someday, but it will be too late. You'll be with the one who will appreciate you for all the right reasons. Now, go dry those tears; better days are coming for you.

  • Priscilla Linder by Priscilla Linder
  • 2 years ago

My husband died in February of this year. I lost the love of my life that day he died, but few months later I started seeing this guy who's been by my side through his death. I lost my sister not long after my husband, but the guy I was seeing promised me he never would hurt me. Well, he did. He would ignore me. I would always give him money for his bills to help him and I started getting to see him less and less. He stayed with me one night. That morning, something told me to check his phone. I found him on Meet Me, which is how we met. It's a dating site, and I read what he was saying to these women. I didn't say anything to him, but he knew something was wrong. When he left I did say something, and he said he didn't know he wasn't supposed to be on there. Yeah right, but I forgave him, still gave him money and everything, but I didn't see him for two months and he still wanted me give him money. He told me he only wanted to be friends with benefits with me.

  • Rethabile by Rethabile
  • 2 years ago

I have been dating someone for 7 years. He's a liar and a cheater. And this is not the first time and the last. I keep on forgiving him over and over again because I loved him with everything in my heart and my soul. I don't want to lose him. But I hate fighting for him because I have a short temper. He'd rather go out with his friends drinking the whole night and then go sleep at his girlfriend's place. He will come in the afternoon. Then I will see on his phone calls and message if I am lucky and he didn't delete them. Now I don't know how I can live without him even though he keeps on hurting me. I love him a lot. We have two twin girls, and I don't want my children to live without both their parents under the same roof. I don't want my kids to have a stepmother or a stepfather. I need advice, please. What should I do?

  • Priscilla Linder by Priscilla Linder
  • 2 years ago

Talk to him. I went through the same thing, but I chose to be happy again instead of always getting hurt over and over again. I moved on. I let him go, and my boys loved their stepfather. He was a Baptist preacher, but he passed away in February of this year, which is really, really hard on me now. Try talking to him to see if that works. It has in some relationships I have had in the past like yours. Sometimes it has worked tell him if he doesn't change you're gone. No matter how much you love him, you got to do what's best for you and the babies. If he truly loves you and cares about you and doesn't want you to go anywhere he'll change. I'll be praying for you. God knows who you are, sweetheart.

  • Tereisa by Tereisa
  • 2 years ago

I have been there too many times. I have been with him 13 years, never once did I ever hurt. He has lied, cheated, and never cared once when I felt like I could not go on no more. Now 1 month ago he took the home we shared for 2 years. I more than just love him; I fell so in love with him. I don't know if this felling will ever leave me. I feel stupid for caring, but how do you stop loving someone? All I do is think about him and the things we did together, but now I'm sure she's filling my places now. I cry all the time. I hide it because people tell me I should move on or tell me I should be over him. Well, I'm not, so I know how everyone feels. God bless you all.

  • A Broken Wife by A Broken Wife
  • 2 years ago

I know this all too well. Sixteen years together, two years married, and three kids. At this moment my husband has chosen to be with the mistress...a battle I have been dealing with for 4 years. I still love him, but I can't keep allowing him to do this to me. I don't know how to move on and get over it. It's easier said than done. I pray we get through this, ladies.

  • Jessica by Jessica
  • 2 years ago

I totally understand what you are going through. I'm actually going through this now. I was with my ex for 8 years. Only 3 of the years were good. The rest were like hell. He started to lie and cheat. Always claiming that he had to work. So the dates and time for each other shortened. I suspected one affair he had with a woman who lived across the street from him. After we had broken up, they immediately dated after that. Times I would want him to go to church with me he would never go. But now he goes with her. I just don't understand how someone can be so cruel and break a person's heart like that. Not to mention we work on the same job together. Now I have to face humility on the job also that he was cheating on me.

  • Rehana by Rehana
  • 2 years ago

In 1995 I fell for this Pakistani man, twice married with four kids. I left my family for him. I left everything and converted to Islam. I had been to Pakistan several times. I was working as a manager in one of the airports. I heard he was cheating while still with me. He lied about so many things. He was my first loved, and I started to have high blood pressure in September 2013. That’s the last time I saw him off at the airport. He never called me while in Pakistan. When I call his cell phone it’s off.

I got sick. My kidney gave up, and I still haven’t heard a word from him. I am disabled and dying and have dialysis three times a week. I’m all alone. I’m a broken hearted lover.

  • Donna Welch by Donna Welch
  • 2 years ago

Girl, I know how those foreign men are, but don't trust at all. They lie, cheat, steal and can't be faithful. I feel your pain and am sorry that happened to you. I have been used, hurt, lied to, and broken hearted by men before. I had cancer, and my health is not that good anymore. All I ever wanted was to be loved and accepted for who I am. My last boyfriend cheated on me with his ex of 22 years and told me he was still in love with her. Well I ended it. Got tired of her threats and her showing up at the door. But I know where you're coming from. God bless you. Don't give up; stay strong. Donna

  • William Fenton by William Fenton
  • 2 years ago

Rose are dead
Violets are rotten.
A day hasn't gone by that I haven't forgotten
I gave you my heart
I thought we were art
(I can't think of how to continue this poem started it 3 years ago and left it because of too much pain. I came back to it today to try and finish it, but I don't know how.)

  • Brenda Mage by Brenda Mage, Philippines
  • 3 years ago

That feeling when someone broke your heart but you still love him with all those shattered pieces. We break promises but memories break us. Sad to say that until now I can't seem to move on with this guy who made me look like a fool but I still love him full. I don't clearly see why I still love him when I knew right all along he didn't love me, but now I realized I loved him because I saw something good and I felt something.

  • Amani by Amani
  • 2 years ago

I feel the pain you are going through because I am in the same boat as you. It's difficult to move on. I don't know how they sleep at night. Mine was very recent...he is a convert to Islam, yet his behavior put me off. Basically, he told me to listen to him and send him what he wanted, which were pictures of private body part. I told him go and read the basic of what Islam teaches you. He didn't like it because I had answers for everything, so he ended up calling me names. He told me I am sick in the head, mad, always lie, and cause fights. I laughed so loud and cry at the same time thinking he was the one, the one fell in love with, but I was wrong. I told him it is wrong for you to ask me for such pictures. Then he said you don't love me. I told him, "Congratulations, you just lost me." Love has no race, gender, or color. Just be strong and don't lose hope.

  • Donna Welch by Donna Welch
  • 2 years ago

Brenda, I know exactly how you feel. I'm in love with a guy who doesn't feel the same about me. He says he loves me but really doesn't show it much. He has never been abusive or physically hurt me. Just by his actions. We were together once before, and it didn't work out. But after 2 and 1/2 years we met by chance again. The feelings I had for him were still there, so like a fool we decided to give it one more try. What a dumb fool I was to fall for his charm knowing I would only end up getting my heart broken by him again. Yeah, it hurt as it was very recent. He only wanted a live-in maid, and I learned he was still in love with his ex-girlfriend of 22 years. I couldn't compare to her in his eyes. We slowly drifted apart. And we agreed it was best to end it before it was too late. I have no hate towards him. If only I'd have known, I'd have run the other way. I wish him well, but it still hurts... Wish you all the best. Donna

  • Arturo Perez by Arturo Perez
  • 3 years ago

I feel you so much. I'm in the same situation. Why can't we forget about them? I miss her and I don't want to miss her. I love her still, but I don't wanna love her. She's happy with another guy and I'm jealous and hate it. But I don't wanna hate it or be jealous. I hate these feelings.

  • Adelaide by Adelaide, Minnesota MN
  • 4 years ago

This poem hit me hard because for 6 good years I gave my all to my ex and found out he was cheating on me with my friends and getting them pregnant. This make me sick to my stomach. I thought I was not going to move on but I did. But now I can't trust any men because the pain he put me through during the years. I used to write poem because that's how I express myself but I stopped because the pain was too much to grab a pen or pencil to write. It almost sounded like you were in my head thinking about the words I was thinking. Well said, this was exactly how I was feeling about this guy!!

  • Joshua Vincent by Joshua Vincent
  • 2 years ago

I totally understand how you feel my ex cheated on me too. It has been 6 years and I still can't get over it. We had been in love for 6 years.

  • Rosselly by Rosselly, Portland Oregon
  • 5 years ago

This is a beautiful poem, I'm living the same situation right now and even though I also write poems I get touched by all of you which makes me feel and understand what and how I can change it. Thank you for your poem

  • Sun by Sun, Bhubaneswar
  • 5 years ago

Hey it's really awesome. I would love to make it a song with my music. I want it to touch as much hearts as possible.

  • Jamal by Jamal, Michigan
  • 5 years ago

This poem has touched me a lot to where I just bust out in tears. It really explains what I'm going through now.

  • Didier by Didier, Calgary
  • 5 years ago

That hit me so brutally.
Thank you for writing these words which could never come out of my mouth.
I feel as if you were in my mind writing for me.

  • Rebecca by Rebecca, Fl
  • 5 years ago

Your poem says perfectly what I cannot. After being engaged, having a son and giving years of my life to someone; I feel true heartache. Years that I spent defending him to my family that said he was no good, years spent dealing with his alcohol soaked mother, years waiting on him hand and foot, dealing with his short temper, his depression and garbage of a friend; he decided to break things off and tell me he never loved me. I have built my life, present and future, around him. I have devoted myself to him, all because I love him. I hate having to continue living in the same house because of our son. I am surrounded by him, he's all I want, all I think about. I wish I could be angry and hate him but I can't, not even for five minutes. Your poem, says it all. Every single detail.

  • Sucre by Sucre
  • 6 years ago

This really touched me, I'm going through a lot now, I love her soo much, had a broken heart and my world was gonna crash, but she held me, and I cried in her shoulders. Everyday I felt stronger until I was strong enough to live again. Today I'm in great pain cause she lied about she and her ex's breakup. She treats me right but I can't share, I get hurt but I don't fight or complain, I'm just an option in her life, she keeps lying. My pillow suffer my tears every night. But I love too much to walk away

  • Brenda by Brenda, Mauritius
  • 6 years ago

I met my partner 4 years ago. I really love him but I don't think he understood how much he means to me. He has betrayed me and I suffered a lot. I gave him a chance at a perfect life but he took advantage of my trust and love and broke my heart again and again. One day it clicked for him just how important it was to have me in his life. I was as surprised as I was wary. I had a lot of patience with him our relationship and since there has been a lot of happiness, even until today. Patience brings happiness.

  • Gastiona by Gastiona
  • 6 years ago

I've been with this guy going on seven years and the past year has went down hill. I lay here tonight with a broken heart since Saturday night. He told me a while back he wanted me to leave that he didn't love me. Well that ripped my heart and we seemed to work thru it and I didn't go. He then stopped holding my hand kissing me plainly ignoring me played video game most of time except when time to eat. When he about died from having his stomach took out I was there. I did most house work and helped with his grandma. Look what I've got in return I now live at his moms and am still hurting and crying and I can't even get a call saying how are you. I'm so hurt how about you.

  • Fredi by Fredi
  • 6 years ago

One November cold morning of 2012, I saw her going with her friends. On the 1st sight I fell in love with her. It's my first love. I tried to say my love many times, but I feared to say my love. Two months went over. One day I found that she also loves me. I was happy & excited on that moment. Some months later she avoided me on everything, I don't know why she did like this, but I knew that she loves me still now and forever. Now we're apart. I'm waiting for her returns. I truely love her. I really miss her.

  • Chillicothe by Chillicothe
  • 6 years ago

Wow I guess I'm not the only one that hurts inside I'm young I just turned 12 but I had the first boy I ever loved break up with me on my b day I love him but I pretend that I don't care around him and that I've moved on but really I sit in my room crying all day and listening to sad Taylor Swift music all day and I don't have anyone to talk to at all. He is my brothers friends he live in the house next to mine. Sucks a lot but I will find some one I know it.

  • Nikita by Nikita, Jacksonville
  • 6 years ago

It made me feel like I was her and felt everything she felt. It made me feel really sad but I understands how she feels.

  • Mercy by Mercy
  • 6 years ago

Once I was trying to find my life partner. I met some one after a year. He was nice I liked him. after we closed he was more nice to me. I loved him from the bottom of my heart. I trust him, I care ... after some times he went to US. He promised to back, I believed. He did not call me, no email, no post. I try to find him on Facebook. I couldn't find him. I heard from some one he was in jail. Now it's been two years, I am still in love & waiting for him. I tried everything as much as I can but nothing is changing. There is only one thing is left for me, to wait the will of God. Who knows maybe one day he may back. Every day I am crying. Crying is so nice b/c it bring out my bring in side to this world. When I cry I feel I am speaking in silence, I feel I am laughing in sadness. I feel like shining in darkness this all are just a feeling. The truth is for me .....peace

  • Jasmine by Jasmine, CA
  • 7 years ago

As I read this, I couldn't keep the tears inside. It is so sad when you truly love someone and give them your all because you sincerely believe that they love you just the same. Being in love with someone can be a dangerous thing, especially when he or she knows that you would do anything for them. at this point they start playing with your emotions and so, at the end, all you do is wonder...what did I do wrong?
Just remember that everything happens for a reason and sooner or later that person will realize that you indeed loved him/her. With time the pain will fade away and YOU will find the person who will not only appreciate you, but will love you with the same passion you love them. "To love someone is nothing, to be loved by someone is something, but to be loved by the one you love is verything."

  • Janet Mickelson by Janet Mickelson
  • 2 years ago

I've been hurt in a few relationships, but at least I got to know what love was and what it means to have someone care about you, even if didn't last. I have a few friends who never experienced what it means to be loved, and I feel sad for them. Even though I've been hurt, I can say that someone did love me once.

  • Randfontein by Randfontein, Gauteng West
  • 7 years ago

I am in so much pain today, tomorrow it's my Birthday and today I found out that my husband, the only man I've ever slept with, the man I gave the best 18 years of my life to has a child with another woman and it was hard but I forgave him then today I found out that he's dating another woman..... How could I be so blind, I'm turning 34 years tomorrow and he's 2 years older than me. We have successful careers and expensive cars, a beautiful house and 2 daughters, we grew up in the dusty streets of Soweto together but today I found out that it was all a lie...... I've been crying all day hoping it was a dream but I love myself and know that he's not worth being my husband..... tomorrow (on my birthday) I'm meeting up whit a divorce lawyer ***crying*** I know that it shall pass

  • Ebony by Ebony, Malibu
  • 8 years ago

I feel your pain. I'm 17, the love of my life broke my heart. After I thought I was going to die but trust me, it gets better, you move on and meet someone better, and then he can really see what he missed out on :)

  • Emma by Emma, Malaysia
  • 9 years ago

I cry when I read this poem very touching because a few months ago I had a broken heart.

  • Aurelia by Aurelia, Miami
  • 9 years ago

As I sit here and read this tears fell from my eye's, it's been a year and 3 months and I can't seem to let go..I love him so much..I can't seem to find anyone to make me feel the way he did..when you wrote that I knew you knew the pain of a broken heart..I run back to him hoping he changed but he didn't..I was there for him even when I didn't understand..

  • Rula by Rula
  • 9 years ago

It's just fabulous! It really touched my heart! I really liked the way you expressed your feelings since there are so many people who feel the same but don't know how to express!

  • chloe by chloe
  • 10 years ago

I'm exactly in the same situation now, after 6 years of relationship recently found that there is another woman... I knew something was going on.. but still held on until he admitted that he is living with a woman for 2 years now... I can so much relate with the poem.... because the pain is still inside me..

  • Crystal by Crystal
  • 10 years ago

It reminds me so much of my ex husband and I. Even though we are divorced, we still go back and forth. He wants me one minute and breaks my heart the next. I still love him with all my heart, but it comes with a painful price. I'm afraid to move on, too. In fear that it may be the wrong choice. I love this poem.

  • Kayleigh by Kayleigh
  • 10 years ago

I'm very inspired. This reminds me so much, of the guy I that I once used to call 'my love.' I could almost cry, It's amazing how this poetry can move you in that kind of way.

  • Sarah by Sarah
  • 11 years ago

It almost sounded like you were inside my head. This is exactly how I feel about this guy! I wish I could just forget. I really loved your poem. It made all the sense in the world for me! Thank you

  • chandrashekar by chandrashekar
  • 11 years ago

I really loved the way you have expressed your love feelings in your poem... and the tears came out of my eyes.....

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